Our destiny
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Every human appear on this planet, live his life and die. No one can change that, just God, but he wouldn't.
Our path is already chosen, our end is clear in front of God's pure eyes. Whatever we choose to do in our life it's not our choice completely; God made us choose everything so our end will be as he wanted to be. He gave us freedom, but not all of it, he gave us the power to think rationally, but he didn't forced us to believe in him or anything else, he wants us to learn and have the power of choice. Or at least to think we have it.
After all we gained through a life: feelings, knowledge, people, memories, everything disappear with our death.
Can we choose how to live our life, happy or sad, can we choose to waste it or not? No. At every choice that we make, at every person that come in our life and changes something inside us we face God's presence. He give us a following word that our life goes on, for example "rich" or "depressed" or "normal"; they all describe our life and after we went though it and God decided that we've learnt enough through this life, he'll take us to him. He'll delete our memories and everything related to the previous life and he'll put us in a brand new life. With other people, other things to learn. Isn't it just painful to think about? How many lifes did I went through? How many people did I left? Who did I loved and who were my parents?
And here it's the moment of déjà-vu. A second of flashback from a previous life. And you feel weird, most of the time happy, because that's the only way you can communicate with your old self.
And don't you think now about all the people you met in this life? Don't you wish to never die?
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It scares me more and more everyday. The thought of dying and forgetting eachother forever eats my soul. As soon as I realized all of these things is not just that I value this life more than ever, but I even get more addicted to every second that we spend together. The thought that I met someone who took all the place in my heart and left no empty room for anyone else gets me a strong shiver down my spine, but the thought of losing this person forever, without my consent breaks my whole person. To spend a lifetime with someone just to remain with nothing at the end is such a torture that our dear Father put us through in every life that we had. This kind of emotion is unexplainable and endless painful.
"We are not eternal, we are not forever." are the right words that describe every relationship in every life that we have.
I promised you forever when I didn't know our destiny, I'll promise you "in this life" because that's the only life we'll ever meet.
I will do my best in this life to make it the most beautiful life you'll ever live and I wish I could say that I'll do my best in this life for you so when you'll have to go to your next life you won't be able to forget our memories.
©iDamass2020