Fuck Off
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A new start and a new beginning.
Life comes at you fast,
choices are forced to be made,
The teenage days are slowly coming to an end.
How we live out the last days.
Determine our stand in adulthood
A new chapter
I don't want to jinx the process.
Enjoy.
Playlist of the chapter: Big red balloon by Alec Wigdahl
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"God I hate the sun". The ray of sunshine focusing it's beam on my eyelid, I pulled myself to the other side of the bed, As the light reflexion pulled me out of my slumber, I crave to go back to back sleep.
My eyes darted towards my wall clock, I over slept, it a good thing school and my WAEC examination days were overended, The time was 10:40, who sleeps for that long, I can and trust me it wasn't enough.
Well I do!.
Pushing my self to standing, fighting the urge to get some more sleep, my phone alarm sound rang out, "God the irritating sound"
Pulling my phone closer to me, I checked the screen, "Why the hell are you ringing" my pulse started rising at the content of my phone screen.
Today was the day the first batch admissions came in, Shutting off the alarm, my eyes peeled up slowly to the laptop on my table.
"Nah, I should bath first get ready for the day before checking" My internally battle began, the indecisive, I was conscious of every sound in the room.
I have to gain admissions, I have to, I did nothing but read all through my days in highschool, I need to award more credit to myself.
The laptop screen was compelling me closer, soon my body rose up on it's on, my mind couldn't wait.
"Deep breaths, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10" I counted to calm my nerves it worked, Peeling my eyes back open, I felt the wave of confidence hit me.
Turning my laptop on, I watched the animation play on my screen,
"Why the hell is it fucking slow?" I banged my hand on the table, that was going to leave a bruise, Leaning back I shut my eyes, focusing on my breaths.
I could feel my heart beating hard against my rib cage, I was nervous, really nervous. Finally opening my eyes, my 'FUCK OFF' wallpaper opened up.
Sighing as I kept on breathing through a space I made parting my lips, I scrolled down to the Google bar, logging into my site on the JAMB Admissions page.
The pressure building, as I clicked on the admissions bar, my knees were crossed as every inch of my body was reacting.
The loading took so long, but I had no choice, the wait was pain, But then the screen appeared all blank white at first. I had to refresh the page.
"Fuck" I only have a little bit of self control left in me before I burst out,
"Please stop playing with my emotions" my pleas were to no one in particular, I was alone in my room, then again I got a black page, I was about to click refresh when suddenly the blue wording started to appear slowly.
"10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0" The page appeared right in front of me and before I could see anything I shut it back.
God you are such a chicken, just fucking open your eyes.
Peeling them open ever bone in my body lit up with excitement as the words
Dear Ariyike Phillips, You have been admitted into Achieve's university, for a full-time scholarship.
I didn't read the rest of the information, that was all my heart could take for now "Yes, Yes Yes, Wait, what course?" I turned back.
", Yes, Yes, yes" I released a breath I had no idea I was holding, Rising up to my feet, I was a little dizzy from the rush of emotions.
The outburst of joy that filled me was too much, I was practically bouncing on my feet as the tears sting at my eyes.
Grabbing my phone as it automatically connect to my MP3 Player, I played the first song my shaky finger could pick.
It was Big red balloon by Alec Wigdahl, Dancing to the tune, singing a little bit too loud.
FYI! I dance like I am having a stroke or a convulsing, I have no dancing skills whatsoever so I would kill my self I'd someone walked in on me right now.
Sliding towards my bathroom, Still moving my body to the beat of the tune, I felt myself drifting from the melody but I was to happy to care.
Stripping out of my clothes, I dumped the pile into my laundry basket, stepping under the shower I have been wetting my hair lately which was very dumb but I don't really care.
I sighed allowing my nerves to calm down from the soothing contact the water made with my skin.
I watched as it slid down ever curve in my body, I was finally breathing normal, Applying my soap on my skin, I washed myself till I felt clean and all the soap lather was gone.
Walking out of the shower, my braids hugged my waist, it's water dripping down my waist, to the tiled floor, as I stared at my self in the mirror.
I wouldn't say I have a perfect body, judging by the scars scattered around my body, the ugly cuts that forever ties me to my past, I would say I am far from perfect.
Buh then I stated working on my body shape at a young age, work outs was a relaxation technique and not to mention I am a red belt karate student.
I have a model worthy body, dark shade of brown eyes, a shard pointed nose, and tinted brown hair that stopped at my shoulders.
I moved my eyes down to my slim hands, the view if my body used to make me depressed and angry, but I now smile at the work I have done to make me proud of the body I have now, and my scars are just proof of the hardship I survived.
Keep telling your self that, one day you would believe.
I had to shut my mind off, I was feeling really confident, today is supposed to be a good day, I won't say I have a drool Worthy package, I have a petite upper body.
And the only feature that might catch a guys attention is either my face which I always hide at any opportunity possible, and my plus sized hips, with made my butt look bigger.
Enough of staring at my body I am tearing up already, pulling my gaze off the mirror, I turned to my cabinet pulling out my facial oitments and body lotion.
After my daily routine, I walked out of my bathroom, and towards my wardrobe, picking out a blue gown. I usually don't were gowns because they don't hide my scars but I was feeling a little body positive today.
Pulling out the blue gown, it was a light shade of blue, it was silk and free from my lower waist down, it had an off shoulders, which would exposed my collarbone and a little cleavage.
Pulling out my strapless bra, I pulled it on clasping it, Putting on the dress, I didn't bother to check how I look, if I did I would change my mind.
Turning of the music, I picked up my phone, things were back to pretty much normal, no texts no calls. It was already 11:47
Wow, I stayed in the shower for a long time.
Walking down the stairs, I heard Anu's voice singing The theme song to SpongeBob, she was watching it on her tablet.
"Spongebob SquarePants"
I finished the melody with her, kissing her forehead, she snuggled against me wrapping her arms around my neck.
"Good morning Love" I smiled taking a whiff of her lavender scented baby body lotion, it was a recommendation I made for her mum on my last visit to the spa.
"Good morning dear" I wiped my head to the kitchens direction, a smile curled up at my lips, " Momma, good morning" I smiled looking up at my step mum.
"Your breakfast is in the microwave, we..." She stopped dead in her tracks, staring down at my outfit, her smile grew farther by a few inches.
That's wasn't supposed to be possible, considering how wide her smile was earlier, "Don't get your hope up I plan on not stepping outside today" I sighed hugging her
"Your wore it, that signifies progress" Pulling out of our embrace, I walked into the kitchen, moving towards the microwave, I brought out my breakfast.
Toast bread Yum!
Setting my phone down on the table, I made myself a cup of coffee, Grabbing my plate of toast and coffee, I walked back to the living room.
"Where is pops, I have News" I Forced out through a mouth filled of toast, my step mum glared at me, stopping halfway through Anu's braids.
"Am sorry" Taking a sip of my coffee, " He went to prepare your birthday gift, he would be back in a few" Staring back at her.
"Wow, now I am fuc... I stopped mic air seriously curious" My step mum flinched at my near curse incident, " What's the big news?" She ignored since I corrected myself.
"Everyone has to be in the room"