Chapter 2

Hasegawa Junichi, a middle-aged man who is already 30 y/o and he works as a voice actor. Keep reading a few scripts until he loses track of time. He glanced at the clock on the wall after finishing his last coffee and placed the paper on the table.

"It's 5am. It doesn't feel like time flies." He rubbed his eyes before he got up from the couch and walked to his room.

He walked to his bed and glanced at the sleeping pills that were always there. Grabbing the medicine and just looking at it before sighing. Yes, he always needed the help of medicine to get him to sleep because he couldn't sleep well. It's not because he has insomnia, but the nightmare he always avoids.

"I'll pass out when my body reaches its limit"

He put the medicine back on the table, lay on the bed and stared blankly at the ceiling. Consumed from his daydream before he jolted when that face came back to him.

"...."

He immediately sat up and held his chest, gripping a bit as he frowned. There was a sad and regretful look on his face. He caught his breath and immediately got up from his bed. Walked into the kitchen and made breakfast for him even though it was still too early for him to have breakfast.

Making a simple breakfast menu, he cooks bacon and eggs. Put the bacon and eggs on a plate, then take a glass to make a coffee. Pour coffee grounds, add sugar and milk into it. Stirring coffee while looking at the coffee and sighed.

"Sunday, after this I have to get ready there. Looking for his favorite flower" He said quietly with a small smile slowly appearing on his face

Putting his breakfast on the table, walking to the bathroom and quickly cleaning his body. After being in the bathroom for a while, he grabbed a towel and dried himself. Wrapping the towel around his waist, he immediately walked to his room to get his clothes.

Opened the closet and grabbed a black t-shirt, jeans and a coat for him to wear. Junichi is the type of person who likes simple things. So that he is never too busy thinking about what clothes to wear out. Immediately put it on and he walked back into the dining room to eat his breakfast.

Slowly he cut the bacon and egg and then fed it into his own mouth and ate it. Chew while play or his phone to watch videos or find something interesting to accompany him to finish his meal. Finished eating his breakfast he drank his coffee, closed his eyes while enjoying the sensation of the bitter and sweet taste of the coffee.

Coffee calmed him down a bit, he opened his eyes and looked at the clock showing 9am. He got up from the table and headed for the sink. Bring dirty plates and glasses and wash them immediately. Dry them and put them on the dish rack. Drying his hands, he walked to a small table and opened a drawer, took out a key and hurried out of the house to the flower shop.

Soon he arrived at the flower shop, parked the car and got out of the car. Enter the flower shop to look for orchids.

"Welcome, can I help you sir? What flower are you looking for?" The flower shopkeeper came up to him and asked him.

"I'm looking for orchids, please make a bouquet of flowers for it." He looked at the shopkeeper and ordered what flowers he wanted.

The flower shopkeeper immediately arranged the orchids that Junichi ordered. Wrapped it beautifully, before the florist gave flowers to Junichi.

"This is the flower you ordered sir, the total is xxxx" The flower shop keeper handed the flower to him while mentioning the total he had to pay.

Taking out his wallet and handing over the card to pay for the bouquet before he took the flowers from the shopkeeper. The shopkeeper took the card, swiped it into the payment instrument and handed it back to him.

"Thank you for shopping at our store, your girlfriend will be happy to get this flower gift from you"

He just stared at the flower after hearing what the shopkeeper said, glanced at the shopkeeper and only smiled slightly before he left the flower shop.

Walk into the parking lot and open the car door, get in the car and place the flowers on the car seat. Put on the seat belt, start the car and start driving towards a place. Maybe to someone he does look like buying flowers for his girlfriend, but it's not like the truth.

Focus on driving until he gets to that place. Back parked the car, took a bouquet of flowers with him out of the car. Stepped in and smiled once he got there.

"I came, sorry I'm a little late today" He said in a low voice and knelt down to place the flowers there.

"Yasahiro..."

He reached out his hand to caress. Smiling gently as his fingers traced the inscription of his senior's name on the tombstone. He knelt there for quite a long time, continuing to speak as if he was actually talking to his senior. Laughing softly, telling past memories that will never come back again.

"Next week I won't be late, I'll be back with fresh flowers for you"

He touched the flower petals before he stood up. Gazing long at the tombstone as he let out a voice that trembled and was full of regret.

"I'm sorry... I'm always late..."

Slowly turned and walked away from the grave. Back to the parking lot and looked at his watch. Still have enough time to go to a house. Insert the car keys, open the car door and then close it. Immediately started the car and rushed to the house he used to go to every week where he had time off.

Not long after he parked his car in front of a house. Turn off the car and get out of the car. Walked into the courtyard of the house to the door and knocked on the door. There was a woman's voice, who answered the knock on the door from him. The woman opened the door and smiled warmly at him.

"Ara, Jun-chan. Please come in"

The woman let his in, he smiled and bowed slightly before entering the house and taking off his shoes.

"Thank you, sorry to bother you to welcome me on this holiday"

Junichi and the woman walked in, he took off his coat on the couch while she walked into the kitchen to make him tea. He had just walked a few steps towards a room, his footsteps were stopped by the woman's words.

"It's been almost a year you still can't let him go"

He was silent for a thousand languages ​​without being able to answer the woman's words. The woman is the mother of his senior named Watanabe Yasahiro.

Without answering that he kept walking and reached out his hand to slowly open the door of the room, his face changed instantly when he entered the room. Before closing the door he again heard the words of his senior mother again.

"Jun-chan, Yasahiro was already at peace in heaven. it's not your fault. Stop blaming yourself."

A soft voice full of calm, as if to reassure himself that everything was not his fault and hope that Junichi can live a normal life again without a shadow of fear or regret.

Leaning his body against the door, he slowly fell to the floor, staring blankly at the ceiling before tears rolled down his cheeks. And still vividly imagine the figure of Yasahiro who committed suicide in his room, hanging himself.

His mouth opened slightly, letting out words of apology that he would never be able to convey directly to Yasahiro.

"If only I hadn't been late, if only I had been more sensitive to the situation at the time"

Slowly getting up from the floor after he had let out all his emotions for quite a while. Walked to a table and rubbed the book that was on the table. Where the book was the last time, Yasahiro wrote something before he left this world.

"Is it time for me to open this book?"

He asked himself, remembering Yasahiro's last words were "Jun, I have the last message in this book. Read it, take care of yourself. goodbye Jun"

Yasahiro's voice that was in pain at that time he could still hear very clearly, he was then surprised when Yasahiro's mother opened the door of the room.

"Jun-chan, calm yourself down. I have prepared tea on the table."

He nodded and slowly left the room without daring to open the book. Walk up to a table and sit there. He took a deep breath before he took the teacup and took a sip.

"How is your job? Looks like you didn't get enough sleep."

Yasahiro's mother asked him, taking Junichi's mind away from Yasahiro even though she knew it was just a small talk and distracting him for a moment.

"My work is all going well and no...I'm getting enough sleep"

He placed the teacup on the table in answer to Yasahiro's mother's question. Enough sleep? The lies that are easy to guess from the eye bags that are so clearly carved under his eyes. They then talked for a while before he said goodbye to go home. Takes his coat and just puts it on his shoulder. She walked with Junichi to the door and said.

"Jun-chan, enjoy your time and love yourself. Yasahiro definitely wanted that. It's not your fault"

There was a gentle smile on her face, her voice soft and serene. Junichi just kept quiet and smiled a little as he walked away and answered in a low voice.

"There's no reason for me to go through this since he's gone."

He walked to his car, open the car door. put his coat on the car seat and closed the door. He put his forehead on the steering wheel and sighed. Memories of the past that kept locked in his memory. The regret he couldn't erase from his heart. He started the car and headed for a park to calm his mind before heading home.