5 Lonely

The entire room was filled with darkness, I could feel a stronger presence of someone, of someone I love, or someone I'd loved so much. A ray of light shone in through the door, I got closer, I could see a shadow, fear ran through me but I kept getting closer, closer and closer. I realized who it was, that's my husband, oh my ex, oh no he's dead. I called on him Rolly, Rolly, is that you? I could see him smile at me. Why did you leave me this way I asked? I got no reply. I stood there speechless. I still love you. He said to me.

I jumped off from my bed, fear grabbed me, I looked around to know where I was and if I was alone. I had already packed to my new place and I was still trying to get comfortable with the whole place. Oh, what I dream. I said and relaxed. A little tear ran down my eyes, will I keep living this way, Rolly what are you doing to me? I checked my stand to know what time it was. It was still 5 am, and I couldn't sleep again. I came off my bed, search for my robe and my phone, and went to the kitchen to get coffee cos I needed it. My entire house was beautifully decorated, I'd asked the home interior to make it to my taste. My kitchen was decorated with a brown wooden terrace. I made my coffee and got to the living room, I wasn't much a fan of tv, so I'd checked back on my mails on my P.C. For over a month now, I decided to do actual work. I'd stopped the flower shop and through this period, I'd been applying for jobs. It was quite tough for me, after I'd gotten my degree, I never had an experience. As soon as I was done with college, I decided to start my own horticulture business. I'd studied business management but I picked up interest in starting my flower shop. It was a big decision for me, my parents were entirely not in support, except for my friend Julie, who'd always begged me to do something better. She was not against it but she felt I was wasting my brains by just selling flowers. So she was happy when I told her I was ending the flower business. I could hear her excitement when she spoke to me. "I'm happy that finally, and for once you agree to my opinion," she said. "Well, I'm ready to move on and with that, I think ending the flower business is part of it too. I want to do something differently, I'm ready to have my life again. I replied with a smile. I'm happy you're ready to take control of your life and I'm ready to support you with anything, as for the job I'll try to link you up" Julie continued. I know I needed support with finding a job but at the same time, I know how my friend could be especially trying to help me move on with my life, I've to warn her. I thought to myself "Hey, don't do anything I wouldn't like" I said to her while pointing to her. "Yeah yeah yeah, I've heard you" she replied with a big grin. I was seated on my new favorite couch, I kept checking on my mails, I got some negative replies, I wasn't so happy. I thought of calling Julie, maybe she's got news for me. I picked up my phone and called Julie right away. "Hey babes, whatsup?" She said. Julie has always been my closest friend for 18 years, although we didn't start well along the line, we blended and since then she's my ride or dies, in-fact she's like my sister. Although our lives differ in a way, she's loud and wild while I'm the reserved, sweet girl. Many who saw us would ask how we complement ourselves that much. She's always had my back and having her in my life is a blessing. "Yes babes, I'm good. Got any reply yet for the job?" I asked. "Well not really, but I spoke to someone and he promised to give me positive feedback" she answered. Okay! I said. I was still surfing my mails, I saw something different and I decided to check on it, Julie can you give me a second, I said to her while still on my P.C., I was reading out the message and I was getting excited for the reply I got. I was accepted and was asked to resume next week. I knew I messed up with numbers on my interview day, I couldn't believe I just got the job. I screamed for joy. "Wow I'm proud of you Meghan," Julie said to me on phone. I just remembered I'm still on a call... I kept pacing the whole room because I couldn't contain my happiness. "This cause for celebration you know? And it is Friday today, let's go out tonight.... and no, you can't say no." Julie retorted. She just knew I wouldn't want to go but Julie wouldn't want that. " Okay okay, fine" I replied. "Yaayy, so I've to go now, I'll come to pick you this night, wear something sexy,(Laughs out loud), and congratulations again dear." Julie said. I smiled and said thanks. I was pretty much excited about the job, I mean having to wear corporate dresses and going to the office, attending meetings, getting my monthly check paid, and meeting my colleagues. I was so happy and at the same time anxious about the whole thing. But I knew I couldn't wait for next week. Speaking of dresses, I knew I'd to get new clothes for work, I mean I owned a flower shop and I wasn't looking at what to wear and all. "I think I need to go shopping," I said to myself.

I made my way to the bathroom, showered, and made myself breakfast. The