I want to live!

Stella and Stephanie Evans. A beautiful pair of twin sisters… and their best friend Mark Stephens. They've always hung out together since high school, and Mark and Stella have undeniably been in love with each other. But Stella was a smart, talented girl… who didn't want to get together with the son of a car mechanic in the area, and since she knew that once she said yes to Mark, she could never let him go again… so she relentlessly refused Mark's love..

Stephanie, who was also in love with Mark, took the opportunity to get the man with a broken heart. Thus, the friendship of the three remained.

Stephanie became a music teacher and married Mark after graduating from college. They had a beautiful little girl, Bridgette.

Stella studied to be a lawyer, and during her internship, a famous lawyer, Charles Benett, made a marriage offer to the young lawyer. Although Charles was 15 years older than Stella, he was a great and an extremely attractive man. So Stella happily went to the man, and 1 year after Stephanie, she too gave birth to a little girl, Hayley.

Mrs. Fritz was a karate teacher at the school where my mother worked. They were university friends, and since Mrs. Fritz had a son born just a year earlier, the two friends dreamed that the children would unite the families. She called me "my daughter – in-law" my whole life.

But our happiness did not last long. When Hayley turned 2, Charles died in a plane crash on the way to a business trip. To process the grief, Stella and Hayley moved in with us so my mother could support them.

I was still small at the time… but I have faint memories of the period of time, when Stella fell asleep sobbing every night… at that time Dad moved into a separate room ,and Stella slept by my mother's side for weeks.

When they finally returned to their own lives, my mother suddenly fainted. It turned out that she has a malignant brain tumor… in half a year the disease took her from us. Everything happened so fast that we could barely comprehend it.

I was only 4 years old… I couldn't really handle my mother's loss, so Stella decided to take her place. Over time, her repressed feelings for my father also woke up… and we became a real family.

A happy big family… things worked out well.

Hayley showed an early interest in fashion, the world of runways. At the age of 5, she won her first beauty pageant and from there she was just taken up the road. I have known Steve since I knew my mind and have been in love with him. That's why I've been learning karate since I was 5 years old so I could spend more time with him.

Of course Stella saw my mother in me, and since I was all that was left from her… at all costs she made me follow her footsteps. So I learned to play the piano and sing… because my mother loved music… but I had awful voice but I did what I had to do for 11 long years.

Things went downhill, when I was 17 and suffered a serious head injury during a karate competition. From then on, Stella strated desperately protecting me, with banning me from karate, barely letting me out of the house… slowly strangling me with her love… while completely neglecting Hayley. My sister didn't understand at first why she was getting less care, then 1 year later when she reached the age to recieve her inheritence, everything became clear to her.

"They lived so well with my money… she's not even my sister, yet what do you care about that bitch? I'm your daughter for fuck's sake! "

She yelled. That's when Stella raised her hand for the first time. The 17 years old Hayley, looked at me with a slapped face and red eyes burning with rage… and there, I literally heard her gaze…

"You're gonna regret this!"

From then on, my life became hell.

Hayley stole my friends, her relationship with Stella had deteriorated so much that they were no longer willing to talk with each other. Referring to my passion for karate, I ran away from home and moved in with Mrs. Fritz… because of this, a huge gap broke out between me and my parents, but Stella was forced to deal with Hayley and their relationship, with me getting out the picture was pretty slowly fixed, while their communication was almost decreased to zero.

But it didn't bothered me.

I had Steve… he was the good Christian boy type… he didn't want any physical contact until marriage and I respected his decision. Everything fell into place again… then I was injured again, this time my leg broke … along with my career as an athlete.

And now, at the age of 20, I'm standing in the middle of nowhere. I ruined my family relationships so that at least this stupid bitch wouldn't hurt her mother anymore… this virgin bastard fucked my sister all along… no wonder he didn't want to do it with me anymore, sports as my only true love is no more, in fact I am almost cripple if I count on the giant piece of iron in my leg. For a moment I thought I was going to explode… to grab Hayley's neck and then throw myself in front of a car with her… but then it flashed.

"What a dumb bitch…"

I muttered and then laughed with tears in my eyes…

"Bridgitte … are you okay?"

Mrs. Fritz stepped toward me.

"Hahaha… nothing… haha… nothing wrong…"

I straightened up from the hunched laughter and then headed for the door.

"Ashley died several times, because she insisted on things that could never be hers… and there are so many opportunities in life… I don't need a family, I'm fine alone too! Who needs Steve? There are so many fish in the water - in fact, they are better than him! "

I walked confidently to the exit… to the street… to the sidewalk… I felt my footsteps getting easier as I shake off the chains of the past… that a bright future awaits me.

"Well… my legs aren't the best… but I can still be a judge or whatever… I have relationships, my experiences… I will go, I'll show them, Bridgette Stephens is a survivor!"

I was cheering for myself almost loudly when I heard a crazy ring from behind me.

"Go away, you stupid cunt!"

A woman in her 40s in a bike moved towards me in a fast speed… on the pedestrian sidewalk… almost ran over me, but luckily I jumped away in time.

"Hah… have a nice day too…"

I waved at the crazy woman, and then acknowledged that this little incident wouldn't be able to spoil my mood either.

Unfortunately, I could only get out of the way of the bike in the direction of the road from the sidewalk… so I deftly jumped in front of a truck.

One moment… that was all. One moment I was still breathing, and in the next one, I was standing next to my lifeless body.

"Bridgette!"

Stella and Ms. Fritz rushed from the distance — they watched it…my entire family watched from just a few blocks away — as a truck run over my body.

"What the hell…what the fucking hell?! No… no… This is fucking unfair! Buddha, god, rubber bear ,someone, anyone! I didn't want to die! Now everyone thinks I gave up and threw myself right in front of the truck… Fucking fuck! I do not want to die! I want to live, there are so many things a wanted to do! Can you hear me? I want to live! "

I shouted in panic… but the space around me slowly narrowed and the white light completely blinded me.