1 Chapter 1: Beginnings

Have you ever fell in love so deep that you can't even find a way to pick the lost pieces of your life without falling on your butt all over again? Well, that's me, look at me, I'm so darn pathetic right now, it's been freaking 6 good years and I still can't seem to get "him" out of my head. You know why all this is happening? Cause I'm still fucking in love with him, well not completely, I'm getting over him as the years pass but it hurts so bad cause it was also my fault, I was the coward, I didn't fight back, I didn't even spare a second to think about him, I just walked away from him, from us.

I beat myself up everyday thinking about the fact that he's with someone else and I'm all alone sucked up in my own misfortune.

Well, that's me, always screwing the good stuff up. Oh I'm sorry to be so rude, yeah that's another feature I took up since I left him, I forgot to even introduce myself, hehe silly me.

I'm Christina Starstone, I work at ABC, its a company that puts together and airs paid advertisements, its not as easy as it sounds, I was appointed head of review committee last year and since then my life has gotten a lot busier, I've got to tell you I've really worked my butt off just to get this job, no kidding, although it's frustrating I still love my job, it keeps me sane, keeps be busy, well except when I'm spending time with my best friend and my Mom, they're the only people I have in my life and I'm really greatful to have them.

This is a journey about my fucked up life, who knows if I'll one day be happy again, but till then y'all got to tolerate this ass.