Chapter 51: Light

I focused on that new feeling. It was like a rope I grabbed ahold of that was pulling me out of all my self pity. In Chase's stormy grey eyes I saw his untold feelings, the sadness. He must really care about me to show this vulnerability and pained side. When I let the barriers of my mind down could he feel the hurt I had felt? Did he understand me more then anyone else could now?

I let go off those instincts to run and never look back. My shoulders visibly relaxed and the weight I was caring felt lighter then before. He really did take some of it away. He might not know everything but he knew enough to know my past was abnormally terrible. He knew I wasn't normal and he seemed okay with that. I wasn't completely ready to accept my past and talk about everything, but what he did know he accepted and I appreciated that so much.

I only hoped the side of me, the real dark side, the monster, stayed hidden away. I could take small steps and talk about the captivity, the hunger, the guards, but the death... I just don't know what would happen if it came out. Who could ever love me if they knew what I had done? The blood I had shed...

Chase gave me a feeling of belonging and something sweet and new, something similar to destiny or happiness? I'm not sure how to describe it exactly but it felt good. I did not want to loose all of this. Didn't I deserve this sliver of happiness if only for a moment in time?