"There's Nothing We Can Do."

I was his queen and he was my king. Our marriage only existed because of rash decisions I made at the age of 28. I regret ever marrying that man but the only thing I could never regret was giving birth to my son brandon...

Queen Alana's Point of View...

I've married that man for almost a decade yet I still feel lonely and unsafe every night. It didn't help that he's scheming minister's would offer up their daughters to him to gain his favor. I do remember a famous general say "There's nothing we can do." I guess everyone has needs. But for that man his needs will never be fulfilled. Atleast not by me. Though he is a womanizer at least Casimir never dared to hurt me in front of his mistresses... Atleast not physically. I tried to be a good queen in his court and I would serve him everyday trying to satisfy him and his needs. I also learned new skills and even sowed him a robe of his own. But we can never please everyone. I realized that after 4 years of marriage and decided to dedicate my life to Brandon. But being a perfect mother was harder than I expected. Most Royal families would have wet nurses to take care of their children but I wanted to take care of Brandon myself... Considering the fact that my mother didn't live long enough for me to know what she was like. I learned how I should feed him, teach him, bathe him and even cloth him properly. The thing I loved the most about Brandon was his blue eyes. They would shine so bright at day like a pair of diamonds and they would be deep in thought at the evening just like the deep ocean. But I can't help but to sometimes feel uncomfortable whenever I'm around Brandon. Lately Casimir has been the one mentoring him on how to act and I don't feel like he is being treated well. Sometimes I feel like I worry too much... Atleast I had my brother's to send my letters to...

Crown Prince Vedrill Konstantinos Morel,

He was my eldest brother. He's always had my back when we were younger and until now he's still with me. I haven't been able to talk to him much lately because they've been having problems back in our kingdom. My brother was rather strict with me and my other siblings. He acts just like our father. I get annoyed of his nagging but I really do love and care about him. I miss seeing his white hair and brown eyes along with his big bright smile. The last time we were truly happy was when they were attending my wedding...

Flashback...

Vedrill: Alana... You can still back out! There's still time!

Alana: Brother calm down. Your being to anxious over nothing.

Vedrill: Over nothing?! Your marrying a man twice your age! He's even older than me.

Alana: Casimir is the best option for a husband. I would rather marry an old man who treats me well than a womanizing 28 year old who has a disease.

Vedrill: Alana...! Your not getting my point. You don't need to marry if you don't want to! Nobody is forcing you!

Alana: Vedrill. Calm down . Don't worry I'll be fine. I know Casimir will treat me very well and he'll respect me as I respect him.

Vedrill: Alana. Once you marry him you'll have a hard time getting back to us. Think about it.

Alana: Brother I've thought about it for a long time. And I truly want to marry him. And for me it would mean a lot if you supported me...

Vadrill: Alright...

End of Flashback...

I think it's time I write him another letter. It's been awhile and I think it's time we talk about Father's wellbeing...

"My Dear Brother,

Vedrill have you been doing well back in the empire? How are you 3 there? I've missed you guys. I've been wondering when you'll visit me again. I wish you could come see Brandon now. He's gotten quite big I must say. He's developed a love for horseback riding and wants to try jousting. I've told him though that he's too young for it but he's still very persistent. I guess he inherited some of our genes. I know you've been having a hard time with bleck. Has he caused anymore trouble for you three? Brandon has been asking a lot about you guys... And I don't know what to tell him about bleck yet. Nevertheless I guess we can never hide it from him forever. But I've been having some concerns with Brandon. I've noticed sudden changes in his behavior. He has gotten quite... He flinches whenever I get a little to close to him and he gets scared of every sound. I fear Casimir hasn't been treating him well. I don't know what to do anymore. Whenever I'd try to interfere with Casimir taking Brandon me and Casimir would get into fights. I fear our fights might take a toll on my son. I need you here brother... Please send me a letter back once your free."

As I sent out that letter to a carrier pigeon my heart was filled with hope that my brother would come. I went to check up on Brandon inin his chambers but apparently Casimir ordered him to attend the imperial Court... He's only 6 yet my poor boy has to learn such matters in the court. To make Brandon feel better I went and cooked some food myself. I made all his favorite dishes and desserts to make sure he is full and well fed. Atleast whenever he was with me he'll be able to relax and play. By the time Brandon was finally allowed to rest it was already 2:30 at midnight. Brandon could barely stand properly so I carried him to his bedroom myself... He was so tired but he forced himself to eat no matter how sleepy he was because of his hunger. It was as if they have starved my son for 5 days. That night he finished everything I cooked. Brandon thanked me for cooking him food and carrying him back to his chambers. But he kept apologizing to me for making me do these no matter how hard I explained that it was alright. Once I put Brandon to bed he fell asleep in an instant. My son was so tired that he wasn't even able to change his clothes. I changed his clothes for him so he would be more comfortable while sleeping. I was at least reliefed that Brandon was now safe with me and now he'll be able to rest with no problem. When suddenly the chief eunuch came in...

Chief eunuch Servus,

He is Casimir's most trusted slave in the empire. He is like a father to Casimir during the late kings reign. He is a faithful dog to Casimir...

Alana: Servus. What message does the king send.

Servus: The message is not for you your Highness but for the prince.

Alana: Well I guess your old age has affected your eyes then. If you could see clearly the prince is sleeping so as his mother you may rely his Majesty's message to me.

Servus: My eyes are still very clear your Highness and I can see the prince sleeping. But the message is only for the prince.

Alana: I am the queen of the empire and mother of the crown prince! You are a servant of the Royal Family and it is your job to be a good dog and listen to our commands! Now tell me what is his Majesty's order...?!

As servus stared me down my blood boiled even more. Casimir has forgotten to teach his dogs to obey to commands. But the again it is servus. That old man never welcomed me even before Casimir replaced me with his mistresses. He would glare at me even if I would just greet him. Whenever I would cook and serve Casimir the foods myself he would interfere and call me out to remind me the rules. He's been a big pain to my side and I'm starting to think it's time to put down this dog once and for all...

Servus: Because your Highness insists then I shall tell you his Majesty's orders. He orders prince brandon to be up and ready as he and his majesty will be horseback riding at 5:00 AM. Afterwards they will attend court and a dress matters with the ministers. And there are many more things they have to do tomorrow. The prince will likely be able to get back at around the same time he did today.

Alana: This is outrageous! My son is 6 years old for goodness sake! At this age he should be running around playing and resting. He shouldn't be dealing with state affairs at this age...!