Prolog

The moment I open my eyes, the world already feels like black and white, I understand many things even from the beginning, the doctor who hold me cannot even hide their expression the moment i imitate their word after i was born. No, at that moment I don't even begin to understand how amazing that was, natural-born genius they said, neurons in my brain already reach adult capacity the moment i was born. I was taken by the government the moment i turn 2 years old for experimentation, they want to know how to make baby like me born with mind of an adult.

I understand everything that they do to me, they're pretending i was their friend, play with me, train me and educate me, they think even if I'm a genius, a kid is still a kid but i already know everything the reason i do nothing even though they torture me day and night is because of my family. I know i just holding into a blind hope, i can only perceive 2 outcomes for my family the moment i was taken by the government, either they got terminated or they got taken into a secret location and forced to live their life there.

In my teen years i already smarter than anyone in the world, or so they say, they inject me every week with a drug that restraint my thinking capabilities, they say that it was because my brain processing information too fast that it become dangerous to my body, but the truth is they just scared that i capable of thinking a way to escape this place. Truthfully i already know how to escape from this place long ago but even with all the knowledge in this world in my head there is always one question running in my head, a question without an answer "What do i want?" What I'm going to do the moment i escape from here ?

That question always ponders me every restless night and every blinding noon. Find love? Be successful? Have all the power in this world? None of them seem even slightly interesting at all. Many people ask me, "don't you want to have freedom?" The thing they didn't realize is, there were never any freedom in this world at all, everything always come back to the law of all, that every action will result in a reaction.

After almost 15 years of research, they stopped the program, they only realize something that even 5 years old me found. Recreating me is something that cannot be done even with any technology that will come in the next million years. So they try to terminate me, of course i escape, i got out to the world, i try to live like anyone would, daily job, crappy apartment, a friend that doesn't like you. But in the end i feel nothing, so i manipulated the market and make myself the richest man in the world..., Nope still feel nothing, so then i will search for the love of my life..., Still I don't fell anything, not even the slightest feel. That's how i live my life, wondering what i supposed to do in this stupid, unimpressive, boring land. I invented super crops that can even survive droughts and heavy winter, can be planted in any condition and flourish thus ending the world hunger problem, i invented a multi collider that travel with a subatomic quantum speed that far surpass the speed of light thus making unlimited energy and solve energy crisis.

"I want to die" that's the word i muttered every day for the remaining of my life, i don't want to kill myself, i just want to die. After a long live i finally reach the end of me, achieving anything possible in the world and helping countless people, i should have felt proud of myself but in the end, i still feel nothing. As i release my dying breath, i realize what i want my whole life, a normal life with a loving family, a family that love me and accept my condition, family that care and believe in me. As i fall into endless darkness, i saw a speck of light, they ask "Do you want to reincarnate?" "No" i answered, "Are you sure?" "I don't want to feel nothing again, at least in here, I'm nothing" "So be it" they replied. As i fell deeper and deeper into the abyss, i hear another voice, "It's a boy".

Blinding light shine to my body as i open my eyes, i can see a beautiful woman holding me..., Wait... Holding me? I... Remember this feeling... I... I can think? What... I'm alive... Wait why I'm reincarnated, i clearly said no. Noooo I don't want to live again...