VINCE GIVES SIDNEY MORAL SUPPORT

Wanting to laugh because this child is only eight years, yet she can psych out the way I am feeling, and Chrystal and I have been friends for years and she can't see the thing I dislike and is constantly hurting me.

Thanking the Lord in his heart for saving him from totally embarrassing himself. He knew his rage was boiling and a bit of jealousy had poked its ugly head.

He was already to overflow and explored, knowing if that had happened he won't have only embarrassed himself, but also Sidney and her family.

With that in mind he knew she would have never forgiven him. Knowing all her family, neighbours and friends are there.

And I am absolutely sure it would have given her something extra to become angrier about, these days I am not putting anything pass her.

When the Pastor suddenly got up and walks to the front and took the mike. As he began speaking. Vince went and sit quietly by her side, holding Haley on top of his lap. Vince notice when she glimpse at him and her eyes widened a bit. 'I know this was a shock and she was not expecting to see me here.

Taking her hand in his knowing she won't pull it away with her mom sitting next to her. Also, he was happy he didn't ignore the small voice in his head when he was at the office.

Wondering what she must be thinking, seeing me here when she didn't tell me anything about the funeral.

Glimpsing at him, 'Why is he here? and who told him granma Ursilla has passed on? Sidney felt this joy and comfort with him just being there, automatically all the anger that has been brewing for so long has vanished.

Why is that? when I have been praying for so long, and every time I see him, everything that happened that night at the party surface, bringing back a fresh set of hatred.

Suddenly a fresh set of tears welled up in her eyes feeling so broken, Sidney slowly tightens her hold in his hand and leans her head on his shoulder.

Vince didn't want to release his hold from her hand, so he twisted his head a bit and kissed her head to reassure her that he was here for her.

When the Pastor called her to help with the singing, she went up but as she sing, In the sweet bye and bye she broke down.

Hurrying to her side Vince took the program they distributed and continue where she had stopped.

Happy when she pulled herself together to take the lead, then she sang her heart out. When she began to sing, 'When we all get to heaven,' loving that song from a child I took the guitar and strummed alongside her as we sing together.

The joy I felt at that moment was unspeakable. I never really heard her sing except for that song on the phone, and while she sleeps, but this is special.

Understanding why the Lord urged him to visit her parent, it is because she needed my help. Also understanding it was the Lord who has given him the song in his head, everything I do, I do it for you.

During the massage, she never let go of my hand, It was only then Vince understood what she likes, He decided right there and then, he needs to start going to church with her, maybe things will change for us.

Having to comfort her when they move the casket from the home hearing her crying Vince hugs her while the others take care of her mother.

Her brother came in the nic of the time when the family needed each other. Jeff was there to help with the comforting of the family, they seems to be a close nitted unit.

The evening was long and very tedious. When she finally stop crying and relax a little I took her home.

When we reach home from the moment we enter through the door and she glimpses Chrystal, A wall automacally was built seperating us. 'Oh Lord, why does Chrystal have to visit so often?'

Noticing Sidney slowly step aside, away from me and glared at me, 'all the tenderness that was there the entire evening slowly disappears and she returns to her old self once again.'

Becoming angry instantly seeing the way she looks at me as if I am encouraging Chrystal and her behaviour was even more vicious.

Her silence was worse than her bite, she didn't fix my meals that evening nor my breakfast the next morning. That remained so until Chrystal left Monday morning.'

As the thought crosses Vince's mind from deep within, 'Does she behaves so because she is jealous of Chrystal, or has she fallen in love with me?

Could that be the reason why she is so vicious when she sees Chrystal coming to visit? If that is the case then why is it so difficult to read her out?

And her behavioural pattern shifted so drastically that her expression becomes unreadable?'

It wasn't long after she returns to the same as before the funeral. Most nights when I woke up, she wouldn't sleep on the sofa, if not, when I go to the closet room, she was either on her knees praying or working.

I could never figure out what she is thinking or what her next move will be, but she started to look frail and around her eyes had dark circles. Looking closely at her was like I playing an opponent in a chess game.

She bundles up her feeling and hides to protect herself, she was not allowing or depending on the pawns, rook, bishop or king to protect her.

Those few hours I spent with her that day for the funeral were all I had to cherish, because she was back to her own safe zone and I am completely left out in the cold.