If only

"Get out," Joel ordered before getting down from the car.

Oona felt like crying. Why was he so angry? Can't he calm down a little? She is so scared that no words are coming out of her mouth. Oona clumsily stepped out of the car.

"Ahh!" Oona screamed when Joel carried her in a bridal style.

"You, Wh..."

"Shut up, If you don't want to be thrown inside the pond." Joel cut her off with a glare.

"..." 'Hmph just you wait. I will not a single word when you beg me to!' Oona thought inwardly.

Joel looked down at the woman in his arms who became very obedient. Seeing her being such a good girl improved his mood a lot. But he didn't show it as she would start behaving like a thug the moment his anger vanishes.

"Are you cursing me?" Joel asked surprising Oona who indeed was doing that.

Oona cleared her throat awkwardly, "Why would I? And why are you carrying me? I can walk by myself. Let me down."

Joel just looked ahead and ignored whatever she said. Joel stood in front of the door and looked at Oona.

Oona looked up to meet his eyes seeing that they stopped. Her heart skipped a beat seeing Joel's expression. It was as if telling her to open the door he can't wait any longer.

She must have been mistaken, right? No way that was possible. No way that her biometrics are still registered. He was so angry that she knew that he broke every belonging of hers from this home, years back.

In fact, they haven't visited this place for two years after that horrific incident. The villa which was once their heaven's nest became Hell's den too

Oona refused to think about anything regarding the incident two years ago. Oona quickly shook the thoughts out of her head and tried to curse Joel for behaving very coldly with her. But then she didn't like it when he was like this with her. She feels like Joel has turned into a different personality.

"Do you need me to word it for you? Open the door." Joel glared at her.

Oona bit her lips and pressed her fingerprint on the scanner. After a second, it made a beep sound before the door opened. Oona's mind flooded with their memories as soon as they stepped inside the villa. Oona's eyes teared up but she recovered quickly as she told herself that she can never forget whatever happened between them.

The memories poured down in her mind so started struggling in his embrace forgetting whatever she was feeling before.

"Let go, Joel. I said let go!! Damn it, let me down! Joellll!" Oona shouted at him kicking her legs and hands.

Joel furrowed and let her down and took a firm hold on her wrist.

"Oona..." Joel called her in a very low voice.

"What? What the hell are you thinking to bring me here? Do you want to watch me break down? Do you want to watch as I make a fool out of myself?" Oona shrieked as she grabbed his collar.

"Answer me, Joel Liu! What the hell are you doing?"

Joel frowned as his brows furrowed very deeply. He looked at his collar which she was grabbing. He pried her hands off and held her hand.

"Oona... What were you doing with that guy?" Joel asked looking at her hands which were in his now.

Oona scoffed, "What? how does that concern you? Are you my partner? No, you are a past. A PAST. Don't forget it."

"Oona, don't anger me. You know all too well. Don't provoke me to do something extreme."

"What will you do? Hit me? Or hit that man? Kill him? or me? Say, What will you do?" Oona mockingly asked him.

"Oona... Stop this nonsense!"

"I too want to stop everything. Everything that relates to you."

"Oona..."

"Shut up, Joel. You are so selfish. How can you... How can you even think that I will forget everything? Can you? Even If you have put our past behind us, I can't!" Oona said as tears streamed down her face.

She dropped to the floor as she cried, "Why did you bring me here? Of all places why here?"

Joel kneeled and pressed his forehead on her as he cupped her face abruptly, "Oona... Please... Don't... Don't do this to us, to you

It's been more than 3 years Oona. Please I can't take this anymore. Why can't face everything together? Please Oona I won't ask for anything. I promise! I won't. Just don't leave me. Please, Oona. I beg you."

Oona shook her head as she hurriedly stood up and ran to the door. But before she could reach Joel pulled her back.

"F*cking speak, Oona. Beat me, SLap me, Curse at me, I was the one who let that happen. I know it is my mistake. I know. It was all because of me. But please, Oona, I can't continue living like this. Please, Oona, Come back to me."

Oona started crying loudly hearing him, "Every time I look at your face, all I could see is how I lost them. Your face brings me nothing but pain. It doesn't bring me happiness. It just reminds me of all my mistakes...

I regret it so much... If only... If only I could have... But what's the point will they come back alive? Will they? Tell me, I would do anything just to see them once. But can I ever see them again? Can I?

Joel lowered his head as hot tears streamed down his face. But he was still not letting her go. He was still grabbing her hand tightly.

"You can't do anything right? So don't f*cking tell me that you are fine. I will not believe it. I know what you did the 6 months after that incident. I know. I saw the worst of you at that time. So don't bother to tell me lies. As that would be the stupidest thing you could utter" Oona said as she again struggled to get away from that place.

Joel looked up with his red eyes and he pulled Oona to his side. He dragged her with him as he walked to the first floor. Oona stumbled on the stairs several times while trying to match his pace. She didn't struggle as she knew that she can't even move a strand of hair against him. She just let him drag her as she wiped her face with her other hand.

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