High Above yet so below, My Expectation aren't that high but Holy -

This is difficult, seeing girls on tv having a happy life. I hate it, I want to have also luxurious life was that to much to ask?

I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it

why can't it be me? I just want to be happy

"Dear don't hate your life" I just want to hear these words, yet everyone seem to think that I'm okay... of course I look okay! do you think I'll just breakdown at the staircase and cry while waiting for that someone who'll wipe these tears away?

Blabbering these words in my head while running from something I wish I never see

""It's alright let it all out..." I just wish! Why!? just why no one asks me if I'm okay?! they all just assumed that I'm always fine but I'm not!"

I made my way up at the stairs leading to the school's rooftop, there I just sat I at the stairs as my tears poured out I can't contain it any longer.

I should've just die! what's the point of living if I can't get one! just one thing I wanted the most?!

I cursed at the earth and heavens above so loud in my head yet so little what came out all that's left in my mouth was "Life's unfair".