FACING THE UNFACEABLE

It is all my fault, I let him getaway. All he was waiting for this day, and I let him escape. What is wrong with me? She can't be found by him, otherwise, it will be a disaster, and this time, it's not just my life, that is at stake, but everyone's, along with her, and, I can't afford to lose her. I have waited long enough, already. She was there when I needed her the most, and now, I need to be with her, no matter what happens, even if, I have to fight with my father, let it be. I will protect her with all my might. This time no turning back.

"I am going to meet him, Falco. This hell is entirely under your control now, I know you can manage it on by yourself."

"Lucifer, I know it's hard for you, this is not your fault, it can happen with anyone. Just remain calm, in front of him. Okay?" He advised.

"I'll hold on to that, and thank you for everything you did for me. I owe you, lot many times. Whenever you feel like, just tell me, I will be there for you."

He smiled and said "Lucifer all I want is you to be happy. Don't think about me too much, okay? And, all the best, my king.", I nodded my head once and went in my direction.

Standing in front of the gates of hell, finally, I am going to be out of this place. I puffed a little amount of air, and opened the gates of my freedom, to set myself free.

Freedom was all I ever needed, but this emancipation puts a lot of responsibilities on my shoulders. The first step I need to take, to reach one step towards my goal, is to see him first. Keeping that thought in head, and in a swift motion, I was there, where everything was created, a place where the whole faction of human was originated, a place that I used to call home, until my father decided to disgrace me, and in this process, I lost everything which I ever got. After thinking about it all, and accepting the fact, is the only thing I can do, because I can never change the past. After composing myself up, and faking my demeanour of pride, because, I know, I can't let him see, how miserable I am. So, puffing up a bit of confidence and a showing a straight face, I opened the gates of heaven.

Everything still managed to look the same, as I left this place a long time ago. The grasses were lusher, with angelic beauty and pureness. The sky was indulging itself with the depth of the ocean, which is signifying only one thing, that, whatever you are, where you are from, what nature you control in yourself, and whatever colour of your blood flowing into your veins is? All these questions become insignificant if your heart is made of gold, and that gold, is dipped into the purest form of silver, then, that can make everything looks equal.

"Lucy, what are you doing here, my boy." I heard a husky voice from behind me.

"Gabriele, how are you? I am here to meet my father."

"After such a long time, now, you decided to visit us, when he, escaped. Well, I am sure it must not be a family reunion, then, but all the very best for whatever reason you are here for, and for the answer to your question, I am great, thank you for asking."

Gabriele has always supported me no matter what I have been through, he was there in my lowest till my highest. A father to me, he is, and I care for him a lot, and so does he. Now as I am looking at him, all I can do is miss my days here, with the people that I like, he is now a little old and wrinkly, from the last time I saw him, though it doesn't matter, he can alter his age, anytime he wants.

"Yeah, you are right at some point." I looked at the ground, wondering if I should ask this or not when he exclaimed, "damn! Just ask, I know something is going in your head."

"Will you mind, if I ask you about my father's, whereabouts?"

He looked at me with a blank face and pointed towards the sky, "the sun is just above your head, you know where you will find him." He answered, maybe he knows my family too well, then, I know it myself.

I nodded and went to a single place, my father never forgets to visit, it was not just a daily routine for him, it's always going to be more than that. This place makes him forget about all, what's happening in the universe. A place where he can relax and be himself, as this is the place where he buried his first and favourite son 'Michael', he became lost, when he was gone, he was not just shattered, but at that time, he was willing to destroy everything he ever created, and that's when he sends me away. According to him, he was saving me from sacrificing myself, but little did he knew, that, it would be my choice to save me, and by that, he banished his son from the place, which I used to call home. He freed me from himself, but this was not the worst part, the worst and pathetic part was, he never realised that after my brother died, I only had him beside me and all he did, was abandoned me, in the name of saving his second unworthy son. I want him to accept me, the way he used to accept Michael and respect my decisions.

Thinking about all these kinds of stuff, I noticed that, I am at my destination, already. A wide path of lilies was there, Michael always used to appreciate the beauty of this flower, every time he used to come here, he used to say that "Lucy, you know why I love lilies? Because it has multiple meanings, but the one, I admire most is 'devotion and its pureness', just like us, our love and devotion towards our father." He was a perfect son, anybody could ask for, and I know, I can never take his place, but all I want is, a corner in his heart. As my eyes landed on the creator of all, standing in front of the tombstone with numbness in his eyes. He always becomes very vulnerable when it comes to him, and in the same way, I become vulnerable thinking about her. Keeping the mission in the head, I approached my father. I walked a few steps when I heard him say "it's been a long time, Lucifer. Where were you? No greetings, nothing, as if you have banished yourself from coming here after your brother was gone. Can I know why are you here now, after such a long time?"

"Yes father, indeed, it's a very long time, maybe more than millions of years now, but I was just doing the job that I have been appointed with, and also I knew that you must be taking, very good care of heaven and earth. So, I was just looking after my job."

He nodded for a minute or two, then said: "I heard that he broke the prison of hell, and escaped, is it true?"

"Yes father, unfortunately, it is. That's why I am here to make sure that Eve is all safe. I am here to look after her."

"My boy, it's a very nice gesture of yours but she is not here."

"What do you mean, she is not here? The angel that came to my adobe told me, that, you found her, so why she is not here?"

"Lucifer, that angel said that we found her, not that we have her. She is still human. We can't just make her come to heaven, until and unless, she retrieves her memory, of, who she is in reality. That's why I managed to give her a book. It will give her some idea about her past."

"But father, how can you make sure, just by reading she will believe that it was her?"

"I know she won't believe easily, that's why once she will finish reading the book, then we will start the mechanism of retrieving her memories." Somehow, I believe that father is right, but we can't let history repeats itself, that's why I need to guarantee, her safety."

"Father you know that he is now free, he will be in a search of her, don't you think, we should protect her, from him?"

"What you are saying is right, but everyone has a job to look after, and I don't want anyone to be in this task, as it's dangerous and you know it."

"Father, why don't you trust your son, I will protect her. You know that I can. Also, I will help her memories to come back to her."

"I know son, you have never disappointed me, but if, you will be gone then who will look after hell?"

"You don't need to worry about anything father, I will manage everything."

"Okay! If you are so eager to help her, you can go there. But keep one thing in mind, you are going to live in the mundane world, so, take every necessary measure, to hide your identity. Is it clear?"

"Crystal."

"Okay then, I hope this time, it will be different."

As my father said, I can protect her, I breathed out, without noticing, I was holding it. My father again started to look at my brother's tombstone, then he looked at me and smiled, a genuine one and we both stared at the grave, with waters in our eyes.