1 Chapter 1: I'm not lucky with women
I have no luck with women ...
How to say it?
Am I mean to them?
I don't know, I'm just not lucky with them ...
I always thought that as long as I followed the rules of life, I wouldn't have to worry ...
How wrong I was.
Even if I follow the rules, that doesn't mean that the people around me follow them.
Let me tell you a little bit of the story and how I got to this.
When I was a child, my father once told me ...
[Love my son ... I hope that one day you will find a woman who loves you and with her, you will find happiness]
Those words were the trigger for me to find my happiness.
So with my father's words, I looked in my childhood for women with whom I would be happy.
I found one easily ...
When I was 11 years old, I had my first girlfriend, a girl with whom we shared classes in elementary school, although many thought it was a passing love, I took this relationship very seriously.
This would be my happiness, after all, I couldn't allow myself to be negligent.
Unfortunately, our relationship ended a year later.
The cause of this was her parents ... Apparently, they did not like that their daughter was 'dating' someone like me.
Of course, I did not give up, so I looked for the cause of my failure ...
Apparently, they didn't want their daughter to be with a hopeless idiot like me ...
This was a blow to a child like me ...
But I did not give up, I did not want this to become a shadow that hinders my future.
So I prepared, studied, and studied ...
I was at the bottom of my grades, but after a year of effort, I was the first in my grade, graduating with honors from elementary school.
With this my goal of not being a fool was complete ...
As long as I continued with my good scores, I thought achieving a future would not be so difficult.
So when I thought about going back to my ex, the harsh reality hit me, her family had moved abroad, so my first love ended ...
A year later I met another woman again, as a high school student and since it was not my first time, I did not make the same mistake.
I made an effort in my qualifications and came out as the winner being the first, although many hated me for that, I do not care, as long as I find happiness I do not care about those little things.
After a year of dating, they cut me off again ...
This frustrated me, I did not understand how I had failed this time, so I investigated and found out that this girl's family was rich...
So their standards were high, they didn't want a dirty and humble like me in their daughter's life.
I could understand it, our social classes were different ...
So for two years, I looked for ways to make money, after all, if money is important for a relationship and happiness, I should have gotten it, but for someone like me who entered his teens it was very difficult, but not impossible.
The internet made this much easier...
I studied literature and soon my first book was published, being a minor my father took all my money, but this was not enough.
From what I did my research on the stock market and made some investments with the help of my father and before I knew it the money in the bank was in the thousands ...
Two years passed, with this I thought that my reputation and the money in my account, my ex's family would look at me with different eyes, I was a teenager and I already had enough money to buy a house, so I thought this would be enough...
I've arrived late...
My ex already had another person in her life and I honestly felt betrayed, that guy had more money than me and social status, so I was depressed for a month before going on with my life again ...
Now I was a high school student, with my two failed relationships I thought it would be different now.
I kept my scores near perfect and continued with my investments, so I got a girlfriend after a month.
Everything was going great, I even thought that I had finally got the girl of my life.
I was wrong...
That woman cheated on me with another guy ...
What failed? I didn't know, the only thing I knew was that my feelings were broken ...
But I didn't give up, so I investigated the reason for her cheating.
And it turns out that my skinny and weak physique was not attractive to women, this was a hard blow ...
So I started training, went to the gym, ran in the morning, and took karate classes.
Now that I had enough money, I thought it would not be a bad idea to spend a little, so a year passed.
The skinny and weak I was gone, my body grew and my muscles stood out in my student uniform, of course, I did not neglect my studies and I continued with my business.
A month later I got another girlfriend, apparently, my muscles were driving her crazy ...
Even my first time was with that girl ...
Everything was going great ...
A year later, I finished with her.
Again they deceived me ...
WHY?!
I did not know, I became depressed again and investigated the reason behind the deception.
Turns out I wasn't good enough
being 'sweet' ...
I didn't really understand what it meant but keep investigating.
I sank into the possession and books of love, to understand more about women.
By then high school ended and I started college.
This time I did not trust me, so I first investigated the girl I wanted for me and with all, I learned it was not difficult to catch a woman.
After a few presents and roses, I found a girlfriend again.
Of course, I was still the first in my grade, I still maintained my investments and trained my body every day.
This time I did not neglect my partner and deal with all the love that I could give him.
We went out on dates, I bought her jewelry, sent her flowers, sang love songs, and went on vacation ...
Her parents even accepted me ...
But it's a shame ... They tricked me again ...
WHY?!
Two years of relationship to garbage ...
This time I didn't have the energy to get depressed, so I looked for the cause of all this ...
And it turns out that she did not please her sexually, according to her I stunk in her sex and that is why I look for another man that if he gave her what she asked for ...
Everything is fine, I could understand ... But.
WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THIS ?!
If sucked at sex, broke up with me!
There is no need for you to have another relationship behind my back!
I was furious, I couldn't understand why she didn't want to end up with me, even the gifts that she bought so much for her, she sent them to the other.
This made me very angry, seeing that guy with the jewelry that I bought, even those expensive phones, so between the cries of that woman, I finished with her, I did not want to continue being a cuckold ...
So to avoid making the same mistake, I investigated everything about sexual pleasure, I read books and even hired a beautiful professional woman to teach me in that area, trying all the sexual positions that were on the Internet, even the most difficult I could apply them, well this is also credit to my teacher who had a flexible and light body.
Although the lessons were not cheap, money was the least of my worries, with the hospital that he founded, he continued to receive money even without working.
So with my hard efforts, I was finally able to please my teacher and she told me this, no woman resists me in sex.
I was satisfied with this.
So I reached the last year of university and with everything I learned, I got another girlfriend ...
This relationship applied everything I learned, I was even praised as a beast in bed, everything was going great.
We graduated from university and became officially doctors, even my father cried at the graduation ceremony ...
Everything was fine, until a year later ...
Again they deceived me ...
I do not know what to think...
What failed? What did I do wrong?
And again ... If you have another relationship.
WHY DON'T YOU END UP WITH ME ?!
WHY FOOL ME ?!
Even when I had eyes only for you ?!
Haaa ~
It is no use crying over the spilled milk, just as the court when I found out about her betrayal and shit, I even had a ring in which I would propose marriage.
Again I went back to investigate ...
What happened? I didn't know, after spending a whole year looking for the answer I couldn't find it.
So again seek professional help and hire a psychologist.
After six months in therapy, my mind opened to many possibilities.
The human mind is highly variable and unpredictable.
So with everything learned, I put my teachings into practice and went out to 'hunt'.
And I seduced my psychologist that she is immoral and the work ethic does not allow it, but I wanted to know what was happening with women's minds and if I could understand them.
Unfortunately, my psychologist did not want anything serious and I could only get a physical relationship ...
Well, at least I tried.
So find another woman ...
And soon I found another, she was very beautiful, the most beautiful I have ever seen in my life, I even thought that fell in love at first sight ...
I seduced her, tried everything to let her know about my feelings, but even after a year, I couldn't even steal a kiss from her.
This was quite a challenge, a super tough woman ...
But I did not give up, I believed that with my studies, my money, my reputation as a doctor, my sexual techniques, and my sweet words, I had everything a woman needs.
And seeing that this woman still did not give a millimeter in our friendship, I thought that she had finally found the partner of my life ...
I was wrong...
SHIT I'M ANGRY!
WHY?!
I spent a whole year trying to get his love I couldn't even kiss...
SO BECAUSE A GUY THAT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE, COULD TAKE HER TO BED IN A WEEK ?!
Shit! Shit!
What happened?!
I don't know, I really don't know ...
That man has no money, he has no status, he does not have a high level of education.
He doesn't have a sweet league either and I don't think he's good at sex like me.
Also, he has a serious problem with alcohol and drugs ...
What's so good about that man
and?!
He's a jerk!
What did that woman look at?
Well, I tried to calm down and investigate what happened ...
Where did I go wrong?
I visited my psychologist and I went back to therapy again, with all the stress of my work and now this, I really need a vacation.
A year later, I meet that woman, she was giving birth to a son, as a doctor, she had no other option but to attend the delivery.
My work ethic and duty did not allow my personal grudges to get in the way, so as a professional, I accepted the request of the woman's parents.
At first, I thought that she had gotten married and as the fruits of her 'love', she now gave birth ...
I was wrong...
It turns out that this man was married and that after finding out that this woman got pregnant, he threw her next to her.
He literally played with her.
Damn!
He didn't even take responsibility.
Even during childbirth, I could notice several bruises on the woman's body, she apparently suffered from abuse.
Seeing this I sighed ...
I knew he was not a good man ...
After a speedy recovery, a month had passed and the woman gave birth successfully and her baby is very healthy.
But something bothered me a lot.
Is that after the delivery, that woman did her best to talk to me, and even flirt.
Damn, she couldn't believe it.
This woman was always cold to me, but now she is showing her feminine side to me, this is very suspicious.
Do not be left with doubt and look for my psychologist.
As it turns out, as someone interested in her, the woman thought that with me her baby would have a father.
He had money, a respected job, a good home, and almost did not lack the comforts of home.
But I no longer want anything with her, although I am not mistaken since we were never her boyfriends ...
It hurts me that my effort for her went to waste and she preferred another man.
I don't want to be the second table dish.
So I rejected all her attempts and even though she repented and cried, she didn't give in.
As they say in the world, not medicine for repentance.
Well, I will not deny that if I had sex with her after a while, and although I liked hearing her cute moans, in the end, my heart had already grown cold for her, so the love I had for her a long time ago is gone, so that I only had a physical relationship, just as I had with my psychologist.
After a few months, I realized that women are beings who do not know what they want.
I only asked for a partner to share my life with, so I made an effort to meet my goals, but everything failed.
He was out of luck for women.
Even after hunting, swingers, blind dates.
Everything failed for me.
Women did not want a rich man, nor manly, nor did they want someone who talks nice to them and gives them flowers, even those like me who were professionals in sex, none of that ...
I couldn't understand it ...
I was the opposite of what they wanted.
I could see hundreds of couples visiting my hospital, with serious problems.
Women living in poverty, abandoned women with children, women who gave themselves to useless men.
Women who suffered from abuse, all kinds of suffering ...
And when I asked one of them why she continues with her relationship, the only thing she answered was ...
That she loved her husband ...
Is serious?
Are we serious? What did they see in those men that I didn't have?
Was he inferior to all of them? Did I miss something important?
Haaaa ~
I couldn't understand it.
The only thing I understood is that she was doing everything wrong.
Women will not have their eyes on those who die for them, no ...
They will look for those who make them suffer.
Are they masochists? Come on woman!
He has a wife and even so you spread your legs with him, while the one who loves you waits for you, he is faithful to his to you and you don't even give him a chance.
What a fucking world is this ...
Do you think that we have no feelings?
Haaaa ~
I guess I did everything wrong, from the beginning I was wrong, they didn't want my love, no one wanted that from me ...
Well, it's too late to regret it, I'm dying after all ...
Damn teen with rampant hormones! Couldn't you be a little more aware of the way?
Don't you know what a red traffic light is ?!
It doesn't matter anymore I gave everything and lost, in the end, my life is ending and the only thing I can say is ...
What a fucking world!
Following the rules doesn't do you good luck with women.
To hell with the love of women!
If I get another chance, I'll make sure to make them suffer ...
To whom I lie? In the end, it all ended ...
Father, I leave you all my fortune, I hope you live happily the last years of your life ...
And I'm sorry, in the end, I couldn't give you the grandchildren that you loved so much, I'm so sorry ...
Well, I see you on the other old side, I'll be waiting for you.
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