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To love is to be vulnerable. There's always risk. Nonetheless, to love is also an opportunity to gain wisdom from your mistakes. That's what they said, that's what i had been always believe. Until the moment when my life got shuttered. I dedicated my life for someone whom i thought love me enough. Whom i thought love me equally. I was wrong, To those years we spent with each other. They all vanished like bubbles in thin air. The past came back and it destroyed the present, even the future that awaits to the two aspiring lovers. I've been asking my self, what went wrong. What has gotten that suddenly we split up? What's not enough that i couldn't still fill the hole in his heart? I thought, we were okay. I thought, it's fine. I thought i fixed him already, i thought he love me. Maybe he did, but not to the extent that he can let go the person who once destroyed him. I was just a fixer huh, one you can run to whenever you need help then leave 'coz you don't need her anymore.

BlytheZoyle14 · Teen
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38 Chs

Drown 32

Quick note: Hello, I'm sorry for being gone.

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When i woke up,  hang over quickly banged my head.

I growl in pain. Oh lord, did i overdo my self last night?

I tried recalling what happened  but the only thing i could remember was the serious conservation me and Maze had. Nothing more, ugh. My head is killing me, i feel like i'll be puking any seconds.

I heard the door clicked and when i slightly open my eyes, Zach passive face greeted my sight.

"Hey, morning" I spoke horsely.

He only glance at me but didn't speak.

I sigh, guess i really overdone myself.

He knew my drinking habit, we seldom fight way back because of this, also one of the main reason why i didn't visit The Eve that much when we broke up, i always drink at home. Which made me curious when he said i often went there during the break up phase. I can count on my fingers how many times i spent a night there.

"I'm sorry" I said, breaking the silence between us. I refuse to look at him though, because i know that seeing his face full of frustration will not help me.

"Just eat for now" and he laid the tray of food on the table besides my bed.

He left after that. I bit my lip, i don't want this situation go deeper but at the same time i want to be with him.

I took the medicine and ate ny food.

For now, i gotta stop the searing pain im my head.

Would everything be alright after this?

I look at my trembling hands, i sigh in pity.

It was then when my phone vibrated. It's Nickle.

[Almost done]

I replied [Okay]

"I'll ready your bath" I jumped on my seat when i heard his voice, he gave me a confuse look.

I smiled, and just mutter "Thank you"

Ghad, that almost gave me a heart attack.

Is this how it feels on keeping a secret? Always afraid of getting find out..

I walked inside the tub, he felt my presence but didn't budge.

I took off my clothes and proceeded.

After i sat, i look up at him.

"Hey"

He stared back.

"Perhaps, we can go on a vacation?"

His brows curled a little. "Just the two of us" i continued.

"Where would  you want to go" He didn't sound like asking tho.

"Coron island?" i hesitated. Is it okay? He don't look like he wants it.

"It's fine if you don't want to"

"No"  he drop the shower gell and squatted in front of me so our eyes leveled. "I'll just finish my pending works and we're good to go"

I smiled tightly, my hand went up to his face and slightly cares it.

"You don't have to rush your works"

"No, we'll leave next week" he firmly said.

I nod my head and utter "Okay"

He sighed, his right hand held the hands thats caressing his face and he buried himself in it.

"I love you" I heard him whispered.

"Love you too" I answered but i made it inaudible.

From this day on, i'll stop counting my remaining days.

Because whatever happens, I'm still leaving.