Fantasy of Madness part. 01

Its surprising how life can take turn. Sometimes because its so ridiculous that will make you feeling so confused. Sometimes its just happen too many times until you take it as normal. But if anyone that read this wondering about what the F i talk about, well, just take it as a musing of a madman.

Talking about a madman.

No, i am not a madman. Not always.

As a child, everyone around me always says that i am a smart boy. Smarter than almost all of my peers. But, you know. Because Pride is a Sin it can bring you to your downfall.

This thing happen when i was about first years of elementary school till my fourth years. The consequence? My ranking goes from 1st in class to fourth as years went by.

When i am in the 5th grade, a glimmer of hope lit the fire inside me to study harder. For me to become more religious. Father and Mother will finally live together with me. Its feels like my wish is in the brink of coming true.

After living in this world for 11 years, living with my grandparents and spending time with my actual parent a grand total of 2 years, one year when i am a baby then the other one year is the accumulative of about a month or two combined scattered across ten years, finally i can live with them.

I still remember the happy smile thats been on my face for the whole day in the mirror at that time.

A month in my 5th grade, my parents come back from their respective work to live with me. Surprisingly for me at that time, after maybe a week, the novelty is gone and replaced by some kind of invisible barrier that restric me to be closer to them. A month later they say that i will become a big brother.