Lost LOST

{Two days later}

JENNIE

"where are you lost these days " my deskmate asked me in a surprised tone

"I_I_I am r_r_right here what do you need "I said in rather a trembling way

"I 'm just a bit exhausted I couldn't get to sleep last night . Do you need anything"

"No I was just asking "she said

"oh ! "

"Do you have science notes from yesterday lecture . You know I was punished so it was not possible for me to do so "

"Yes! they are in my bag you can copy them during breaktime " I said and then turned back to take them out of my bag when suddenly I shook my head back immediately . My heart started pounding I got short of breath , my whole body lost its energy . It seemed like someone has just snatched my soul making my body freeze . My cheeks turned red like tomato and I felt warmth at my earlobes .

"what happened ? Do you have a fever ? But just now you were all right ? Is everything okay with you ?" Jizelle worryingly asked me

*T/n: jizelle is the name of jennie's deskmate

"I I_a_am_ok_k_a_a_a_y " My tongue and my looks just didnot support my answer

"you sure !"

"or else I should take you to infirmary "she said

The voice inside of me wanted to tell her how much disturbed I am these days how thought of this new guy makes me crazy , how seeing his face turns me pale out of blue , how ever since he came my heart is standing on verge of chaos and confusion . Even though I know the answer to these emotions I still can't accept the fact that I have lost my heart and my soul to someone whom I don't even know . I don't even know his name how can , how can I simply just fall for him like this . Maybe its only because of the dopamine secretion .

I kept thinking of all this shit during my way to bathroom while washing my face, when all of this was still ongoung in my brain I shouted out loud "ITS NOT LOVE! ITS SURELY NOT LOVE ! LOVE IS NIT LIKE THIS !"

jizelle suddenly looked my way making ne realize my mistake "what are you shouting about what love ? whats not like this ? Can you atleast think of my reputation I don't wanna get punished by teacher because of your fucking cries . Go **** your thoughts somewhere else after school . For god sake don't do it again in school especially in such a high volume . PLEASE !"

I totally understood her if I were her I might do the same or maybe a bit more harsh . When we returned teacher was already in class we told her about why we left the class and she let us join the lecture . The thought of him sitting right behind me made it unable for me to focus on the clsss . All I kept thinking about was that day's incident and trying to find a way to apologize I was so emerged in my thoughts that I didnot notice that teacher has been calling me for god knows how much time . When I finally spared her voice a bit of my attention she growled "In which world are you right now ?"

"I_I_am sorry " l replied

"what sorry ! I have been noticing you for the last few days you aren't yourself these days . What exactly is wrong with you ? would you kindly bother to tell me ! you have zoning out and I have been letting you go, Is everything okay with you ?"she said in quite na exhausted way

I knew the reason behind she saying all this and I also knew that normally I put my bitch cold face on but now I look no different from a wilted flower and the only answer that echoed in rom afterwards was "I am lost !"

Whole class was staring at me , mouth wide opened and faces with a huge question mark