Season Finale - 40

That night I couldn't sleep ,a lot was on my mind .If he refuses to be part of the children's lives then I will need to make some adjustments to my plan .That means by tomorrow I should be out of this country and back home in New York, I got out of bed and went to sit by the window ,I opened the windows and let the fresh air come in . I had to make some arrangements and Nobuhle can help me with some of the things ,I took my phone and called her . "Hey," I said .

"Heyyy Anashe ," she said in excitement.

"How are you ?"

"I am good how are you and the babies ?"

"Good ,Nono I need a favour from you ," I said .

"Yeah sure tell me ," she said .

"You know my friends right ?"

"Yes Cynthia and the likes."

"Please contact them and they will send you the business plan and other things ,I want you to start the process for me ,meaning the campaigns and stuff but I will tell you when to officiate everything .All the requirements are in there and you just have to get them done for me ,don't worry about money just tell me how much you need overall and I will send the money to your account ," I said.

"Okay sure I will do that for you ,what else?"

"For now that's all if I need anything I will text you ,thanks ,"I said .After saying bye I hung up the call.

I needed to get my things ,especially my camera . I took a fleece blanket in the wardrobe and sat by the window while wrapped around it and just closed my eyes feeling the wind hit my skin.

"Mommy look ," I heard Zhang's voice ,I looked around and there I saw him with two people.

"Mommy look I have another mother ," Zhang said jumping around.

"Zhang ," I said with my hands out for him to come closer .

He stopped jumping and looked at me ,he pointed at my stomach and shook his head. "No mommy I can't come to you ,I don't want to hurt them ," he said holding onto the woman's hand whose face was blurry . "Zhang,"I said before being pulled away . I was woken up by someone tapping me slightly , "Morning sleepy head,"Jimin said smiling at me, he was dressed in pyjamas clearly he didn't seem to be going out today .

"Hey," I said rubbing my eyes .

"Why did you sleep here ,it's not good for you and the munchkins," he said helping me stand .

"Aren't you going to work or something?"

"I am but later on ,I want us to spend sometime together because after this I will be very busy ," he said .

"Ohh okay but will you drop me off at A-ri's place ?"

"Why?"

"That's where I am staying and all my things are there ,my medicine ,my phone etc"

"I can accompany you to fetch your things but you not going to stay with A-ri ,you are now our responsibility ,in fact Jungkook wanted to come fetch you ," he said .

"What but A-ri –"

"A-ri will totally understand."

"So I will be switching houses every what 2 days ?"

"Yes ."

"Why don't we stay in one house instead of me travelling from one house to another ," I suggested.

"Good idea but I don't think we can do that ,they want to spend some private time with you too go and freshen up and join me In the lounge ."

I freshened up and went to the lounge , "I heard jin hyung is going to serve in the military soon ," I said as I sat on the couch .

"Yes and soon we will all join him you will be left at home with the kids waiting for your military husbands to come home," he said smirking .

"Pssh as if ," I said rolling my eyes.

"So what happens between you and Hyung?"

"Nothing really we are just going to be parents to the kids and nothing else," I said .

"Oh ,you won't get married ?"

"Nope ,stop asking questions about me and tell me about you ," I said facing him.

He started telling me about almost all the things I missed in his life and then we played some board games which we would both win by cheating ,he then went to get ready and we left the apartment .I had to wear a scarf and mask to cover my face . He drove me to A-ri's place and she was there , "Heyy," she said hugging me .

"Heyy"

"I have packed the things you had unpacked, here is your bag with your devices and here is your bag with your pills ."

"Huh?"I said looking at her.

"You going to stay with them right so ?"

"Well yes but how did you know?"

"Well because I know and besides I have a business trip and I have to leave so you couldn't stay alone here ," she said .

"Okay but we still need to go out when you come back ," I said .

"Sure ,is he waiting for you outside ?" she asked .

"Yes I hope no saesangs followed us but anyways thank you ," I said hugging her .

"Me too but don't worry this neighbourhood is very safe and secure with all the tight security I don't think so ,we will talk on the phone ," she said .

"Wait let's take some pictures ," I said removing my camera .We clicked pictures and then she helped me with my bags .We then drove away , "Since you will be at work please drop me at the mall I need to get some stuff will you need anything ?" I asked him .

"You can't go to the mall alone ,we will go together ," he said.

"Hell nah im not about to bring attention to myself I have successfully managed to stay away from the media and paparazzi even though I have been in and out of countries so yeah I am not risking it now ."

"Just give me a list and I will get it for you."

"No I also need some fresh air ."

He first drove to the house and left my bags there and then he drove me to the mall , "Before I leave let's take some pictures for memories sake ," I said and clicked some ."Call me when you are done so that I can fetch you ," he said .

"Okay ."

I then got into the mall and first went to buy some food stuff ,I then went to buy some clothes for myself to accommodate the growing tummy . I had a trolley so it was easy to move around with all this food stuff ,I then entered a baby shop and just looked around at things but didn't buy anything . My last stop would be buying toiletries so I decided to call jimin but his phone was off ,I tried several times but he wasn't answering ,so much for call me when you are done.I tried Jungkook but it rang unanswered .I bought my things then tried calling a taxi but I had no idea on how to do this ,I went to my chat app and saw that Hoseok was online so I decided to call him.

"Hey ," I said .

"…."

"Please come and fetch me ,I am at the mall and I am stranded please ,"I said .

"I am coming ," he said and dropped the call.

I then went to buy some takeaway food while waiting for him to come ,my phone rang as I collected my parcel . "I'm outside where are you?"

"I am inside just tell me where you are parked ," I said .

"Underground parking ,you will see me next to the exit in a **** coloured car," he said .

"Okay ."

I got there and spotted his car he came out of the car and helped me load the things , I got into the car and we drove away.

"Y'all have a pretty funny taste of cars ," I said .

"Like what's with you guys and Porsche and it's not even thee nice Porsche ," I added chuckling.

"Are you insulting our taste of cars ?"

"Oh come on the only person who has a great taste in cars is Namjoon ,I didn't expect that from him but dzammmn man the car is top standard,"I said

"What do you know about cars ?" he said chuckling .

"Uh a lot ..like jeez these types of Porsche cars look like the type of toy cars I would get for my child ..they look like toys more than cars," I said .

He parked the car by the side of the road and looked at me , "You think you know cars ,what car brand do you like ?"

"Audi and Mercedes benz ," I said with my eyebrows raised .

"Those cars are over hyped for no reason ,they are not all this and that ," he said .

"Uh excuse you they are overhyped for a reason like these cars are thee deal .It's like Iphone and Samsung ,Iphone is used by a lot of people depending on where you are and so is Samsung but when it comes to what the real deal is obviously Samsung wins because it is a whole lot creative and mind blogging .Iphone knows its target market and it knows even if they just change this here and there people will still buy it because it's iphone ."

"From cars to phones …anyways yes Samsung is thee phone brand ,My opinion ,but still that doesn't make iphone any less thee brand .Porsche is class baby ," he said .

"Just because it's expensive doesn't make it top class ,there are way better car designs than that .Yes the interior might be outstanding but also the exterior has to look the part ."

"I won't waste my time arguing about that ," he said .

"Well I have the time to ,let's face it this type of Porsche is ugly period ."

"Let's face it Anashe's poison is my treasure ," he said and that caused me to laugh .

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"Anyways I still prefer Namjoon's car over yours ," I said giving him a tongue out.

"That's so petty coming from you ,instead of saying you prefer your taste on cars you prefer someone else's taste ,it would have been better if you had a car maybe we would talk something sensible ,"he said turning away to face the front.

"I take offence to that,"I said before slapping him on his arms .

"Okay ..okay stop ,you only hitting me because you know it's the truth ," he said.

"No it's not I have cars ,beautiful ones .I own many classy standard cars for you own information SIR," I said .

"Okay then good for you ," he said .

"….." I folded my arms and looked in front of me pouting .

"So you not going to talk to me ?"

"..."

"Are you sure about that?"

"...."

He started tickling me and I couldn't hold myself I tried holding his hands while laughing my lungs out until tears started coming out ,my weakness.

"Okay Okay im ..im not angry I ..i swear ," I said trying to move away from him.

"That's my cinnamon," he said smiling .

"Well your cinnamon is sorry for everything she did ,she was selfish and she is truly sorry ," I said looking at him.

"And I am truly sorry for the way I reacted ,you had your reasons and I should have tried to understand you ,I am sorry for what I said ," he said .

"Do you really want these babies in your life because if you don't I totally understand ," I said holding his hands.

"I wasn't ready to be a father anytime soon ,I had things to do and many more goals to achieve ," he said .

"But since we are here I will be there every step of the way and I want our babies in my life ,I can still chase them with them by my side ," he added.

He hugged me but his statement left some heaviness in my heart ,we drove away but the entire ride I was quiet ,I think Hoseok could sense that I wasn't okay .When we arrived by Jimin's house I got out and he helped me with the bags. We entered the apartment and everyone was there except Jimin , "Hey ," I said as I dropped my bags by the counter and walked to my room , I sat by the window and let the tears fall .I cried as my hands shook terribly ,I was so sad about everything .

"Anashe ?" Hoseok said standing by the door with everyone else poking their heads .

"Hyung what did you do ?" Yoongi asked Hoseok .

"I don't know ," Hoseok said approaching me ,he knelt before me and made me look at him.

"Did I say something wrong ?"

"Why is Anashe crying ?" Taehyung asked Jin .

I shook my head as I cried more , "Then what happened ,are you in pain?"

I shook my head again.

"Please tell us what's wrong ,"Hoseok asked his face worried and frightened.

"I am so sorry ,it's all my fault .If I wasn't so stupid in the first place and if I hadn't gotten drunk none of this would have happened . If I hadn't forced my way into your lives maybe this wouldn't have happened ….if I wasn't so keen to be your friend and kept things professional maybe I wouldn't have ruined your life .You have to cut your goals short and change some of them because of me ,you have to adapt to new changes in your life in a short span because of me ….I shouldn't have come here in the first place ,I should have kept my pregnancy a secret ,I shouldn't have told anyone .I should have just kept it to myself but what choice do I have when my life has to run its course .I blame myself for everything and the guilt is eating me up ,I am so stupid ,selfish and inconsiderate . Maybe that's why I am being punished ,if I could turn back the hands of time I would change everything … I am sure you wish you hadn't met me in the first place so do I ..I wish that you hadn't met me so that all this wouldn't have happened …I am truly sorry to all of you," I said in between my cries ,I was a crying mess and I was starting to have a headache and feel lightheaded .

"Anashe ," Namjoon said approaching me .

"Don't say that please," Hoseok said .

"No ,no matter what you say this is the truth ," I said looking away as I cried .

Namjoon came and sat in front of me ,he held my hands and tried to make me look at him but I kept turning away . "Look at me ," he said and I shook my head .

"Anashe Anika Ambani ,look at me ," he said again.I turned and looked at him.

"Why are you doing this to yourself ..you know that everything you said is not true ,if you hadn't been keen to be our friend we wouldn't have found such an amazing badass friend ,little sister ,twin sister and baby mommy .If you were to turn back the hands of time and tried to change anything I would go back to the past and slap you personally ,shave your eyebrows and pluck out your eyelashes .You are not selfish ,inconsiderate and stupid ,you are wonderful ,clever and brave .You stand for what you want and not what others want ,I have worked with you ,I have seen you acting and you are just something else . Yes goals might have changed and put to a halt but we would all do that in a heart beat just to have these little monkeys here with us .We appreciate you and thank you so much for seeing us worthy enough to be part of the monkey's lives ,you could have done many things to avoid this but you did a lot of things to be here that makes you even more valuable than you think ..so give me a tight smile and a kiss on the cheek because we miss the Anashe we know ," he said smiling with his dimples out .

I wiped my tears and tried smiling but it wasn't working ,he raised his eyebrow with a naughty smile and I knew what he wanted to do . "No ..please okay I am smiling ," I said giving him a tight smile .

"That doesn't work ," he said coming closer , "OKAY!..I am trying ," I said laughing lightly and sulking .

"That's better ,now where is that kiss?"

"Here ," I said as I kissed his cheek.

"Thank you ," I finally said looking at him and everyone else around .