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I eat my dinner silently. Well obviously because I live alone.

It will be scary if I'm talking and nobody's here. I'm not that crazy anyway.

After I finished eating, I wash the dishes and after that I cleaned myself.

It took me 15 mins to clean myself. Yeah clean. I just took a bath. It's just that I felt dirty since that incident happened.

I just shrugged the thought. I check my phone and log in to messenger. I had my facebook account deactivated for months,but I still logged in messenger.

They already stop messaging me. Maybe they're tired of chasing me. I've received many message everyday.

I didn't ran away from home. My parents knew that I wanted to be alone so they gave me what I wanted.

I disconnected myself with everyone. I became the silent type person or the thing you called introvert. I isolated myself.

I don't know what to do anymore. I just stared at ceiling of my room. My life's a mess.

Why do I keep blaming myself. It's not my fault but I keep on apologizing to everyone.

I was once a happy person. Everything changed because of the incident.

I hate myself.

I don't want live anymore. Yet here I am,still living because I am afraid to end my life.

I just want to be save from darkness.

Is life really cruel? Is there someone who can save me?

Can I really be save?

Can someone please save me? I'm drowning.

Then everything went black.