Silent Whisperer

A scorching summer day had passed. I kept myself hydrated at all times even though I stayed inside the house. That morning, I drank all the juice that Julianna made, so she was quite angry at me. Afterwards, James came to visit the house, although he didn't went inside. I saw him from the windows, and he spotted me. He then shouted something, then walked away smiling. I could guess what he said, but wondered why. I shook my head and drank water, since Julianna won't make juice again. When I went inside my room that afternoon to take a nap, I saw a letter, with a jasmine beside it. I grabbed the letter, tossed it beside the old letter she gave to me one , and sat beside my desk. I was thinking how to distance myself to her, so I came up with writing a letter to her. I then grabbed a piece of paper, and wrote what's in my mind.

("Hi, good day. It seems that you have been sending me a few letters these days. Sorry, but I didn't read them because I can guess what's inside those. I know, because you used to send some to Summer, and he used to let me read those. I know that I'm not worthy of those poems, because I'm too dense to appreciate things like these. Let me be straight with you, I don't like you. I didn't, not even once, because I know you loved Summer. You always did, and you will forever. I'm not worthy of your love, because I'm just a dense guy who know nothing but hurting people by telling the truth.

You're just wasting your time on me, so please just forget me. I'm sure there's a better guy for you, and not even a single girl for me. I kind of used to being alone, so not having someone to love me isn't bothering me at all. You can be much happier being with someone else, maybe happier than being with Summer or even me. Sorry, but I always put distances to people, especially to those who liked me. I'm sorry, and besides, if you keep waiting, that special someone will come to you.")

I put the letter inside a black envelop, and asked her brother, Ryan, to put it on her desk or her bed.

Later that night, I laid down at the rooftop, watching the dark sky as usual. The clouds were so dark, I could count the only three visible stars that night. I closed my eyes and wondered, "Is it wrong to deny someone's feelings, especially a girl's? When a girl does it, most boys would accept it and look for another one. But, girls are so strange, I couldn't guess what they were thinking at all. Well, at least that would give me some distance to her now.". I smiled and laughed a bit, then signed and back to being silent. I closed my eyes, and focused on my hearing, to hear even the softest sound. Then I heard a whisper in my left ear, words that were the same as what James said.

"I will be waiting for you then.", she whispered.