Prologue

...My heart raced in my chest and my limbs went weak as I began to shiver allover. I looked up into Jordan's eyes, they were dark with a mixture of rage and lust. His face was so close to mine and his breath was warm against my face as he pinned me up against the wall of the coat room. There was a heavy smell of wine in his breath, as if he had been drinking a lot.

His firm, thick lips curled up into a vengeful smile as he glared into my eyes.

"I asked you a question. What were you doing with him?" He said, repeating the question he had just asked me. I stared into his eyes, not sure of what to say. I didn't know how to begin to explain it to him that it had all been a coincidence, at least on my own side. I had not been aware that Daren would attend the function too, but Daren had confessed to me that he had come to the function when he heard that I would be in attendance. I never expected that Jordan would show up so suddenly, and that was why I agreed to speak with Daren in the first place. Now, there was no way that I could convince Jordan that it was a coincidence. He would think that I was lying to him, and there was no way I could defend myself. So I remained quiet, looking into his eyes, hoping that for this once, he would trust me and know that I wasn't doing anything to betray him.

It was hopeless, my silence only provoked Jordan the more. He gritted his teeth like he always did whenever he was angry, and his eyes hardened.

"You don't want to tell me?" He asked, the smell of wine was stronger as he spoke. He leaned in even closer to me and his breath caused my face to tingle. "Do you still want him? Are you still obsessed with him?" He asked.

"Jordan..." I began to say in a whisper, but Jordan cut me off as his firm lips came down on my small soft ones, crushing them with a vengeance. His tongue forced my lips open and made it's way into my mouth as he deepened the kiss. He lifted me off my feet and hung my legs around his waist, still bracing me against the wall with one of his hand for support, while the other found it's way up to my small breast. I moaned in pleasure and bent over, pushing deeper into him as his hand on my breast began to fondle my soft mound, squeezing my nipple and driving me crazy. His lips left mine and began to trail a kiss down my neck, all the way to my chest. He pulled me away from the wall briefly to undo the zip of my dress, then he pulled my dress down all the way to my waist, revealing my bare breast. My nipples were hard as nuts, and my chest rose and fell rapidly, my heart beating wild.

I couldn't hold back my cry of pleasure when Jordan's warm lips descended on one of my mounds, sucking in the hard nipple, while his free hand worked on the other simultaneously.

"Does he touch you like I do?" He asked me, his breath scalding hot against my skin as his lips and hand exchanged places. I let go of a loud groan, thrusting deeper into his kiss.

"Jordan..." I muttered softly. I wanted to tell him that nothing had happened between Daren and I, but my mind was covered in a mist of pleasure and my lips were too weak to form any words.

"When you are with him, does it feel this good? Do you say his name like you say mine? Does he make you writhe in pleasure like this?" He asked, his kisses trailing down to my abdomen, then back to my nipple. Once again, I could not answer.

I moaned and sighed and cried out aloud as he continued to suck on me mercilessly. The mound between my legs was already wet and desperate for Jordan's attention. So, I began to grind against him, thrusting into him, hoping that he would take the clue and reach a hand down to my loin.

But just then, Jordan suddenly stopped. He set me down on my feet and I stood there half naked, a little confused and still very dizzy with pleasure. I looked up into his face and he had an ugly smirk on.

"Jordan, please..." My voice was coarse and breathy as I begged, not even sure of what I was begging him for. His smirk widened into a vengeful grin as he stepped away from me. His eyes hardened again as he glared at me with an expression that resembled irritation, as if he had not just been allover me.

"Please..." I begged again, reaching out for him desperately, but he avoided my hand. He lifted his chin with an air of determination and resolve.

"I hope that reminds you of who you belong to. You are my wife, you should act more responsibly. I wouldn't have you parading around town with any man, especially not my little nephew." He said, then he leaned a little closer and whispered. "Next time I see you with him again, I won't let you off this easily." He said seriously. Then he turned around and began to leave. I felt a lump rise up to my throat, and I wanted to breakdown and cry. But I willed myself to stay calm.

"Get dressed. I will be waiting for you outside." He said over his shoulder, then he walked out of the coat room.

I stood in the same spot for a long time after Jordan left the room. I looked up and caught sight of my reflection in the mirror and again, I felt like breaking down. I looked awful. My dress was still hanging around my waist and my hair was a disheveled mass of mess.

Tears welled up in my eyes and my nose tickled painfully. I bit down on my lips to hold back a cry that was rising from in my throat.

I felt horrible and pitiful and hurt, but most of all, I felt anger. Anger towards Jordan for how much he had hurt me ever since he came into my life. Anger at him for constantly making me feel this way, this horrible. But then, I was even more angry at myself for being this pitiful. Even with all the hate and humiliation that Jordan had put me through, I still couldn't bring myself to hate him. I was still hopeful that one day he would see me as more than an unfaithful wife and a gold digger who he had to keep trapped to keep away from his younger brother.

The fact that I still couldn't control myself every time he was near me, or hold myself back from reacting to his touch, the fact that I still hoped that one day, he would touch me with a little more gentleness and feeling, and not just to punish me, all this made me hate myself even more.