Chapter 48: Listen

Chase and I stood silently, hands intertwined, just staring at the beautiful night sky lit up by the glowing moon. I knew this moment would end too soon and I already missed it. The world and my mind were at piece right here and now. I wish it could stay like this forever. I wish I could stay with him, with them, forever.

Without looking away from the sky I spoke softly, "Chase, I'm sorry". He didn't look at me either but responded out loud, "For What?". I answered after a long breath, "I lied to you. I threw the glass at the wall". Chase smiled into the night as he said, "I know. I could hear your heart beating faster". Why was he smiling? I wondered silently. Did he think it was funny?

Moments ticked by silently before I asked another questions, "Are you mad at me?". Chase looked down this time and I returned his gaze. He answered, "No... you had your reasons". There was another moment of silence before he asked in a curious tone, "Did it make you feel better?". What a weird question... did he mean lying or throwing the glass? "What?", I asked confused by his question. His interest was heavily peaked as he clarified, "Did throwing the glass make you feel better?". I did not answer right away weighing my response.

My mind went back to the moment the glass left my hand and the freedom of choice I felt before the glass shattered against the wall. The destruction felt good. My rational mind wanted to lie again to avoid looking crazier then I already did, but my heart wouldn't let me. Chase deserved the truth. He had been more then good to me and I'm not sure I could ever lie to him again without him being able to tell. He could hear my heart and knew my truths.

I wanted to look away and submit but I held steady as I answered truthfully, "Yes... Well at first, yes, it felt really good. It was like the anger was being taken out of me and put into that glass. When The glass shattered, the anger shattered too, if only for a moment. When I had realized what I had done and when you appeared to help me all I felt was guilt for acting like a child".

Chase pulled me close to his chest and wrapped his arms around me. I wasn't sure why he had this reaction but I enjoyed his soft touch. His skin was cool against my body. His affection felt nice and I longed for more. I wrapped my arms tightly around his waist breathing in his scent. My wolf called out in my head, "Mine, claim him". Quiet, I pushed back internally.