chapter 10

ˢʰᵒʳᵗ ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ

Jeongguk's POV

"Long time no see, brother."

Why is he here? I mean, why in y/n's place? Also, why is he back? What is he doing here? And judging with those smirks? Huh, I can tell that he is up to something. Isn't he tired doing his life on shit?

But what makes me shivered is when his smirk changes into a genuine smile, which I haven't seen for so long. Yeah, it's been 5 years the last time we met. He shut his self out from us. And after that, he didn't contacted us. He didn't know how broke mom was.

"Jeongguk.. uhm since you're here.. can I talk to you?"

Huh?

The way how his words are tangled are telling me that he is nervous. I am too. We don't like each other, he hates me. He hates me because I simply got everything. While he doesn't. Like how can he anyway? All he did was keep on hating on me. Because I simple got everyone's attention, especially mom. I didn't want it either, how can I be proud of that? I got all their love and attention because I'm fucking sick. Because I'm dying.

Pushing all the thoughts away, I nodded to him. My mouth can't let any words, I don't know why. Maybe I'm that surprised?

I saw Jimin and Taehyung exchanging looks, they look so worried. This is so embarrassing especially in front of y/n.

Justine and I headed outside to talk privately. I waited for him to talk. But he seems nervous so I decided to break the ice.

"Why are you back? I thought you were good there?" That's for real, I know he is a quiet popular in L.A for streaming games. He is really good when in comes to it. I remember back then, he always makes fun of me because I can't win over him and I let him do it because that's the only thing making him smile.

"Yeah living there was good, but you know.. it's lonely." He said picking up his e-cigarette in his pocket. When did he started doing this??

"Then why did you left Korea, why did you left us?" I already know the answer, but I just want to hear it from him.

"You know exactly why."

I rolled my eyes hearing it, he just chuckled.

"I was jealous okay? All of their attention was only on you. We are twins, but I feel that mom and dad are not fair." I heard him sighed.

"But 3 years later after I left, I realized that they are just doing it for your own good, I mean.. you know.. nevermind, I was just dumb back then." He continued and silently cussed enough for me to hear it. I smiled at him, I think him staying at L.A really made him good.

Thinking all those years, mom was always being careful on me. All of my actions were limited. That's why I totally envy this man, he used to play and do whatever he wants. While me, what a pain in ass that I'm not even allowed to join the varsity team.

I was like my mom's doll, she always got my attention. She will give everything to me although I exactly don't want it. That's why Justine is so mad at me. Hah, little did he know I hate how my mom treated me. Cut the 'spoiled kid' thing, maybe I am but I don't really liked it.

Now that Justine is back, I think its good. Mom always been so worried about him. I can tell that she will cry knowing that Justine is finally here, asking for sorry. I knew that this day will come. Justine is not that hard headed boy, honestly he is more kind and shy compared to me.

"So you're here to say sorry?" I looked at him, crossing my arms together. Hekd took a deep breath and sighed. His taking a hard time, and I know he he struggling in his life. Jimin told me everything.

"I-im sorry... I really am."

I tapped his shoulder and hugged him.

It's been a while...

He is crying his hands are shaking so I took them and give a gentle squeeze.

"Yahh stupid, it's okay. I already forgave you." He tightened the hug as I pat his back.

I missed this, I missed him.

We talked for a bit more. I even offered him to stay in my house but he declined it. I even gave him some supporting money, he also didn't accept it. He just told me that he is fine although I know his not. I told him about mom and he said he is not ready to meet her.

"Jeongguk, you know what? You're secretary is cute."

What??

I mean yes she is. But why did it made me uncomfortable?

"Is she single?"

"NO! I-i mean i don't know.."  fuck, what's happening to me???

"Ohhh I see..." He giggled which somehow irritates me.

Why do I feel weird?? What is this?? Do I really like her?? Fuck please no.. this is not good.

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𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒆𝒆. 𝑰𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚, 𝒊𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒘 𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒌𝒔. 𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒔 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆. 𝑨𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒊𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒍𝒐𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒐𝒐𝒌. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒑𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒐𝒐𝒏.

(𝑼𝒏𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒅)