1 prologue.

i was dumb-founded after hearing the results from the doctor. i wanted to cry, but no, i have to hold back myself to look strong in front of my mother.

because i know she'll get more hurt once she sees me being and/or feeling sad or hurt.

i smiled bitterly to the doctor ❛❛i still got quiet a long time to live, right doc?❜❜ i asked trying to look all bright as i held my mom's hand and give it a light squeeze.

the doctor heaved a sigh ❛❛unfortunately, you only got half a year and a week left to-❜❜

❛❛perfect!❜❜ i exclaimed standing up from my seat clasping my hands together with a (fake?) bright smile ❛❛that's just enough time, to bid my farewell to all my love ones. ain't that right, mom?❜❜ i diverted my gaze to my mother who was crying from hearing the bad news.

how i hate to see her being sad because of me— i'm being a big fat pain to ass to the family especially to mom.

i called out my mother again causing her to raise her head to look at me and wipe her cheeks that was stained by her tears. i could see the pain she's feeling just by looking at her sparkling hazel brown eyes.

i gave my mother a bright smile ❛❛am i right mom?❜❜ i asked kneeling down in front of her.

instead of giving me an answer she bursted into tears and engulfed me into a tight hug.

doctor hwang sat behind her table as she watch the scene being unfold. i know she pities me— i mean who wouldn't pity a girl who only has a year and a week left to live and enjoy her life with her love ones.

who wouldn't pity someone who has a terminal cancer like me?

yes, terminal cancer. my mom and i think that i probably got it from my father since he died with this illness four years ago (a/n: idk if deceases like these can be passed).

i pursed my lips into a thin line as i hold back my tears. i silently broke the hug and stood up in front of doctor hwang who had on a sad expression ❛❛we will be going now, doc hwang!❜�� i said taking a bow in front of her and flashed her a bitter smile.

she nodded her head and stood up from her seat as she then went to the door and open it ❛❛pay a visit sometimes here on my clinic, hmm?❜❜ she said giving me a smile.

i helped my mom up as she was still on downpour ❛❛i will, doc.❜❜ i guided my mom out of the doctor hwang's clinic and was already three steps away from it.

before me and my mom could even continue walking the doctor called out my name which made me turn my head and look at the doctor with a brow raised

❛❛don't forget to use your time wisely❜❜ i nodded flashing het a bright smile before continuing to walk with my mother

once we had already stepped out of the hospital i stopped my tracks and held my mother. pulling one of her mother's hands covering that was her face, i jerked my head in front of my mother's sight with a smile on my face.

❛❛mom, stop crying❜❜ i said giggling.

she raises her head up and wipes her tears away ❛❛why are being all bright and smiley even though you already know you only have a year and a month to—❜❜

❛❛it's a year and a week❜❜ i chuckled correcting my mother only to be then slapped at the shoulder by my one and only mother

she held her chest and gasped dramatically ❛❛that's even worst! i— don't tell me your happy because your life would end soon!❜❜ she said raising her voice a little causing us to earn some looks from the people passing by.

one of them was very familiar, he's a doctor. i flashed them an apologetic smile as i then shifted my gaze to my mom ❛❛what are you even saying, mom? for god's sake, of course not!❜❜ actually, i was always wishing that i would just die but now that i'm near to my dead line, i realized that i don't have much time left ❛❛it's just that, i know crying about it won't help me.. it'll probably worsen my state❜❜

she heaved a sigh as a smile crept on her lips ❛❛you are right, let's just enjo—❜❜

my mom was interrupted by my stomach growling as it was getting hungry ❛❛hehe.. i'm hungry.. can we go out and eat?❜❜ i said smiling sheepishly.

my mom laughed at me and nodded her head as a reply. we then started to walk to the nearest convince store.

i'll make sure to use my time wisely, i promise.

— s t a r t !

disclaimer !

📌 lowercase intended for this book so don't @ me.

📌 i don't think this will get much attention so i don't it'll be necessary to update much.

📌 this will probably take longer to finish this despite it being a short story.