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This is my story. Well I Don't know how to put the words together, but I always get better whenever I write down my feelings. My name is Elizabeth and right now I don't know what Love is, I don't know if am capable of love. Right now I hate myself so much. I have forgotten how much I hate myself. This is my story of how I got into sex addiction, how am dealing with it and how I got over it Sex addiction, goes with other mental health disorders. For many teens struggling with sex addiction, sex is used as an escape from mental, physical, and/or emotional pain. it can result in a teen experiencing increasing feelings of shame, guilt and/or lowered self-esteem. Don't forget to like my chapters and comment

Lois_Fidelis · Teen
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Present Day: Heart break

Elizabeth was a beauty to behold. She grew up to be an attractive young lady. Her skin was Copper-brown, like a windfall autumn leaf. She had smouldering, doe-brown eyes, Her hair was curly-black and it plunged over her shoulders in waves of midnight-black. She had kiss-inspiring lips that were pillow soft and a spell binding, angel-white teeth with a terawatt smile that electrified everyone around her. She had quarter-moon eyebrows and seashell shaped ears with a refined nose. She was curvaceous with a goblet shaped waist.

I can remember vividly the first day I set my eyes on her, I fell in love. My Little baby girl is all grown up. She is so perfect. My angel. I later had other children, two lovely beautiful kids. James and I are really trying our best to Carter for our three kids

"Honey, what are you looking at smiling like that?" James asked with a curious look. Theresa has been looking at her phone with a bizarre smile.

"Well, if you must know..."

"I must."

"I was staring at a picture of our daughter, Elizabeth."

"We all miss her darling."

"I don't!" Rebecca cut in

Rebecca is my second child while Nicklaus is our last and only son.

"Come on, you miss her. Its long you've seen her." Said Klaus trying to make Rebecca admit.

"Well, am sure she is enjoying herself." Said Rebecca rolling her eyes.

"Don't you know school is stressful?" I had to ask her.

"Especially college." Klaus Added

"But Dad sends her cash all the time."

"Oh you think the cash I do send her are enough. I wish I have more to send." Said James with a sad voice.

"Alright Mom, I know she is managing, we all are."

"Yea, that's what we get for being an average black family." Said Klaus

"Well, I believe in God and he will turn things around for our good." Said James with a broad smile on his face.

"Amen." I added

"Since we all miss her, why don't we call her." Said Rebecca. I really miss lizzy, just that I hate admitting it.

"I was about to call her before you guys made me forget." I said while dialing her number.

"Hello baby girl."

"Hi mum." Lizzy said with a low voice.

"What is it darling?, Your voice is very low."

"Am okay." Lizzy said with an assuring voice.

"Speak to your father." I said while giving the phone to James.

"Hi Dad."

"How is school?."

"School is great."

"How are you feeling? Are you okay?."

"Dad am fine."

"Is there anything you need?."

"I'm actually out of cash now."

"Why didn't you say anything?... Alright I will send you something."

"Thanks Dad."

"Your siblings want to speak to you."

"Am not in a good mood now."

"Hmmmm."

"Yea. Am not in a good mood now."

"Is everything okay?."

"I will talk to you later. Right now am not in the mood to talk."

"Ok darling. Take care of yourself." Said James handing the phone to me.

"My love."

"Mum."

"Talk to me."

"Am fine mom."

"Do you have any issue with your roommate?."

"No. We are cool."

"Ok. Make sure you stay away from guys. They are all liers."

"I know mum."

"Alright my love. Take care, Bye."

"Bye Mom."

"Is everything okay with her." Asked Rebecca anxious

"She said she's not in the mood to talk now. I will call her later." I said trying to think what the problem is.

"Why are you always saying that to her mum?." Klaus voiced out.

"What did I say?."

"That all boys are liers." Klaus grinned.

"Is that important?."

"Yes mum. Am a boy."

"Well that's what other mum will say to their daughters, so they can stay away from you." I smiled.

"But am not a lier. Am a good boy, and I can take care of a woman."

"Come on shut up." Rebecca shuned him.

"Hahahaha." James laughed mockingly.

"At your age, thinking of taking care of a woman, when you can't take care of yourself." I said with a smile, trying to hold back the laugh. How much money does he have to take care of a woman. Silly boy. Hahahaha.

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Elizabeth POV

Today is really a sad day. He found out. He was really hurt. I could see the sadness, disappointment and pain in his eyes. I could see how he struggled to hold back his tears. Then all I could think was, what have I done?. He doesn't deserve such betrayal. I hate myself. I really fucked up. I was really sorry but I couldn't say it out. I let him down. I let everyone down with my crazy addiction. Even with his anger, he still advised me and I know he really cared about me. He left my home with shame. He was ashamed of me. I feel guilt and shame now. I tried hard to hold back the tears. The guy I was caught with had to leave when Damien came in. I tried also so my parents wouldn't notice I am heart broken. Though I caused the breakup but it wasn't intentional. It was the addiction. I really love him.

(Phone Rings..)

"Hello..." I said surprised to see he called me.

"Can we talk?." Damien asked in a low voice.

" Yea. Let's chat." I said feeling excited and nervous.

"Ok."

I actually thought he wouldn't want to talk to me ever and he hates me. Let me quickly go online and see what he wants to talk about. Although am scared he may say harsh words to me.

Elizabeth:

Hey Damien

Damien:

Tell me what exactly I did To

deserve all this?.

Elizabeth:

You did nothing.

Damien:

But you still come to me

and act like nothing is

happening.

Elizabeth:

I didn't know how to tell

you. I couldn't tell you how

I don't know how to

control the urge.

And after sex for the

the first time, my sexual

urge increased.

Damien:

Telling me to my face

repeatedly that am the

only one.

Elizabeth:

You were the only one. I

wasn't planning on doing

something like this. Being

away from you was hard

even for a day. The urge

kept coming. That's why I

always beg you to come

see me after a week

apart.

Damien:

Why didn't you end

things so you could be

with someone closer to

you?.

Elizabeth:

I couldn't. I couldn't bear

the pain of losing you.

Damien:

Well now you would.

Elizabeth:

Am sorry.

"Fuuuccckk." I screamed.

I really love him. It's all my fault. I hate myself. The dark part of me. He sees now. The little happy, nice, kind girl, has a dark secret. A wolf in a sheep clothing.

How did I turn out like this?.

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