Chapter 1

September 27, 2021

When I was a kid I always dream I would stop time.

It is impossible what is the greatest moment in your life until you're close to the end of your life.

. It is human nature to wish good times to continue to relive their days of glory.

It is in our nature to hang on to that glory like a rope. Even should it fade? The known is comforting, but the unknown is daunting.

Everybody must've experienced this fear before.

Especially with people like me.

It normal to have this feeling.

After all, we are in the time in our lives where we should start thinking about the future. Like going to college and getting a good job afterward. We are at this difficult transition between adolescence and adulthood, so it natural we'd start obsessing with normality.

It's "living in the moment". An escape from our reality when you don't have your life together.

It is like an infection that didn't do anyone any harm. You can think of it as another stage of youth.

My life up to this point had been more than comfortable but is nothing special, I am fine with that in mind until the day I die.

It is the best option to go the road of the default path and stay away from the forests unknown. What troubles will you face if you choose anything different?

To run away from the darkness of the unknown and be safe in the light of the known.

That is the way of my life. The life of Janus Thompson. Always have and always will be.

I think I could keep my sense of time slowing down if I kept up this line of thought.

Stopping time is just a foolish fantasy of the mind.

Consider my philosophy the closet realistic approach. I thought I understood...

That nothing lasts forever.