1 Dazed

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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Mature contents! Read at your own risk.

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"Let's take a break."

Natigilan siya sa sinabi ng binata. She stand frozen on her feet. His words aren't registering on her mind. Anong break? Tama ba ang narinig niya? Hiniwakan niya ang braso nito..

"What? Why?" she asked, trying to calm herself.

Napatungo ito. "I can't think clearly. I'm still processing everything. My grandpa, my studies and this thing about you and... Hindi ko na alam," he said achingly.

She tried to reach for his hand. "Hindi ba pwedeng kasama mo 'ko while you sort things out?" she responded, hoping it would resonate on him. He sighed, facing down. Her heart sank as he pulled away from her touch.

"It does not work that way, Carol. Litong-lito ako ngayon," he told her, shaking his head.

"Saan?" She looked at him gently.

Alam niya ang pinagdadaanan nito. It doesn't help that what happened a year ago have to resurface. She knows this is not the right time to lash out on him. May kasalanan siya but breaking up is the last thing she wants to hear from him.

"If these feelings are valid. Kung pareho ba tayo ng nararamdaman," mahinang saad nito.

Breathing inwardly, she massage her nose, processing what he said. Now, they're talking about valid feelings? Nanggaling pa talaga sa bibig nito? Hindi siya makapaniwala. She finally snapped.

"Ngayon mo pa pagtatakhan ang nararamdam ko? All those fucking years I spent chasing you? Ano 'yon, joke ko lang? Do you think I'd let go of you?" she exclaimed in disbelief.

"Hindi ang nararamdaman mo," he muttered. Nabalot muli sila ng katahimikan. Pinilit niyang intindihin ang punto nito. Hinanap niya ang mga mata ng binata.

"What do you mean?" She looked at him, confused.

"I realized everything was too soon. I'm not sure anymore," mahinang sambit nito.

She scoffed at him. "Are you really going to break up with me?"

Please take it back, a small voice in her head begged.

"This is for the both of us," he replied but it only made her angry.

"Fuck that! Your fucking excuses. Sabihin mo kung di mo 'ko mahal! Stop fucking with my emotions. Nauubos din ako, putangina naman, Vico!" she screamed in much frustration. Tears pouring down her face.

He held her shoulders, trying to calm her down but she can't. "Please, ayusin muna natin ang isa't isa nang di magkasama," he said as if all of these were nothing to him.

He started walking away, leaving her, breaking his promises.

"Kung aalis ka ngayon, I swear to god, I won't be the one who will beg."

Hoping that he would just take back what he said. If he could just say he's not in his right mind then she will welcome him with open arms. He can make another excuse and she won't bat an eye. But instead he didn't. Nagpatuloy lang itong lumayo. Then, he was gone and she's left alone, crying in the same place she where it all started.

The sun sets as the love she always yearned for ended.