13 Tormented

"Okay then," I walk back again and I can feel him walking after me.

I feel like an important person to him for asking me to stay, he has never do this. He has never ask me for a big favor like this, not that big favor but at least it makes sense. I don't have to ask him anymore, he already made a decision to ask me and that makes me happy.

"What the hell, man?" Shawn frowns when he see me walking with Noah.

"What? I want her beside me, you have a problem with that?" Noah blinks.

Shawn sigh in annoyance and nods. "Okay, I'll be quick," He says and look at me.

"Eyes are here, young man," Noah's voice becomes cold.

"Forgive me," He looks down.

"What?"

"Forgive me," He repeats.

"What particular sin should I forgive you?" He ask I was surprise for what he says. Does he mean, Shawn has some plenty of sins to him?

"For what happened between me and.." He looks at me and sigh.

I already know, idiot!

"D-dana.." He looks apologetic but I still want to smack him.

Noah has been through a lot because of them and I can't even bare to look at him in that kind of situation. He got his self wasted the whole time, he even forgets the situation of his shop because of this jerk's mistake. And now he's asking him to forgive him like forgiving is just a piece of cake?

What an asshole..

"Believe me I tried.."

"And?"

"I held myself back when she tries to approach me.."

"Get straight to the point, Shawn. I don't wanna hear every details, if you say it I'll kill you," I looked at Noah, he's looks furious.

"But that's the only way to make you understand me!" Shawn defends.

"I'll do my best to understand so now, speak."

He looks calm now, I know he's just holding his self back. He chose to hear him out so he has to be more understanding as much as he can to avoid any circumstances.

"I don't want to ruin our friendship--"

"You have ruin it already.."

"We can still fix this.."

"The damage has been done, Shawn.." Noah smiles bitterly. "You both hurt me and I can't forgive you because of that.."

I can see sadness and disappointment through Noah's eyes. He's hurt, yes. And that because of the same reason again.

"No," Shawn shakes his head.

"You can leave now.."

"I can do whatever you want, I can stay away from her just please.. Don't forsake our friendship.." He pleaded. I somehow understand him, I know he just also love, but he knows the consequences if he tries to betray him and now it's already happening.. I can feel the ending of their friendship.

Noah's blank stare didn't change, I can't still see any emotions from him and I can't blame him for hiding that.

"Please don't waste the few years we've been put up to build this friendship-- "

"You're the one who wasted it,"

"It's just a small mistake, Noah! You're going to throw everything just because of that?" He shouts and I almost jump off my chair.

"Small mistake, huh?" Noah's face turned sarcastic. He's now showing his emotion.

I can tell that he's really angry now. His teeth are greeting and his fist are clenching. Of course, I can't blame him for having that reaction. They made a painful sin to him and it really humiliates him. But now he's telling him that its just a 'small' mistake? He's don't deserve Noah's forgiveness, not even mercy.

"If you don't have anything else to say, please leave. I don't wanna fight you," He still manage to be calm even if he got humiliated. How generous he is..

"Why? You don't wanna know how superficial you are, huh?" He walks closer to him.

"Just go, you reeks of alcohol," Noah looks disgusted.

What? He's drunk? I didn't noticed it a while ago..

"Why you can't forgive me, huh?" He repeats again and I just rolled my eyes.

"I don't have anything to say to you anymore."

"Why can't you understand me, huh?"

"Because you lost respect for me,"

"That's because I fell in love with her!" He shouts.

But you also know that she's your bestfriend's lover idiot.

"And because of that, you betray me?" Noah wiped his hand on his face.

"I came first, Noah!"

"What?"

"I already loved her when you're still starting to like her!"

So, it's also painful for him having his bestfriend being with the girl he loves. I can't imagine myself being on his shoes.

"I was ready to propose to her before, I want to confess my feelings but when I came to her place.. You are there and I heard you're finally dating.."

"Shawn.."

"I love both of you, so I just left and forget about my feelings. And now, she's approaching and showing me some affection that I never received when you're still together, how can I refused that huh?" He eyes watered. I can feel his misery too.. He just got stuck to his conscience and love for them.

"You should've told me then!" Now Noah's acting out.

"How can I tell you if I always see you happy with her?"

"You should've still told me!"

"Seeing the both of you happy, makes me also happy but at the same time hurt.."

"That's just an excuse, Shawn. You can't fool me anymore.." Noah turns his back at him and leaves the shop.

I looked at Shawn, he looks sad and hurt.. I can't even blame Noah for saying it, their mistake affects his whole personality and feelings. He trust his bestfriend but it ends up betraying him. If I was in the same situation, that will also my reaction. I'll believed whatever he says was an excuse to cover up his sins. Well, part of being traumatized.

I quickly run towards the door, leaving Shawn inside and find Noah.. He needs me now and I think I can't be better off without him beside me. I need to make sure he's okay.

To be continued.....