6. I hate everything

At the Golden Residents

Raya sit on the bench near the flowers park. She staring blankly while try to breath some fresh air then close eyes slowly. Piece by piece memory show up in her mind randomly. She could remember clearly how Duncan hate her and never care about her because he thought she is vicious woman that grab something she shouldn't have.

She slowly open her eyes and look at the red rose in front of her. Raya just remember that she never like red rose, in fact Dora who love this kind of flower. Will this stay the same if I change everything? at least that's what Raya thinking boldly. Than thinking to change everything, she just want run away from all of this. Unbearable pain and heart broken that she already feel in the past life is enough and not anymore.

''Excuse me Madam, the fruit and food that you ask us is ready.'' A servant middle age woman come interrupted her. She just nodded then walk back inside following the maid.

''Please don't blame mom to not allowed you inside my womb, because it's better I never own you in the beginning.'' Raya touch her stomach while talking inside her heart.

At the kitchen

Some servant preparing the food and fruit, while an old lady the oldest and trusted mail there just staring suspicious at the food. ''Mr. Xuan yi, isn't this all food causing miscarriage.'' The old lady ask curiously to the head butler of the resident.

Meanwhile the butler just keep silent and ignoring the question, because it is not his place to judge his master will. In the beginning of marriage life, Xuan yi already realize that his master never love and even hate the madam. But, his opinion changing after a phone call from his master this afternoon.

He surprised enough that his master for the first time they are marriage so concern about madam condition and even ask him to pay enough attention about her condition. If finally his master built the feeling for his wife is a good thing, but if not, madam that would be hurt in the end.

At the same time, Raya eat well some crabs and longyan fruit. While her stomach feel so much full, she back to living room - sit on the light pink sofa. Even she disgusted with the whole interior and exterior design that mostly based on Dora taste.

On the sofa Raya sit comfortly leaning his back while search something on her phone. She looks some a single apartment with possible price. Raya know her own condition, even her father rich and love her the most but she can't ask the money.

''I'm not gonna allowed you to stay outside.'' Duncan suddenly show up behind her that startling her.

She turn her head right away looking him that already stand right behind her. ''When you come?'' Raya ask him confusely.

Duncan walk around to sit beside her after take of his suit and tie while roll up the sleeves. He really looks handsome and manly with his great body. ''Have you enough staring at me?'' Duncan said teasing her interrupted all her imagination.

''Wh..who staring at you?'' Raya said nervously turn her face spontaneous. ''I don't want stay here, I want stay at my own apartment.'' She try to change the topic.

''I'm not gonna allowed.''

''I don't need your permission.'' Raya said it right away annoyed.

''This is your house.''

''This is not.''

''Why?''

''Because everything here not belong to me. I'm not substitute and I don't want stay as another person shadow.'' Raya really annoyed and she almost yield.

Duncan just observe her silently, then continue to talk after turn his body to face her. He sit closely, ask her with low voice about her meaning.

''I hate everything, this sofa colors, flowers, everything no matter interior or exterior are not my taste. I'm not her okay?'' Raya stand up suddenly, pointing everything she hate and firm her gaze staring him.

Duncan keep his posture calmly, then stand up looking at her face to face. He then do unpredictable action that make her very surprise. Raya wide eye can't believe that Duncan just hug her and whispering in her ear. ''Let's decorate everything based on your taste.''