Cosmic Crystal

Cosmic Crystal

Meeting her for the first time- it was love at first sight- even though that is the cheesiest and most overused line in romance movies and stories ever, " Can i ask you something Jennifer?" her blue glossy eyes look to me, making up stained her porcelain face, " Where do you get your hope? What keeps you going during all of this?" she broke, laughing to hide her true pain, "I just keep hoping that one day ill have something else motivating me, yet i learned the only thing i can believe in is me. Then again the insecurities and spite fuel that as well." 

In times of darkness, we find our way to cope with the guilt and despair, but some push others away, and that's what Jennifer did. "I'm fine, I promise. I can deal with it on my own." 

" jen, your not okay- and that's okay, you dont have to push anyone away, we can he-" 

" dont finish it- don't finish that sentence. I have been on my own for many years and i have taken care of myself." 

" i know- but why wont you let anyone in or even help?" She scoffed, " you really wanna know why i dont let anyone in? Or even remotely help me? Because the people that i thought i could trust, the people that i thought i could call my family- they let me down, they let me get hurt- and in the end i was the one that got burned even when i tried to stand up for myself. I was the one to get burned, i built my walls and i know that i have trust issues but its for damn good reasons. I want you to get this through your head right now." 

Taking a few steps toward e she pointed her finger, almost touching my lips, "I don't need your help or anyone elses, i am fine. I can take care of myself. I have all these years. So dont think for a fucking second that i need to play some damsel in distress to get your g*d damn pity."