Chapter Forty Five

Copyright © 2019 by S.M. TOZER

Yet again Raven was standing before his door hesitating to go any further. His room was beginning to feel like a danger zone, not knowing what was going to happen each time he entered the room. He knew Menay was going to be upset and likely scold him just for going out when he was advised not to.

Raven knew when he finds that Carson knows the secret there will be no telling how he would react. Almost tempted to walk away Carson reached past him as he used his ID to unlock the door and twist the handle, "Go on" he demands urging Raven to hurry up.

Menay seized from pacing the room and jumped to the bed as he heard the door unlock and begin to open. His tail flicked aggressively, ready to give Raven every bit of the anger he held within his small frame, "Raven, I don't like you going far without me around. Thought you said you were going to the movies, why would you be so reckless?" he growled scolding Raven for not returning straight away. Though with the aggressive front, he was ultimately worried that Raven could have been hurt while out of his sight for so long.

Raven felt these words as he clearly showed a response to them with a flinch but didn't speak or even look his way. Standing in the hall in front of Carson, hanging his head low this caused some alarm for Menay.

"Raven?" Menay questioned while Raven made it more obvious he didn't want to make eye contact with him as Carson stepped around.

Feeling Carson's hand touch his shoulder, Raven easily moved aside for Carson to pass him. Allowing Carson be the one to break the news while he moved closer towards Menay in the room, "I know you can talk, so spill it." Carson demands while pointing to the cat.

Menay looked over to Carson as he gave out a disgruntled growl, "Raven?" he insisted, calling for his attention again in a more aggravated tone than before. He was clearly not happy with what this appeared to be before him.

Raven glanced over for a moment before leaning his back against the wall shifting his gaze to the floor, "There was an accident..." he claimed hesitating to tell him any more, though he knew Menay already assumed as much, "He knows" he adds just to clarify the obvious.

Menay shifted his glare over to Carson as the anger washed over his body seeing the smug expression Carson made when Raven claimed he knew. Menay leapt from the bed having his body change through mid air he showed himself in front of Carson. Grabbing a hold of Carson's collar Menay snarled, "What did you do?" He snapped.

Carson was almost in disbelief that he was right to assume, the man Raven had spoken to in the rain was in fact the cat called Menay. Looking over the naked man before him for a moment he regained his composer so he could persist to gain information about Raven, "I didn't do anything to him" Carson claimed narrowing his brow to the way Menay made it sound like he had done something wrong. He reached up pulling his collar free from Menay's grasp.

Menay snarled pulling his hand back from the young man reminding himself he should restrain while he was in the presence of a human, "You were there yesterday, weren't you?" He inquired, knowing that there was something suspicious about him since the morning.

Raven heard these words as he perked up from the wall looking over in a questioning manner, "Where?" he asked looking over to Carson becoming curious to this as well.

Menay peered from Carson then back to Raven, "When you changed back, I knew I smelled his cologne, he saw you change back as well" Menay explained pointing at Carson with a growl.

"He, what?" Raven wavered in his voice approaching the two though avoiding Carson as he went around to Menay's side.

Carson looked back having his eyes follow Raven knowing this sort of reaction would happen. Though, he didn't think he was caught that day however he was sure that Menay knew a lot more than he let on having been watching for so long as a mere cat.

Carson went to explain himself when Menay spoke up again, "How else do you explain how calm he is now, even while I changed in front of him he didn't show any sign of fear" Menay explained defending his assumption of what truly happened knowing it wasn't Raven's fault.

Carson snarled wanting the cat to silence already so he could speak as he looked Raven in the eyes, "That's not true, I knew Raven was hiding something from me but I did not know for sure what it was," he explained finally speaking up to deny the claims that Menay was making without proof. Knowing he only had a theory about Menay, he never imagined what was going on with Raven.

"But you had more than just a hunch; that's why you mislead me away before you made your move knowing I was his guardian." Menay snapped pointing out why Carson wanted him away, not about to let him get away with his defense knowing he didn't just stumble upon the truth.

Once Menay pointed out that he noticed the diversion Carson intentionally made, he could no longer argue with Menay. He had not figured Menay would be so suspicious of him from the start, therefore he was not prepared to have to explain how he knew to Raven.

Menay huffed, "You are smarter than you look I'll give you that..." He claimed crossing his arms over one another, "Eager to seek the truth, didn't even give me time to lead you away." Menay growled exposing how he already assumed he would need to find a way to distract Carson. Though while the two glared at each other Raven himself was becoming upset with the two and their secretive behavior.

Carson arched a brow to the sarcastic comment made, "I like to jump right into the game." he sneered giving an arrogant smile just to get on Menay's nerves as he felt like he had more ground to stand.

Holding this smile while looking down at Raven he noticed Raven's features became obviously angered by their conversation causing Carson to quickly drop his smirk, "I didn't mean tha-" he stuttered out having to avoid an object being thrown his way before he could finish what he had to say.

"Did you set me up to get kissed?" Raven snapped angered by the turn of events finally realizing that when Carson made it seem like he was pushing to get him a girlfriend he was actually setting him up while luring Menay away because he already knew the trigger. Angered by this even more since he missed the first throw Raven reached down to grab something heavier from the shelf by the bed.

Carson hated that he had to deceive Raven to get the truth when he knew it would only make him angry. However, he had no other choice so he accepted this tantrum but he was not about accept having objects thrown at him especially when Raven picked up the loose change jar, "Raven!" Carson shouts reaching out to stop him as he planned to calm him down by force if necessary. Just so they could go back to the main reason they returned, answering the questions he had.

Feeling Carson's hand grasp over his own on top of the jar while the other began to grasp at his wrist Raven shoved the jar into Carson's stomach making him catch it as Raven backed away. "Don't touch me!" he orders stepping back hitting his heels on the bed frame.

Carson tightened his grip on the jar hearing these words he looked up at Raven's expression seeing the anger mixed with pain like he had been betrayed, "Hey, I wouldn't of had to do this if you would have just told me" Carson declared as he went to step towards Raven closing in the space angered by how Raven could act betrayed when he was lied to all this time.

Menay stepped forward while his arm reached out across his chest grabbing Carson by the shirt once again, "Back off" He hissed warning Carson not to take another aggressive step towards Raven.

Carson stopped as he had almost forgotten that there was someone other than him and Raven in the room. Glaring over to Menay he couldn't help but snarl and become hostile, "What do you plan to do?" he challenged finding Menay to be the intruder in their room, having no authority over him.

"I'm his guardian and you're touching him, I'm sure you can figure that out" He responds as he wasn't about to back down from the young man only because he was human if he planned on fighting with Raven.

Carson scoffed as he heard the sarcastic threat, "I'm not afraid of some pussy" he sneered not backing down even if he didn't know what Menay was capable of he was confident that a cat wouldn't have anything extraordinary.

Raven felt the tension between them growing as he watched the events unfold before him. He wasn't sure why they were at such odds when it was him that should be the most angered by it all. However, it didn't matter, he didn't want them to start a fight in the middle of there room knowing someone would hear them which could create an even bigger problem, "Back off each other, you idiots" Raven scolded as he pushed at both of their chest getting them away from each other.

Menay grabbed Raven's arm before he could step away from them peering down in a scolding manner, "Raven?" he questioned wanting to know what it was that Raven planned to do from here.

Raven looked up as he fell timid again diverting his eyes from looking at Menay's expression, "I told him you would explain, so explain..." Raven muttered as he ordered Menay to give Carson the details since he wasn't sure if he could.

"Tsk" Menay hissed glancing up to Carson for a moment wondering if Raven's timid behavior was his doing. Not wanting to explain, knowing he could easily put a stop to Carson's interference he hesitated sense he would need Raven's permission first.

"Raven..." he repeated himself again in a questioning tone as he wanted to give Raven a chance to change his mind. If there was any waver in his expression then he would know Raven didn't want Carson to know. He knew Raven wouldn't understand but there was nothing Carson could hold over him that Menay couldn't put a stop to but he also knew their relationship had been strong and there was a chance that he wanted no more secrets with him. So Menay had to be sure this was what Raven wanted too before he acted on his next move.

Raven hated the hesitation in Menay's actions after he told him what to do and decided he needed it in a better command. "Explain, Medwin" Raven demands using Menay's given name as if it were to enforce the seriousness of his command wanting the secret out already.

However it did the opposite effect, upsetting Menay he could tell this was what Raven wanted. Though, now he was irritated and if Raven wanted Carson to know so bad then he could be the one to tell their story.

Menay huffed, "I am not a teacher, you tell him. I won't." he declares changing back into his cat form as he jumped to the bed.

Raven snarled, shocked that Menay would give him that sort of reaction, "Useless familiar" he grumbled unhappy with him for acting this way even after they came to the room just for him to explain these things to Carson so he didn't have to.

Watching Menay change his form again from man to animal Carson wondered if the cat was all he could do or if it was just his preferred form. Hearing the word Raven called him it caught his attention to look back at Raven, "Familiar?" he questioned having heard it before already beginning to assume Raven was a witch.

Raven looked over having forgotten that Menay would need to be explained as well, "Some animal guardian demon or something" he babbled throwing his hands up as he didn't know how else to explain it. Not really sure about Menay either, only knowing a few things he shrugged knowing this was going to be hard.

Carson clicked his tongue only hearing what he already assumed, "Okay..." he mumbled shaking his head from the thought, "I don't care about what he is, what about you?" he inquired wanting to get straight to the point.

Raven looked back to Carson as he went to claim what he was, "I'm a..." he hesitated knowing he didn't truly want to tell him but he had no other idea of how to explain his physical change, "Succubus" he muttered out hoping Carson wouldn't know what that was.

Carson narrowed his brow while looking at Raven confused for a moment trying to process what he was told, "A what?" he asked again wanting Raven to clarify that he heard him right.

"Technically Raven, you are the male version. So you are an Incubus" Menay corrected as he thought he should inform Raven of what the technical name was if he were going to intend on telling people.

Raven glanced over to Menay, "Incubus?" he questioned wondering why he was not told this sooner. Just before he was going to ask Menay more about it Carson snapped his fingers.

"Oh, A male sex demon?" he exclaimed once he connected what Raven was telling him.

Raven snapped back looking at Carson wondering how he knew what it was. He couldn't explain now with how Carson worded it making things harder, "I- How did you know what that was?" he questioned.

Carson arched a brow looking down at Raven, his eyes searched over the red beginning to spread across his cheeks under his freckles. He wasn't sure just what it was that embarrassed Raven but the way Raven was acting it made Carson chuckle, "Dude, I'm not an idiot," he informed.

Raven shook his head as he realized he was misunderstood, "I didn't even know what that was till recently" He admits unable to hold back his astonishment of the fact that Carson, who had no interest in fictional creatures, knew something that Raven should have known about, his whole life.

Carson snickered knowing what was embarrassing Raven now, "That's because you're still a virgin..." he taunted falling short of his insult as he realized that Raven may not be a virgin after all, "Are you?" he questioned wondering if Raven had been only putting on an act this entire time.

"I-" Raven stuttered out as he went to inform Carson that being a virgin would have nothing to do with it however then he caught what Carson asked, "What?" he questioned looking at him irritated that he would want to know this of all things.

Carson shrugged, "You've always been hiding this from me and with what you are," He explained throwing up a hand gesturing to Raven's body as his reason to be curious, "Can I not be curious?" he asked.

Raven huffed as he felt insecure about what Carson was always interested in becoming more conscious of it than before, "No you can't" he muttered stepping back from him with caution.

Carson huffed knowing Raven didn't hide this information from him before and yet now he wouldn't even acknowledge his virginity. It caused him to assume he was only lying the entire time but Raven was clearly becoming uncomfortable with him asking so he didn't push it, "Why were you out of school, was it some... coming of age thing?" He inquired changing the subject to help Raven feel at ease around him again.

"What?" Raven snarled looking away as he heard the coming of age theory only being reminded that his birthday was the coming of age for him to be human though it was ruined. Raven kept looking away as he tried to think of how he would explain what keeps happening to him or why he had trouble returning since he was not sure if Carson would understand.

Carson stepped closer when Raven didn't respond thinking about what he asked, he wondered what it was about Raven's birthday that made him so different than usual. The only thing he could think of was during that time while Raven was not at the school just before he got sick, "Did you change that night because you had sh-" he went to question if it was because of Jewels when Raven spoke up.

Raven's heart sunk assuming Carson was going to claim he had done something that night when he hadn't nor did he truly want to keep reliving it with him, "Will you shut up for one moment and back away idiot!" Raven shouted causing Menay to give out a low growl.

Carson noticed the change in Raven's attitude realizing he overwhelmed him with questions and didn't allow him to answer. Deciding to step back, he walked over to his side of the room and waited for Raven to explain things.

Even if Raven hated it he knew the only way he would be able to explain what has happened would be to tell Carson everything that had happened since his birthday, "I am still the same person as before, I've never done anything more than what you have done to me since this all began" He explained knowing Carson would grasp it better from the first hand experience, "I was almost human" Raven adds in a muttered defeated tone.

Carson arched both brows recalling every time he had touched Robin even the night that he had passed out and nodded his head rubbing his face not sure how he should feel about that. Though he still questioned what Raven meant by the last words, "Huh?" he inquired looking over to him.

"I'm only half demon..." Raven informed looking over to his dresser unable to make eye contact with Carson, "If Jewels hadn't kissed me to get your attention then I would have been human after my birthday passed. That day was the first time I ever turned into a girl and I haven't been able to stay as a man anymore" he explained in a heavy tone having to admit this. Moving over he sat down on his bed across from Carson feeling the envy towards him now knowing he was somewhat to blame for that night.

Carson looked down feeling guilty having not known this was the reason Raven wanted to stay peacefully in their room that day. He knew now he should of just planned it for a later day. If he hadn't forced Raven out that night Jewels wouldn't have kissed him and he wouldn't have changed. However, he didn't remember this part from any story he had heard of the sex demon before, "How does it work?" he questioned wanting to know more about what Raven was.

Raven sighed knowing he was about to upset Carson with his explanation, "I have to feed on energy from someone when I'm kissed. Like when we kissed, that's why you were so weak at the game" he explained.

Carson shrugged hearing Raven talk about it while feeling guilt, "So don't feed when you kiss someone?" He suggested offering an alternative to his way of life.

Shaking his head no Raven denied this suggesting without even giving it some thought knowing this would never work, "I can't choose that, the second my lips touch another I am already feeding if the female energy is higher than male I turn into a girl that's just how it goes" Raven explained clarifying that it just wasn't that simple.

Carson thought about what Raven said not truly understanding why it didn't seem as simple to Raven as it did to him, "So to stay a man, you need to hook u-" Carson stopped suggesting as Raven snarled hearing Carson imply that he needed to be with a man that way. "I mean feed off men only" Carson corrected before Raven became angered by his previous phrasing.

Raven huffed knowing what Carson was still thinking about it even if he changed his response, becoming reluctant to answer mostly angered by his statement than embarrassed. He crossed his arms looking away annoyed, if all Carson was going to be interested in was how he fed then he wasn't talking to him anymore.

Carson watched Raven for a moment seeing as he wasn't going to get any answers from this distance so he stood stepping across the room, "Does it repulse you to kiss a guy?" he questioned getting closer to in front of Raven with every step.

Raven cringed as he heard the footsteps followed by the question, "That's not it" he grumbled drawing back onto his bed a bit more.

Hearing Menay let out a warning growl Carson didn't stop even when he was on Raven's side of the room he persisted for answers, "Then why do you act like there's a problem?" he asked finally stopping before Raven's legs.

His intimidating presence didn't help Raven become more willing to speak as it actually began to bother him. He could not believe how arrogant he was acting, Carson thinking he could try and bully his way for more answers even after Raven was telling him things he had not told anyone else, it crossed a nerve.

Looking up at Carson, Raven glared at him frustrated knowing Carson was only being intolerant for his own gain, "After fearing something for so long even turning into an incubus didn't change what I was afraid of." Raven snapped admitting it was still the touch of another's lips that made his skin crawl.

Carson's eyebrow arched, "Oh so that was real..." he claimed surprised and stepped back for a moment realizing what was causing Raven to be so bothered with what he was. "You've always had more of a fear towards men right?" he inquired a little further just to know if it was really the kiss or men that scared him.

Raven scoffed as it seemed obvious enough, knowing the reason was because men seemed to attack him more than women since he turned fourteen. "That's because of this school teaching me about a new physical education I didn't want to know about" he grumbled feeling slightly stupid for not knowing about men having relationships as well. Though he wasn't to blame since he was home schooled, he had a pretty sheltered life before he picked the boys school.

"Pfft, besides that" Carson chuckled finding amusement in the way Raven was naive about his feminine attractive features before going to an all male school, "What about women?" he continued to inquire.

The embarrassment only worsened with how Carson chuckled, "I don't want to be a girl" He mumbled rubbing his hands between his legs subconsciously thinking about how hard it was to adjust to being one for so many days already.

Carson took in a deep breath and held it for a moment knowing what he was about to offer would be rejected but wanted to try. "Then use me" he suggests getting closer once more.

Raven narrowed his brow confused, changing his attitude quickly unable to understand what it was that Carson was trying to imply, "use you for what?" he asked.

Carson's face didn't waver as he loomed over Raven's bed, "You've already used me twice, are you afraid of me?" he questioned, suggesting further what he was implying for Raven to do.

Though as if he refused to acknowledge it, Raven glanced Carson over unable to understand what it was that he was getting at, "No... not usually, I-" he went to explain how Carson's behavior however was causing him to be wary of him when he was cut off.

"Then I'll feed you," Carson blurted out and before giving Raven a chance to respond he explained, "I won't lose anything from this and you will return to being right by my side again like usual." he claimed giving a reason why he was so willing to feed Raven.

Raven started shaking his head no the second he thought of what this implied for him to do willingly again, "I won't do that with you." he argued making it clear he did not plan to kiss him again.

"What?" Carson scoffed as he heard Raven say he wasn't going to be with him and smirked, "No, I'm not going to do that to you. I have a type you know" he teased suggesting Raven was talking about more than a kiss.

Raven huffed hearing these words but before he could respond with anger Menay spoke up, "Raven, I don't like this plan. You need to learn how to feed the proper way" he suggested not happy with how things were going.

Raven looked back and snapped at Menay "Shut up, how I feed doesn't concern you right now." he growled uninterested in how this didn't settle with the cat as he clearly wasn't reliable enough to help him while he learned.

"Raven, you can't depend on him" Menay urged not wanting him to take this route to learn knowing there could be consequences.

Carson's expression became cross as he saw the one sided exchange Raven held while looking at Menay. He knew now why he thought Raven was talking to himself more lately. Though hearing what was claimed by Raven's side it made Carson think if he didn't speak up Raven would be swayed by his cat, "While you learn to feed, I'll provide what you need to keep you from running off again. So you can learn about women while I'll help you change back." Carson explained making it clear he just wanted Raven to stop running away.

Menay gave a low growl as Raven looked over acknowledging what Carson offer for his word, "I don't like this, why is he so accepting of what you are? It doesn't feel right Raven" he warned still finding Carson's behavior peculiar.

Raven glanced back to Menay, he knew the cat had a point but as did Carson. His idea, though strange, would help Raven take on his new lifestyle without fear. That was what he truly needed, if he could adjust by having someone there to change him back it wouldn't take him long to get used to what he had to do.

"Fine" Raven declares looking back at Carson taking him up on the offer to supply him with the male energy.

Carson scoffed in almost disbelief that Raven would accept his offer so quickly. "Okay..." He confirmed nodding his head while he stepped away for a moment thinking about what he had just done before turning back, "So how will we, this work?" he questioned stepping back towards Raven.

Raven narrowed his brow cautious of Carson while pulling his feet up to the bed he moved back giving a shrug, "I... just kiss" Raven grumbled not knowing the specifics on how it all worked either. "But-" He went to warn Carson of the energy he would take from his athletic capabilities but Carson clapped his hands together stopping Raven from speaking.

"Alright, then I will" he exclaimed without waver looking down at Raven giving a smirk, "Let's go down to the cafeteria. I'm really hungry, you?" he proposed while wondering why he felt so starved all of a sudden.

Though when he looked down at Raven he recalled this empty stomach feeling from before. Pointing at Raven with a suspicious expression he linked the two, "You did this, didn't you?" he asked.

Raven looked back with guilt giving a nod. Carson clicking his tongue finally understanding why he felt so unusual after he kissed Raven for the first time. While also realizing what he had just agreed to give Raven from now on, "Okay, then we'll go out to eat tonight, not going to get anything worth fueling either of us here" he claimed picking his phone up ready to leave while Raven was more than reluctant to follow.

"Raven" Carson nagged as he neared the door to quicken his pace wanting to head out before it got dark.

"Yeah I'm coming..." He claimed while still hesitating to get up from the bed looking over to Menay. He didn't know what was going to happen from here but Raven had a feeling some things were going to get a little easier than before, even if Menay was still unsettled with the idea.

Carson glanced back as he watched Raven reach out to pet Menay and gave a snarl, "Leave the cat" he demands while grabbing their coats.

Menay looked up to Raven and his ears flicked back, "Oh I am definitely coming now" he snarled.

Before Raven could stop him Menay was stepping from the bed while his body began to change to his teen's. Raven pulled back his hand regretting the thought that he needed to comfort Menay and rolled his eyes. Hearing the two go back and forth at each other with comments while Menay got dressed. Raven was already to give up wishing he had not been caught by Carson already.