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CHAPTER 1♡

Do you ever feel like you're drowning?

Do you ever feel like you're suffocating?

Do you ever feel like the world entire world is against you?

Do you ever just sit and wonder what it would be like if you where born else where or never even existed?

Do you ever just feel tired?

Well that's what I feel like everyday of my life. You hope that one day you will wake up and it's all a dream, but deep down you know it's all real and you have to live like that.

At times I want to give up, I just want to go away, just disappear and just go to him but I know I can't.

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"Daddy" I ran after him crying.

"Daddy come back" I continued running but he just ran and did not look back.

"Daddy please come back....daddy please don't go daddy nooo-"

"ooooooo--"I woke up sweating and crying on my bed, I checked my alarm clock and it's '2:00am'.

My mom came running into my room "Sweetie are you okay? Are you hurt? What happened?"

I just looked at her tear welled up in my eyes "I'm okay mom, just another Nightmare".

"Oh Thank goodness I thought something happened" she hugged me tight and said.

"Okay honey go wash up your face and go back to bed okay?" Mom said looking really worried.

"Okay mom you go back to bed to" with that she left my room and I cleaned my tears and got up to go to the bathroom.

"When will these bad dreams end" I whispered to my self, then washed the tears off my face and went back to bed.

This is the third dream I've had since this week started and it's getting worst each time.

It's been a year since my Dad died and it's been really tough for me and my mom. I just wish that day never happened.

I've gone to several therapist and they never seem to work. My mom is slowly slipping into depression and I worry for her everyday.

I on the other hand miss him so much and just wish I could just see him one more time.

I felt a tear roll down my eye and i wiped it away.

I laid my head on my pillow and as I closed my eyes, I hoped tomorrow will be a good day.

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"Hale hurry up and come down, it's time for breakfast"

"I'm coming mom" I got up and went downstairs. "Morning mom" I said as I sat down for breakfast.

"Morning honey, how was your night?" I remembered the dream i had last night "It was good mom, yours?".

She sighed "It could have been better".

I continued eating and remembering my dream "when your done we need to talk honey, its really important"

"What is it mom your scaring me" I looked at mom worried."Don't worry, just enjoy your breakfast and come to the kitchen when your done" I was still worried though "Are u sure?" I asked not convinced by her answer "Very" she smiled and went to the kitchen.

I ate fast and went to the kitchen "what is it you wanted to talk about"

"We are moving" Did I just hear what I think I heard?

"Sorry mum what did you say? I seemed to have heard you say we are moving but you would never say tha--"

"We're moving" mum said not looking at me.

"What? Wait what, I don't understand" I began to ramble "where are we gong to? when? why are we moving mom tell me why" I can't believe this, can this day get any worst.

Mom looked at me and said "I know its a lot to take in, but honey please try to understand. We can't be here forever. Honey your dad will want us to mo-"

"Dad, dad, how do you know that he will want us to move out" at this point I was shouting "Don't tell me that mom, don't" I felt a tear slip down my cheek " mom please don't make me move" I looked at her with teary eyes "I can't got mom pls I can't, thus is the only thing I have left of dad, please mom you can't take that away from me" I was full out crying now.

"Please mom, please I'm begging you not to do this please don't" mom got up and hugged me "sweetheart its for the best" I looked up at her and I knew what to do.

I cleaned my tears "okay mom, I'll go".

She smiled immediately, I knew she was happy I'm agreed. But am I happy?

"I'll tell you when and where we are going tomorrow honey, but right now you need to go to bed".

"Okay mom goodnight". To be honest, I am kind of regretting saying yes. "Honey" I looked back wondering why she's calling me "yes mom" she smiled "Don't worry you will love it there, Goodnight"

I smiled at her "I hope so".

When I got to my room, I got under my blanket and turned off the light.

I just want to wake up from this constant nightmare I'm living, it all just doesn't seem real but no matter how much I pinch myself or slap myself I know I won't wake up.

I just feel trapped in this reoccurring nightmare, everyday I wake up to the same thing, nothing changes.

When will this nightmare end?

Am I going to continue to suffer everyday like this forever?

Can my life get any worst?

Funny enough it can, thats why I question my existence everyday.

I have always had a feeling that I don't belong in this world and life never seems to prove me wrong.

I really don't belong here.

I am sick and I am tired of life, when will it end?

just when will it end?

I just want it to end.

And I felt my eyes closing.

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Hi guys, this is my first story please don't be to hard on me, I hope you like it. Before you ask Hale is not based on me, she is strictly from my imagination.

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