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Let's start where my pain began you see I never grew up like a regular kid life was always grey and dark . My head was never a friend only seen as my own enemy I learned that having to grow up at 6 was something that I had to do to survive. Among other things like learning to hide myself away in a dark place where no one could hurt me. But that truly never stopped them because as much as I hid it still rings in my mind like a symphony having to relive those horrific moments in my head and in my dreams. You see everyone's pain is different no one can truly understand what you feel because pain is unique to you the best they can do is feel it half way and even then most of the time they leave. But to fight the urge to find a release and sense of peace ever grows knowing we can never find that which makes us want to enjoy life. Because as you see dear reader having to grow up young destroys you when the time comes that your mental dam breaks it destroys your life and everything you hold dear it's like a beast that keeps pulling you further and further as you try to claw your way to happiness. Suddenly you give in because the strength you have could never match the monster in your head constantly growing in strength and in tongue. They will never understand what it's like to struggle so helplessly to keep your head above the water just to get a gasp of air.