Expectation vs. Reality

In life, there are things that we didn't expect to happen. We didn't plan it, we didn't look for it and we didn't wait for it. But sometimes, it just happened.

God always has his own purpose why everything happened to us but sometimes we are the ones who made this things happened.

There is always something new and there is always a first time in everything. Even in finding "the one". The one who will be there for you "forever". The one who will make you feel what true love is.

People are very curious when it comes to love. Sometimes they just have to try it to find out if it's already the one for him/her. Sometimes the first one could be the last one but sometimes not, so that they have to try something new, maybe in the second one, in the third one and so on. But the question is, how can you say that if he/she is already "the one" for you?

Here is a story of two persons who fell in love to each other unexpectedly. The one who has much experience in such things and now wants to try something new to find the real happiness in his life, and the one who didn't try to know about love before, because she wanted to wait for "the one", the one who could be there for her forever because she doesn't want to try the second one or the third one. She just wanted the first to be her last one. And now, she fell in love for the first time. She gave herself a chance to love for the first time. But the question is, is he "the one"? The one she thinks the right man for her?

This is a short story of Rainbow and Flower.

There was a man named Rainbow. Rainbow lost himself so he has to find it. And while finding it, he noticed a very quiet lady named Flower.

Rainbow had talked to Flower but Flower was very shy. Rainbow did not quit so he kept talking and asking some things to Flower. Rainbow made Flower so special. Until one day, Flower gave her smile to him and slowly gave Rainbow a chance to be her friend.

Flower slowly opened up herself to Rainbow. Rainbow was very happy that time. They became more than friends but less than lovers. They didn't care about all the things around them. They just wanted to go with the flow. They made promises to each other. They made plans for their future.

One day, Rainbow had to leave Flower for some important reasons. Flower was very lonely that time. She thought that Rainbow will always be there for her but he left her.

One day, the storm came. Flower was crying when the storm began to destroy the place where she lives. She got hurt by the storm. She saw only one color, and it's dark. She was looking for the colors she had seen when Rainbow came into her life but there is none.

Flower was waiting for Rainbow to protect her but Rainbow didn't come. Flower became weak because she was so hopeless that time until one day, Flower fainted. Nobody knows when she will wake up.

Rainbow did not know how much Flower wanted him back that time. Flower kept on waiting for him to come back eventhough Flower didn't know exactly when is that time. Flower wanted to be strong but the storm did not stop until the storm destroyed everything.

Flower really needed the help of Rainbow that time because only Rainbow can save her but Rainbow was not there.

Flower's face paled even more. Now that she's on that situation, does Rainbow can restore her life again? Does Rainbow can put back her color again? Does Rainbow can do it at the right time when everything is not yet too late?

One day, Flower woke up feeling worthless because that time when she slowly opened her eyes, she was expecting that Rainbow will show up but it didn't happen. She started to cry again feeling hopeless.

Flower doesn't know where Rainbow is. Flower doesn't know why Rainbow didn't come back or if Rainbow will come back again. There are so many questions in her mind.

She's asking herself if she deserves all of this. She wants to know what she did wrong to him for her to suffer like this.

The storm wasn't there anymore but the damages caused by the storm are still there. Eventually, Flower has recovered from it. She became strong again.

Flower continues her life while waiting for Rainbow to come back again because she knows to herself that she did not do anything wrong to him so she smiled again and at the same time hoping that they will be happy together again.

She tried to think positive. She gained more patience. She just waited for Rainbow to come back again.

Until one day, Rainbow sent her a letter telling her that there is nothing to wait for and nothing to hope for. Flower tried to read it again and again until she realized what's the meaning of that message .

She couldn't believe that, she thought that Rainbow was just joking, but he's not. She wanted to go near from where Rainbow was, but she couldn't. It's too far from where she was that time. She did not know how to go there. If Rainbow really wanted to see her and talk to her, then he will find his own way to do it.

Flower was just crying. She expected a lot from Rainbow. She waited for him. She believed on him. She wanted to fight her feelings for him but how, he is not even there for her.

Flower wanted to hear his explanation and his reason why there was that kind of message from him but Rainbow didn't want to come back again.

Flower was so hopeless, she wished that she didn't wake up the time she fainted but here she is, still breathing but suffering. What Rainbow did to Flower is worse than what the storm did to her.

Flower doesn't really know how to recover from what Rainbow did to her. She gave her heart a chance to love for the first time. Rainbow knows what Flower has been through in her life. She trusted him. She didn't pretend on him. She tried to accept who he is. She tried to understand what he is. She did try to love him because Rainbow made her special. She never knew that life could be that exciting. But it just ends here. He was the one asking her to be strong before he left but he's also the one who gave up first. And what really hurt is, it's when he already said that there is nothing to wait for and nothing to hope for, but here she is, still waiting and hoping.

Rainbow taught Flower to love him and now he's just breaking her heart. She thought that Rainbow is a kind hearted person but why it's so easy for him to hurt her now? Does he still love her? Or should I ask, did he really love her?

Flower wanted Rainbow to be fair to her. She wants to know the answers and he's only the one who can answer that questions. Flower doesn't deserve to be treated like this.

Flower just can't accept that it just ended with that letter. She read it again not to hurt herself but to feel if he really meant it. For her, it was just a letter, a letter without emotions that's why she wanted to talk to Rainbow personally but he doesn't want to see Flower anymore.

Flower wants Rainbow to talk to her face to face like before. She wants to hear it from him if he really meant it. But Rainbow doesn't even trying how to make it possible.

Flower just wanted to accept the truth and move on but it's not that easy for her. She became weak again. How could Rainbow restore her life again if there is no Rainbow anymore?

Flower thought that she is the one for Rainbow but she was wrong because Rainbow left her.

Two weeks later. Flower wakes up with a smile. No rainbow but there is the sun. She can still remember her dream last night.

She was walking in a place while finding herself. She wanted to see a rainbow but there was no rainbow but there was a sun. She sat down on the bench there while looking at the sun but still waiting for the rainbow to show up. After a while, the rainbow showed up but slowly covered by the gray clouds and then the rainbow disappeared while the sun was still there. The rainbow showed up again but covered again by the gray clouds while the sun was still there. Flower started to think and then realized something in life. She waited for the rainbow and then there's the rainbow, but after a few minutes the rainbow disappeared while the sun still there. There are things you waited to come and then just leave you that easy but there is also one thing you didn't expect to see but stays with you everyday.

That dream. Flower realized that there are so many good things in life. We just have to appreciate what or who is left for you. No rainbow but there is the sun. Flower realized that you will never ever feel alone if you just believe that there is one who always stays with you, it's God. All people can left you alone and time will come that nothing's left to you but He is still there for you. Only Him can never leave you.

Flower feels so strong again. She doesn't care anymore if Rainbow will come to see her or not. She just wants to go on with her life. She just wants to be happy again even without Rainbow. Rainbow is Rainbow. He will come back if he really wanted to.

Flower started to live a positive life even without Rainbow. Flower stopped waiting, hoping and fighting for Rainbow because she wanted to move on and just leave it all to God.

Just go with the flow of life. Keep on praying because everything happens in His perfect time. Maybe Rainbow is not for Flower.

Flower version 2.0 Braver. Wiser. Stronger.

In life, there are also things we have expected to happen. Things we have wished and prayed to happen. But sometimes, didn't happen.

We know that God also has his own reason why it didn't happen. Maybe because it's not yet the right time or maybe it's not for you.

Some people couldn't wait for the right time so that they made wrong decisions in life. Learn to wait for the right time because God only prepares what is best for us so we have to wait for it.

They say, if there is love, go fight for it. But I say, if there's no more love, just quit. Learn to love yourself first because at the end of the day, you're the only one who's responsible for yourself, only you.

Love is worth fighting for, only if the feeling is mutual. If it's not mutual anymore, just set him/ her free and move on. There are so many men/ women here in this world, not only him/ her. Maybe he or she is not yet "the one" for you. Or if he/ she is the one for you, maybe it's not yet the right time.

It always takes time to get the true love. And true love is just meant only for the brave ones. Don't look for it because it will just come at the perfect time. You just have to wait because whatever happens, if you're really meant for each other, God will find his own way for you to be together.

No one knows what will happen. For now, just go on with your life and let God move. Trust His plan for you.