3 Chapter Three

"[Sobbing]...."

I told you. She's a tamed beast when she eats. And when she struggles like anyone alone in their life, she cries too. Night fell hard on us. The lively foul-mouthed Nash I usually hang out with started tearing in her sleep. And I can't stop it.. I am powerless...

My name is Electra Deuce and this is my life.

"Stop crying, Nash. I'm here.. I'm by you. I'm looking out for you.."

"Hmmm...."

"Yes, Nash. Smile and try to find positiv---"

"...Shut up, will you? I'm tired of hearing you bark for no reason.."

"You were awake... How much did you hear??"

"Poor little eel, I heard till the moment you said, I love you, to me."

"I never spit those words, Nash.."

"I know."

"Do you--Do you want us to be a thing or something because you were acting weird since morning?? Is it because of last night??"

"I wanna sleep.."

"Ignore me and I'm gonna touch you all night."

"...What do you want from me?"

"An answer, Nash. Why are you weird??"

"Because we fucked...."

"And what does that change?? It happened a few times already. I know you don't love me, but it still feels weird for me. I couldn't stop thinking about you."

"Alright. I'm not into you, Nash. Forget it.. Let's just stay friends, please."

"Of course."

"Good night then, Nash."

"Good night."

Puzzling. What she's doing is puzzling. She never stops pushing away and when she feels it, she calls me back. But I stopped believing a long time ago. I'm a nobody, and I want no one to mess with my life, not even Nash.

"You know, earlier, I saw you without covers. It didn't bother me in a way I would be able to explain.. I was stuck on place trying to look away from you, but I couldn't do it. Your soft skin, breezy hair, busty chest. I couldn't look away. I wanted to see what was down there. And even more.."

"Nash, when someone says, good night. It generally means good night. But I get you. You want to play dog and cat with me. I don't want it. You have a life, which I don't. You are important, which I'm aren't. People care for you, but I'm no one. I told you I would be your light. Both fortunately and unfortunately, I'm not. And you aren't for me either."

"Talking about our feelings for each other at midnight isn't a good thing. I'm sorry I troubled you. Forget everything I said. Good night."

"Good night.."

that's what happens when you try to love. She fucks you, pushes you away. Then, after thinking about it and patiently playing with me, she does that. Confess. I'd just hope she was more attentive. Alas, I demanded too much from 'Mind', The Future Seeker. That's why it's best to stay Best Friend...