21 chapter 21 backlash and discussion

After absorbing all the sins and my emotions spiraling in every direction possible, my head started to throb in pain as all the sins tried to find their balance inside of me. The pain grew to be too much, and I ended up passing out. As I lay there unconscious most of my actions started to replay in my head and how each sin was changing me.

As I recalled sloth I remembered how my body was heavy. But it allowed me to see the easiest solution to my problems. It was not at a level where it could show me everything but I could see a few shortcuts. As I remembered gluttony I remembered my father's cooking and wanting to eat it. I was unable to transfer my hunger from food but with more training, I should be able to.

Pride felt amazing as if I was at the top. I viewed it as more of a leadership skill. Being able to fake being a good leader is being cocky and prideful. Wrath, I remembered all the anger I had from my past life and the need for revenge. I believe Apael said I called all the demons back. Well as long as I have some time everything should work out.

Greed was the easiest change to see. I could determine the price for something but right now I was limited to a couple 100 gold max until I mastered more of the sin. That is when it hit me. Envy I recalled seeing apael with all those demons in the Karian kingdom. I was envious of how they were all around her. My greed to have her be with me and only me. My pride showed only I was good enough for her and only I could have her.

My hunger grew for her touch and wanting to feel her close to me. The wrath I felt and the need to take vengeance on all that approached her. How I wanted to be lazy with her and just cuddle in her arms. Well, lust was obvious that I wanted her because of her good looks. All my sins could correlate with the one person I wanted in my life.

But in my enhanced envious state I forced myself on her and branded her with my mark binding her as a partner. I felt really guilty I did not ask her permission or talk about our feelings. Would she end up hating me? After hours of my body adjusting to all my sins I started to wake up.

As I looked up my head was on Apaels legs as she was looking down at me with a smile. I felt my vision blur as I started to cry. "I-i'm sorry apael I did not mean to do that…."

She shook her head softly before kissing my forehead. "It is okay little Amadea. If I did not like you, I would not have let you brand me. With your strength, I could have easily prevented it. But now that you did it you do owe me a proper relationship don't you think so?"

"A proper relationship? I never had a relationship before. How would you even date?" I had all these new questions and desires to be in a relationship but was worried about how to properly date.

Looking at her devilish smile as she began to speak sent chills down my spine. "Well first since I am older I will take the lead. But we have close to 3 years to go out and date and experience everything a relationship has to offer."

I smiled letting her take the lead. How do I get blessed with other people willing to help me and pamper me? "So does that mean we are dating now?"

She shook her head laughing at me." No. First, you have to ask. Will you be my girlfriend and wait for a response. So will you Amadea be my girlfriend?"

My face turned a bright red my whole body feeling hot." I would love to be your girlfriend. You will be the apple of my eye apael." I kissed her cheek not having the courage to kiss her on the lips.

We spent hours talking about our past. Well, most of the good mainly. I wanted to share all the happiness I had these 12 and a half years with her. After all the happy times I decided to share most of the bad experiences I had as well. From the betrayal of Suzy to even my memories of my past life. If I was going to be with her she should at least know about my past and how I lived two lives.

"I'm sorry my little birdie if I was there I would slaughter your old family for how they treated you…" I saw the hurt in her eyes as she spoke wishing she could have been there to protect me. (A/N Birdie Amadea Hellswallow took swallow like the bird and gave her the pet name birdie from apael. Amadea will call her apple why? Because she likes apples. But if you have nicknames you think are cute and want to use drop them in the discord or comments below.)

It was a good end to the day. We ended up taking a bath together. She used the excuse of keeping an appearance as my servant but honestly, I think she tricked me to take advantage of me! After our bath we got dressed and ready for bed. I curled up into her embrace and slowly fell asleep.

Months went by and I kept training my sinergy using Apael as my catalyst for everything, strengthening my feelings for her. It made it easier for the most part to have strong emotions for someone and use them to strengthen yourself.

I felt my sinergy and my body strength going up but I could still not call open my status no matter how hard I tried. But I do not really need it. I still will get warnings every time I absorb lust but that is the only notification I get. I have been living a very fulfilling few months. But Apael fell ill today and sent me out alone. I was going back early to take care of her. Slowly I opened the door to my house noticing how dark it was. I felt suspicious of something.

A/N remember if you have any questions feel free to comment. But I may not see them right away but if you go to the discord I will get the message sooner and be able to respond quicker.