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Fate is what it seems

this is fate is what it seems it is a prequel sequel and alternate universe in one. callus has forgotten everything that happened between them two and Xavier retells their past but not everything at first, they both went through a lot of hurt and wants him to recover. and remember them - and the love they shared. and the story of soulmates' fate is what it seems. things are similar but also different. Xavier is Callus and Callus is Xavier. And Lorain is Lyla and Lyla is Lorain it is a swapped universe. making Callus the hybrid vampire an angel demon and a sex vamp and Xavier a sex vamp- as for Lorain, she is half demon and sex vamp. and Lyla is a human/ sex vamp (later on) callus's soulmate was Lyla. but that fate is changed as he loses her to his cousin Lorain and he knew that the two of them belonged together he had lost her so many times it broke his heart, but someone changes that. and it isn't Xavier [at least not yet] but that day will come. the first part will be some review and flashback to the original- it starts where the last one ended. "Callus?" "Who are you?" "It's me Callus your lover" Xavier replied "Lover? - I- don't have a lover - but I know that I did use someone- but- regretted it and I love them- but- I couldn't apologize to them-" he replied "Callus- you did apologize to me and that's how we became lovers-" Xavier replied "But--I- can't love you- it's not possible- and I can't remember who you are-" he replied "But you do Callus- come on remember what you told me? the heart remembers-" Xavier replied "But I really shouldn't love you- I was just using you- but deep down--" he replied "You feel something for me, don't you? How could you forget me? you promised me that you never forget me-" Xavier replied "I'm sorry that- I forgot you- I- but maybe- I do love you- it's just- I know- that you are that person- that I fell for when I shouldn't have but- I don't remember anything after-" he replied "Well, I could help you remember-" Xavier replied "So, um- handsome stranger what's your name?" he replied callus was shocked but knew the words to be true despite not remembering. he would listen to him and hoped he would be able to remember. and what will happen when he finds out about their cruel past? he wasn't exactly the best person neither of them was arc1- remembering and healing. arc 2- callus and Lyla [there's nothing sexual between them sorry not sorry] arc 3- Lyla and Lorain Arc 4- Callus and Malik- their true past in detail [what did you think he would disappear?] Arc 5- Swapped Callus and Xavier Arc 6- the painful past arc 7- aftermath and healing

Malik_druinace · LGBT+
Not enough ratings
49 Chs

fate is not what is seems- Happily ever after?

[slight sexual content suicide mental illnesses]

Xavier turned to Callus

"do you think it was right to forgive him?" he asked

"that's for you to decide- he's a complicated fellow-" Callus replied

"what do you mean by those last words?" he replied

"Well he's not normal- I mean neither are we-

but somethings off" Callus replied

"somethings off?-" he replied

"something always seemed off about him but it's not the same as before I could see the good in him after his confession- like the first time- but back then he didn't know he was your brother and neither did you

he convinced you to f*ck me-

and the next day he put his arms around you

and teases you and he kissed you on the cheek and ran off and you fell for him

and started to realize who he was

and because of your obsession, you hurt me badly- I blamed everything on him but it was you who hurt me and I had to kill you-" Callus replied

"Oh- I'm sorry Cal and I don't love him like that anymore- I truly love you-" he replied

"is that really true?" Callus replied

"Yeah I love you Cal- and it was always supposed to be you but I was blind you know what they say love is blind" he replied

"wrong quote- it's fate is not what it seems" Callus replied

"What? Why would I say that?" he replied

"Because it's what we always say-" Callus replied

"Oh-I know what you told me but I don't remember much- what did we do?-" he replied

"um- do you want me to answer honestly?" Callus replied

"Yeah why wouldn't I?" he replied

"Ok-we started with kisses- and it turned into more- at first you licked me my chest nipples and collar bone- and next it turned into a kiss

and another one- and then hand jobs two of them- and you wanted to do more- and I had to stop you - but I eventually let you do it

and you gave me so many hickies-

you were so bold and shameless

I teased you and sometimes you teased me back- we're so shameless- I'm surprised that Lorain was the only one who found out"

Callus replied

"I- wow- I was really like that? And Lorain is the only one who knew?" he replied

"Yeah and you still are - I mean you did give me hickies- and kisses but you haven't licked me or given me a hand job-" Callus replied

"You want me to give you one don't you?" he replied

"of course I do but only if you're willing-" Callus replied

"hmm- is there something else you want?" he replied

"I want you to f*ck me-but I don't want to force you-" Callus replied

"is it true that you're a Masochist?" he asked

"I- well sort of- I like getting hurt but to a certain extent-" Callus replied

"hmm- can I do more than a hand job?" he replied

"You can do whatever you want zavi I'm yours" Callus replied

"You really are shameless- so which do prefer

nipples or cock?" he replied

"That's a hard choice- why can't you do both?" Callus replied

"hmm I can but I never got a taste of that cock of yours-" he replied

"who's the shameless one now?" Callus replied

"I'm hungry Cal and I want you-" he replied

"then go ahead eat me- devour me whole I'm all yours" Callus replied

Xavier pounced on him and kissed him fiercely

Callus loved the way Xavier was making him feel as he pushed his body against his

Callus was feeling undesirable pleasure

Xavier pulled back and wiggled his tongue

when he released Callus let out a moan

"F*ck zavi-you're making me crazy-" he replied

"You like this don't you?-" Xavier replied

"Yes- and I want you to do so much more- and this is making me want you more- just do it-" he replied

"You're so eager- your a** is aching for my d*ck- but you'll just have to wait-" Xavier replied

Xavier put his hands down the back of his pants and grabbed his a** and squeezed it

Callus let out a moan

Xavier leaned in and pushed his tongue in Moving back and forth

he wiggled his fingers in between his a**

he began to rock against him

all these actions overstimulated him

Callus was extremely horny and he was

loving this- and he wanted Xavier to push him down and f*ck him- badly-

Xavier pushed Callus forward into the brothel

"f*ck Zavi- are you really going to do it here?" He replied

"would you rather I do it outside?" Xavier replied

"I don't care where as long as it's you-" he replied

"then why didn't you let me f*ck you in school?" Xavier replied

"I wasn't as shameless as I'm now-" he replied

"You're lying you loved it- and you always blurted everything out and after we had sex you blurted it out to Lorain like a dumba**" Xavier replied

"Yeah you're right but sometimes you teased me and it made me embarrassed-and my a** was numbed by you-" he replied

"Hey well that's your fault you always did the same to me and I had to return it and I said dumba**-" Xavier replied

"I know but you did make it sore- and my lower back hurt a lot- and I hated it a lot but you still gave me a good time- and maybe this time can you make it hurt less?-" he replied

"Well I'm sorry Cal I didn't know what I was doing- and I'm going to make it so much better-" Xavier replied

"I like the sound of that- and Zavi how much do you remember?" he replied

"I'm not sure I remember now because you reminded me- and you know everything about me and I know you're personality- but I don't know anything about you-" Xavier replied

"Zavvi even I don't know much about myself" he replied

"You don't?" Xavier replied

"I know that I devoted myself to others who always ended up hurting me in the end and I got so used to it and it's all I expected

and you made me the worse- you hurt me so many times but I took it because you told me you loved me- but that wasn't entirely true- you just liked using me- and I was fine with that

but- you showed me love- but that soon changed after you f*cked me- you were so caring- but that changed when Lorain showed up and you hurt her badly- and I made you feel better and you made me feel better too-

but- then when Malik showed up you turned into a monster and you hurt me badly-" he replied

"I'm truly sorry Cal- I was always a monster-

and I couldn't keep it away- like with Lorain

but I still hurt her in the end I couldn't love her to the fullest- and the second person hurt me badly and the third I pushed away but he came back to me and I wanted to love him and I tried- but all I ended up doing was hurting him and tried to make it better

but I only made it worse and hurt you again" Xavier replied

"I know and you got another chance- because I still love you after everything-

I just hope you can do better-" he replied

"I don't deserve this Cal- I don't deserve you- I'm a monster" Xavier replied

"Not anymore Zavi you care- and I truly can see it despite not being able to read your mind and it's not like that helped your thoughts and feelings were so confusing- you were having a tough time- and you couldn't tell right from wrong, but you've seen the consequences of your actions and became a better person-

and you're still learning-" he replied

"How can you trust me? after everything I did?" Xavier replied

"Because I know you regret it and I know a part of you loved me deep down- and it feels as if I've known you your whole life-" he replied

"ha that isn't fair Cal- I barely knew you and you still love me then- we only met once-" Xavier replied

"it was love first lick- Zavi I knew I had to be yours - and I took away what was and you were so mad and you ended up following me around- and you totally fell for me but you still tried to deny it- and after I confessed

you started to question yourself-

and you fell for me deeply it drove you mad

and you wanted to do more things to me and you couldn't understand it and once you acted on it you couldn't control yourself and at first, you were alright but it got worse it evolved into lust and you tried to convince yourself you still loved me- and after you hurt me- you were able to see your consequences of your actions and you tried to make it better but you

ending up hurting me again and I couldn't take it I had enough- but I still hoped that you would be the person I loved-" he finished

Xavier looked up at him and smiled

it was a genuine one

"I'm glad you didn't give up on me- because if I was you- I would have- how can you love a monster like me?- you were always like this-

what's so important about me?" Xavier replied

"I was going to give you up but you still showed me love- and I knew you were hurting-

and I still owe my life to you - you are my everything-" he replied

"It's not fair- Cal why do you treat me so good?" Xavier replied

"Because I love you Zavi" he replied

"I still don't understand- all I did was hurt you" Xavier replied

"That's not true- you didn't want That- you wanted to love me but you didn't know how and that's why you ended up hurting me-" he replied

"I couldn't understand I wanted to return your feelings and I tried- but my desires changed

and that's how I hurt you- but I don't want that again- I want to love you truly-" Xavier replied

"that's all I wanted- and I'm willing to wait for you-" he replied

"it didn't seem like that earlier you were practically asking me to f*ck you" Xavier replied

"Hey! I couldn't help it and you made it seem like you were going to" he replied

"I was just teasing you- and I didn't get to taste your cock" Xavier replied

"You-you're always like this- stop teasing me-" he replied

"but you like it so why can't I?" Xavier replied

"You're so shameless-" he replied

"Well, I can't help it you made me like this-

and Cal- I want a taste so can I?" Xavier replied

"Of course Zavi- you can do whatever you want to I'm yours remember?" he replied

"Mmhmm- you tasted so good- and that whole time I never got a taste of that big juicy cock" Xavier replied

"dam- Zavi you're so shameless-" he replied

"I'm just being honest-" Xavier replied

"I know- and I wish I could read your mind again-" he replied

"but that isn't fair Cal- I don't know anything about you-" Xavier replied

"I once let you know who I was but that ended up hurting you-" he replied

"but you said you didn't know yourself-" Xavier replied

"I lied- because I don't want to hurt you again" he replied

"but I thought it was just me -" Xavier replied

"I hurt you too- I told you everything- I tried to lie but I couldn't- I was bad at it-" he replied

"then Can you tell me again?" Xavier replied

"I don't know- it's not like it matters anymore-" he replied

"You can tell me and I promise I won't get upset-" Xavier replied

"don't make promises you can't keep- but I'll tell you-" he replied

"alright then tell me" Xavier replied

"I still don't remember everything but for most of my life I was a doormat I was always used

and thrown away by everyone my family my friends and the one I loved- we were high-school sweethearts- but after we got married and started a company

she thought I was trying to take over the company and she got upset with me

she physically hurt me badly I ended up paralyzed and she came to visit

but she told me cruel words that she could never love a piece of trash like me

and after that, she never showed up again and she sent me strawberries and roses and that's why I hate them they remind me of her-" he replied

"That's horrible- that woman treated you like that- can I kill her?" Xavier replied

"Zavi- can you be serious?" he replied

"I am being serious I want to kill that woman- she hurt you-" Xavier replied

"You are a hypocrite-" he replied

"she didn't love you- But I do and I'm sorry for everything" Xavier replied

"You don't have to keep apologizing it's in the past now and I love you too Zavi-" he replied

"that's not fair why do you always say it before I do?" Xavier replied

"Because I know you-" he replied

"I still don't know you-" Xavier replied

"I've told you everything what am I missing?" he replied

"I guess- I have a general idea of you- a pervert and a bit of a Masochist - but a good heart who was taken advantage of-" Xavier replied

"so blunt huh?- and you had a good heart too

but it was corrupted and you were blinded with obsession- first Lorain then your brother and lastly I and you hurt me because of it

and I know that you still had a good heart deep down-" he replied

"but how did you know that?" Xavier replied

"Because I've known you for so long now and I can see it in your eyes-" he replied

"can't you just read my mind?" Xavier replied

"I wish- I still could- but I can't-" he replied

"and you could only read my mind?" Xavier replied

"Yes but not everything I could only read what you project-" he replied

"Maybe I could read your mind" Xavier replied

"would you want that?- it's quite a mess- and not in the way yours was" he replied

"I'm still curious- a Masochist a pervert and a doormat-" Xavier replied

"You don't want to know-" he replied

"Oh I do- come on let me-" Xavier replied

"I'm not sure that's how it works-" he replied

"Well, I let you in didn't I?" Xavier replied

"not entirely- but you got used to it and gave up and I tried my best not to read your mind but I couldn't- and if you want to try it you can" he replied

"how do I do it?" Xavier replied

"Just try to think about me" he replied

"I'll try-" Xavier replied

I remember when you first said you wanted to read my mind and I told you didn't want to be in it- it wasn't as bad as yours at the time

back then I constantly imagined you in a dress- you're better naked- but I didn't know that- f*ck this is embarrassing- can you even hear me?

"I can - you imagined me in a dress?" Xavier replied

"Yes but that was back then- and you don't have to wear one I don't care about that promise anymore-" he replied

"promise? I made a promise to wear a dress?" Xavier replied

"Yes and I told you, you could pick it out since you can't trust a pervert like me" he replied

"Yeah, you're right and Cal would you still want me to wear a dress?" Xavier replied

"No like I said I prefer you naked" he replied

"You pervert" Xavier replied

"Hey you're one too and a f*cking sadist" he replied

"so you know that too- what do you not know?" Xavier replied

"I still don't know anything about your family or childhood-" he replied

"I barely know much about that either

but I do know that my family and Lorain's were close and that's why I spent my time with her

we were close - and I don't remember anything before that and in my second life I was attached to my big brother- and I think you know how that turned out" Xavier replied

"Yeah, I hated it you were so obsessed with him- and hurt me badly and forgot to love me-who knew I had to stab you?"

oh right, Lorain thanks, girl-

"What- Lorain told you to do it?" Xavier replied

"she knew about us she knew everything

and I mean everything-

like-

"Yeah- don't start I know where this is going" Xavier replied

"aw come on Zavi- what are you so embarrassed about? you enjoyed it

and you still want to taste my cock don't you?"

"of course I do- I have cock blocked myself this whole time haven't I?" Xavier replied

"Yeah but it's fine- you're such a big tease

Zavi-" he replied

"so Lorain knew about us?" Xavier asked

"Yeah I mean we weren't exactly quiet-" he replied

"I mean about us being vampires-" Xavier replied

"Yeah she listened in on our conversations

and she made sure others wouldn't disturb us" he replied

"so that's why we never got caught- she didn't watch us did she?" Xavier replied

"not as far as I know but she said she didn't

she always waited for the right moment to show up Imagine if you did end up sucking my cock and she saw-" he replied

"You just want me to do it don't you?" Xavier replied

"Well you have been teasing me about it and haven't done anything-" he replied

"I will I just need to know what she knew" Xavier replied

"I told you everything-" he replied

"but how did you kill me? and you killed yourself didn't you?" Xavier replied

"I stabbed you in the chest with a stake and did the same to myself and I kissed you before that tongue included- and you were unconscious I could have done it well you were awake but that would've hurt more" he replied

"how did I become unconscious?" Xavier replied

"Rosemary I put it to your nose and you fainted

and that's when I kissed you- and you weren't dead yet so it's not necrophilia-" he replied

"Somnophilia- you wouldn't do- other things well I was unconscious would you?" Xavier replied

"I don't know maybe-" he replied

"what the hell Cal-" Xavier replied

"You aren't any better you wanted to lock me up and r*pe me-" he replied

"Like I said before I'm a monster-" Xavier replied

"Yeah I know but I still love you- I'm f*cked up thanks to you -" he replied

"So why didn't you just give up on me?" Xavier asked

"I already told you because I knew you were hurting and that you still loved me deep down- I couldn't give up on you you're the only one I had-" he replied

"I gave you Stockholm syndrome-" Xavier replied.

"I- what- no- you didn't even lock me up or force me to do anything-" he replied.

"I still took things too far and you never stopped me-" Xavier replied.

"I did try but you wouldn't listen, so I gave in, and I liked it-" he replied.

"I still pushed you into it- and I hurt you- I know deep down you were hurt-" Xavier replied.

"I- was but I didn't want to admit it- and if you only liked my body- then- I give you it- but I wanted you to truly love me, but I realized that it was false hope and just let it happen-

and I wanted you to hurt me more-

I know how f*cked up I am, but you made me this way-" he replied

"Cal- you're making me feel worse- but I don't blame you- I did mess you up I know that-

and I want to make it better but you're just making it harder- maybe you should just move on-" Xavier replied

"No, I can't do that- you're the only one I have-

I don't want to be alone again- I don't care if you hurt me or hurt me again just don't push me away-" he replied

"stop it will you? I don't want that anymore I care about you and I don't like this-" Xavier replied

"You don't? how can you change so fast?- how do I know you won't hurt me again?" he replied

"You could see it in my eyes- I truly love you-

and I hate seeing you hurt like this- and knowing it's my fault makes it hurt more-

and I want the Cal that I knew back-"

Xavier replied

"I'm sorry Zavi- I don't know if I could ever be the same again- I'm so broken-" he replied

"I was afraid I could never be the same again either but you saved me- and I want to save you again- and to help you through it- because that's what I'm here for" Xavier replied

Xavier wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tight Callus hugged back

Callus began to sob into his chest

Xavier petted his hair stroking it

"Zavi I know I don't deserve you- you're not even mine- I was the one who took you- from everyone- and you'll never be happy again-

and it's all my fault-" he replied

"Don't say that Cal it's my fault too and I'm the one who took away your happiness" Xavier replied

"I was never happy before you- and you always had someone- someone who could love you- back- But I never had that-" he replied

"I only gave you temporary happiness and, in the end, I ended up hurting you-" Xavier replied

"I know but it was enough-and maybe I'm a fool to think you could give it to me again-" he replied

Xavier lifted his head wiping his tears

"I promise to make you the happiest man if you let me-" Xavier replied

"Are you- proposing?!" He replied

"I don't know, am I?" Xavier replied

"You better not be joking -" he replied

Xavier pulled out a box from his back pocket

and opened it standing on one knee.

"didn't you say you wanted to be my husband?

how about we make it happen?

will you be mine until the end of time?" Xavier replied

"Zavi- Yes a thousand times yes- I will- I do!" He shouted in tears of joy

"I hoped so- because it would be a bummer if I had to throw it out, I spent all my time on it-" Xavier replied and put the ring on

"But you barely knew me- how you possibly know?" he replied

"I knew that I would meet that special person-

and I wanted to do everything for him- so I acted on the instincts that I had to make him mine" Xavier replied

"Zavi- do you remember how we met again?" he asked.

"I think so- I was so mad and I saw the way she looked at you it made me jealous

why couldn't she look at me like that?

and I could see that you didn't love her.

and your teasing made me confused.

I couldn't understand my thoughts.

I had - imagined you naked under me-

and when you confessed those thoughts didn't stop- and things happen so fast

we were friends and then- weren't-

we already jumped to lovers-

because I had confessed- I fell for you so quickly- because you loved me, and you didn't even know me-" Xavier replied

"But I learned quickly- and I know everything about you-" he replied.

"But it still feels like I still barely know you- but it also feels like- I've known you your whole life-" Xavier replied

"Then tell me everything you know- don't leave anything out I want to know it all" he replied

"You always cared for others even if they didn't care about you and that always ended up getting you hurt and you were always so shameless- you teased me relentlessly-

and I couldn't take it anymore so

I started to do things and I couldn't stop-

I know you enjoyed it at first, but when things changed,

you could tell, and you were heartbroken- and you held on because you believed in me- but I still ended up hurting you- and even after that you still came back-" Xavier replied.

"Because I believe you were worth saving because you had saved me-" he replied

"Cal- I'm glad you came back for me-

but do you think you made the right choice?" Xavier replied

"Yes and I could never regret it this is all I wanted-" he replied

"Are you sure? you don't want to me suck your cock- or be f*cked?" Xavier replied

"How can you be so shameless?" he replied

"That's what I always asked - but I can see how fun it is to tease you-" Xavier replied

"Can you stop teasing and do it?" He replied,

"Which one?" Xavier asked

"Whatever you want zavi-but don't you think we should get married first?" he replied

"since when do you care about those things?" Xavier replied

"As I said before I'm always willing to wait for you" He replied

"But you begged me to f*ck you- how can you change so fast?" Xavier replied

"The last time we rushed things like this I got hurt- and I don't want that- so let's take it slow-" replied

"And getting married is taking it slow?" Xavier replied

"Hey you're the one who proposed- and I couldn't say no- I've been waiting for this-" he replied

"You just want to see me in a wedding dress-" Xavier replied

"Well, you did say you would wear a dress" he replied

"Hey! that's not fair-" Xavier replied

"Come on Zavi you promised- and if you want me you have to do what I want too" he replied

"there's not anything else that you want?" Xavier asked

"You're not getting out this Zavi-you have to listen to me, or I won't be your husband" he replied

"But you already said yes and you're still wearing the ring-" Xavier replied

"Well, I might take it off if you don't wear a dress-" he replied

"Then how about after?" Xavier asked

"You think you're so smart- I still want you in a wedding dress-" he replied

"There's no changing your mind is there?" Xavier replied

"Nope and it's your fault- you shouldn't have said anything-" he replied

"I was going to end up in a dress either way- I could see what you were thinking" Xavier replied

"Yeah I know- and I want you naked afterward-" he replied

"You are a pervert-" Xavier replied

"Who said they were going to suck my cock?

and you never did-" he replied

"Well, I will but I'm not in the mood anymore" Xavier replied

"You're mad about the dress, aren't you?" he replied

"I thought you didn't care about it anymore-

but you're still the same pervert-" Xavier replied

"Zavi it's just once and I'll never you make you wear it again-" he replied

"But you're going to make me wear more dresses-" Xavier replied

"I won't force you but if you ever wanted to you could- you might like it-" he replied

"Then why don't you wear a dress?" Xavier asked

"Dresses don't work for me- but they are perfect on you-" he replied

"what's so appealing about me in a dress?" Xavier replied

"Did you just ask that?" he replied

"Yeah- tell me-" Xavier replied

"Well, you look so sexy- your upper chest showing a bit and your collar bone- showing your birthmark- and it fits you well-and when- you take it off-f*ck it makes me go crazy-" he replied

"So, you're still a pervert-" Xavier replied

"Hey, don't act like you didn't have any fantasies of me-" he replied

"I can't believe you still imagine me in a dress-" Xavier replied

"Well, you're not always in a dress other times you're just naked-" he replied

"Damn you are a pervert-" Xavier replied

"Zavi don't act like you're innocent- I know you still imagine me underneath you" he replied.

"so, what if I do? - your already naked- but you imagine me stripping- and it's a dress-" Xavier replied

"we're still naked in the end so what's the difference?" he replied

"Do you not know me? - I'm not comfortable showing off my body- that's why I tried to keep your focus off it-" Xavier replied

"Oh- f*ck- I'm sorry Zavi- you hate being touched- and me imagining that- makes you uncomfortable, doesn't it? -" he replied

"Yes- f*ck it makes me terrified- and it's not the dress that's the problem- I'm scared that-

you'll do things I don't want-" Xavier replied

"Zavi I would never do anything you weren't comfortable with-" he replied

"But you said you would- that you wanted to well I was unconscious-" Xavier replied

"f*ck I'm sorry Zavi- I wasn't thinking right- my head is messed up sometimes- that's why I didn't want you in it-" he replied

"Well I was able to change so I believe you can too my mind was scary at times- I don't want you to make the same mistakes I did- never force me- especially when unconscious- no matter how tempting it may seem- consent is a big thing that you need to understand- because I can't say no doesn't mean I'm giving you permission-and I never forced you into anything- you truly didn't want-

did I?" Xavier replied

"Yeah, you're right but you can do whatever you want to me- but I can't-" he replied

"I'm sorry Cal but I'm not ready for that.

and hearing these things don't make me feel better-" Xavier replied

"Zavi you're right I'm sorry- I won't touch you until you're comfortable- with me- and you can touch me all you like-" he replied

"Why do you never stop me? -" Xavier replied

"Because I want you to be comfortable with your actions and I'll tell you if I don't like it-" he replied

"But I could tell you weren't, and you never said anything-" Xavier replied

"Because I- can't tell the difference between-

pain and pleasure- I don't realize until afterward- like when you f*cked me I liked it at the moment, but I hated the pain afterward.

and you just made things worse- and I was hurt so badly- both physically and emotionally- once again it was just like her-

but I still went after you- because I believe there's a part of you that still loved me-" he replied

"F*ck- I'm sorry Cal- I hurt you that badly? -" Xavier replied

"I thought you knew- and you said all those things to mess with my head - even reading your mind I couldn't tell what was true-" he replied.

"I'm truly sorry Cal- you're like this because of me- I wish you told me sooner, but you were scared, weren't you?" Xavier replied

"You're the only one who I trusted- but you still hurt me badly- but here I am again I'm a fool aren't I?" he replied

"There isn't anyone else to turn to is there?" Xavier replied

"Only Lorain and she told me- to go back to you- so I did - and you made me so happy again- but- is it even real? - " he replied

Xavier held him securely in his arms

Xavier held his head up wiping his tears

"I'm real and I'll never do that again-" Xavier replied

"Then Can we start over? forget everything?" he replied

"do you want that?-we can move on from the past- but- if we forgot everything

then- you can forget the dress, the ring, the wedding- and being my husband-" Xavier replied

"You're right I'm sorry Zavi- can start over how we did before? and kiss- instead?" he replied

"if that's what you want Cal-" Xavier replied

"I'm not giving up on you- I still want to get married- and be your husband-" he replied

"Cal you don't make any sense but that's what I love about you - love at first lick?

love at first bite?- and you really want to get married?" Xavier replied

"says the one who proposed-" he replied

"Oh- yeah- I was just following my heart- and I'm supposed to marry someone today-" Xavier replied

"and how do you know that was me?" he replied

"I could tell- we're soulmates" Xavier replied

"That's right but fate wasn't supposed to turn out this way" he replied

"You know what they say fate is not what it seems" Xavier replied

"Yeah you're right- Zavi- I didn't think you say it" he replied

"How could I not?-it was the perfect time-" Xavier replied

"it definitely was- so Zavi where're the kisses you promised? he replied

Xavier leaned in and kissed him pushing his tongue in Moving back and forth

Xavier put his hands up his shirt and moved them up and down

Callus rolled his eyes back in pleasure

it was rough but- the things Xavier made him feel- were good too- and he almost lost him-

Xavier was happy so was he-

so they got married

but that isn't where it ends.

"so that was the first time? and I'm thankful for you Zavi even with the things I've said and done that you never gave me up-"

"for a long time you wouldn't give me up you held on to me what almost felt like forever but then there was the day that you fully given up on me and turned to Malik but you couldn't stay with him either but that wasn't because you didn't want to you didn't have much of a choice at the time but you kept trying to why did you do that when he gave you the choice to choose me? and when you did choose me you always ran back to him and when you chose me again you left me again but then you did something I never expected you to do you chose both of us- and because of that I was never going to let you go" Xavier explained

"I'm glad but some day you'll have to let me go-" he replied

"Not happening Cal cause I'm not going anywhere." Xavier replied

"I know Zavi-that's not what I meant-" he replied.

"then what did you mean?" Xavier replied

"I-I- love you Zavi very much -but I really don't deserve you-" he replied

"Yes, you do Cal you've changed I've seen it. if I had originally told you everything that I have you would have stopped talking to me or told me that you hated me that you never loved me, but you've done the opposite you've listened to me. and told me that you do love me many times and I'm thankful for it there isn't really a reason as to why you should hate me, I made mistakes in the past we both hurt each other. but I've change so much since then and so did you. even if I was the first one to turn around and it took you longer and some of it was my fault-I've done everything for you since then but you always took it for Granit and I should have given up on you I almost did but then you gave me hope again-you finally opened up to me-you were so scared but like you now I listened to everything you told me and accepted you like you do-and I want to believe you but I have to ask is any of this real? did you pull another stunt to make me feel bad for you?

or do you truly love me?"

"Zavi- I understand why you believe that but when I say that I love you I really mean it with all my heart-"

"you do? it's not just some sick twisted joke of yours?"

"It's not I promise Zavi I love you I mean it and I hate to lose you, you are my world my bright light that shines even on a cloudy day, You are my home-because anywhere else would never be and you have always been there for me and maybe I was to blind to see it but I do now though it hurts that I'll never be able to see your face I know that your here-even after everything so who would I be to just give that all up again? I'm never going to let you go I promise-" callus replied

"then I'll stay and you're never going to get rid of me okay?"

"I would never I already told you and I do mean it Zavi-"

"I know Cal I got it by now you don't have to repeat yourself-"

"I'm glad Zavi-"

"I love you too Cal."

"and I love you Zavi-"