Drown #4

"Now, you stay here or I'll tell your father about your crazy antics?" I clenched my jaw and turn my back on him without saying a word, i then walk towards my room. Damn you King, I hate it when you become so protective.

"Be a good girl Audelia! Don't eat everything on the ref, i know you, you're such a pig" He shouted after i lock the door of my room. My face turn scowl, The nerve of that bastard!

"Fuck you to bits King Moreau!" Shivering with madness i shout back, Hope you accidentally impregnate a woman!

I laid on my bed and stared at the bright glowing the dark stars in the walls and ceiling.

I closed my eyes as I spread my hand on both sides feeling the cold and soft matres. If only I can be at peace. 

Sometimes I'm really thankful for having King and Audrey by my side, they somewhat make me feel at ease, they can divert my attention, although they are a pain in the ass, nevertheless both of them are good cousin.

I sighed. Funny how these past days, all i do was to sigh. Have you ever felt alone once in your life? Have you ever felt so lonely and suddenly become a deep thinker?

Have you ever wonder why do you lack of this things and then see it as other person traits?

Like why are you just this? and they are this 'much'.

Honestly, i really don't know what to do. I'm unemployed, so where should you start Audelia? i don't have the drive anymore. It's not like as if i will forever be living like this..

If this will continue i will probably have a wasted  life.

Argh, I need to read, Maybe i can just sleep this for now.

But even before i doze off, i remember something. Oh God, the notebook! Where's my notebook?! It's been days since I last saw it! The night when King found me!

"King!" Immediately gone of of my room. But only to be greeted by the empty living room.

"King!" Oh Lord, where's my notebook? I can't let that piece of shit leave me! Without realizing my tears fell out of panic. My chest began to tightened.

I wiped the tears roughly, for sure King saw it! Maybe he forgot to give it back or whatever!. God, calm down Audelia, fucking calm down.

I first did my routine, inhaled and exhaled.I cannot let my asthma over come me again. I still need to find that book!

Everything that I have was there! The only reason why I'm still holding on is in there. It is the only thing that makes me hold on to my life, I cannot let that book be misplaced or get destroyed! As long as i still have this hate, this grudge, this pain and feelings, that damn book can't leave me!

I closed my eyes tightly as I think where could it be placed.

When i heard the front door chimed up, i opened my eyes and run towards it.

"King!" I shouted his name but he didn't answer.

"King, where the hell did you put my notebook?!" I march with a heavy step only to see a familiar man.

I blinked twice, my mouth formed an 'O' as he stared at me dumbfounded.