Chapter Eight: “Secrets”

My mind has been in shambles since that day; how did he know about my trauma and condition? He's been gone for years, and now he's back, and he already knows everything. He really keeps messing with me, but I can't deny it. I'm so happy because he's back. I don't know exactly what it is to feel happy, but whenever I see him, my heart feels relieved as if I'm in heaven. It's like I want to stare at him forever. I couldn't hold myself back, so the next day we met again in the same place, so I decided to ask him how he knew about what was going on with me. But before I even opened my mouth, he stood in front of me, just staring into my eyes. I was shaking and scared, so I took some steps back. I'm not used to his presence yet.

A smirk was on his face, and he said:

"So whatever you want to ask me, I will answer all your doubts."

My eyebrow was frowned upon. I hate the way he keeps teasing me. I was speechless for some reason. I moved away from him, but he followed me and hugged me from the back. I flinched, but he immediately said

"I said that my skin would touch yours, so don't worry."

I don't know why, but tears keep falling on my cheeks, and finally I was able to say:

-"How? How did you know?

"DDon't you remember I told you that I was there that night? I saw clearly what happened, and I've noticed since then how you keep distance from others. I was keeping an eye on you, and I noticed everything, so it's easy to know. But it's really bad." He replied

"Why is it bad? I said

He turned to me, putting this magical smile on his face.

"Because I can't kiss you so hard now."

My face turned so red that I couldn't look at him.

He laughed so hard and said,

"So you do have feelings? Are you feeling shy?"

I ignored him and walked away. He followed me, screaming that he wanted to go back with me to class.

What are those feelings? Is that what it is to like someone? I can't figure it out. But I just decided to keep it as it is. To keep it as my lovely secret that it is only mine.