A cheers of pain in celebration

She's been gone for many but she remain in my father heart and our people. I know my capabilities and skills that might be can qualify to become a Queen but sadly all of them neglect me and rejected me with no hesitation and doubts. I been searching for my best that could be enough for them but every day, my Father rejected me with no doubts. He even insisted that no matter what I do and what I can achieve people will never accept me for who I am because they blame me for losing the Queen of our palace.

Oneday, my Birthday came, I been waiting every birthday to be celebrated with my father but every birthday says no. I keep wishing that might be my birthday will be the reason to gain my father attention but hell no! He doesn't remember my birthday. He forgotten all about me. He only remember me, once my mother day came. He keep telling me everyday, how much he wishes to me to be disappear in his life forever.

My butler Joseph give me a birthday cake and he says, Happy birthday Princess remain strong and loveable believe me, one day the King will notice you. Princess, I may be your butler but I can be a Father you've been looking for many years. You can call me father if you want. You are welcome to visit in my home.

While Joseph reading his wish for me, I am sobbing silently. In my mind, how lucky the children of Joseph are that he is the father. While I am here, waiting to be recognized by my father's love. I hugged Joseph and cry on his shoulder. Wishepring him that I am thankful for his love and attention that he gave to me.

One night, I sneek out of the Palace. I hide myself in a place I called my secret graden. In this place no one is allowed to enter without my permission. In this garden, it witness every tears I had, every pain I had, every single word that I hated for my parents. In this garden no one will judge me for who I am. No one will asked me to act like somebody else. No one can hear me crying screaming for every pain I had. How I wish, I can leave and disappear even just for a year or a month. Go to a place where no one will know and I can be who I am.