Complicated feelings

Valdel was running towards the western gates while having mixed feelings. This was rather unusual for him, for he only had a one-track mind, but something was happening within him that he couldn't quite grasp. He truly did want to help the people of this kingdom despite them being enemies of his own kingdom, but more than that he just wanted to flee from Ren. He tried his hardest not to show it on his face, he tried very hard to act normally, but for a second while he was facing Ren his mask was about to come off. 

He was even happy that the monsters attacked at that timing. When he thought of that feeling he got, he hated himself for it. He felt so ashamed of himself that the first chance he got he fled from the scene. This only made him hate himself even more, as the best friend of Ren he had fled like a coward.