14 My Childhood Trauma...

"My lady we have prepared your study, you won't bore yourself anymore!"

"Rose..."

"yes?" she asked smiling brightly, I sighed and looked at her tired, "don't ever try to give me another book like that ever again," I reprimanded her, she flinched and nodded, "I'm very sorry miss!"

I believe many of you are curious as to why my father would blow this mansion up and kill all the people here even though he's the cold chancellor of Reandra. Well, I'll try to reminisce as much as I can. It's quite funny when I look back on it. I smiled and remembered all that happened 9 years ago.

Louise, Age 6 ~

"Father, why is it that you called?" I asked, I curtsied and looked up making eye contact with his red hues, he looked back down at his papers and finished with his documents.

"Louise, I get that you're trying to help but try not to act so childishly next time. What I do is serious, this isn't a game like a chessboard you play."

"Father, I understand that you're worried about me meddling in your work, but I only helped since I thought you wouldn't be able to control the situation, the fact that you even allowed me to take over means that you had a reason for this," I replied, he glared at me, his silky hair was parted in between his forehead and the strands on his forehead was almost visible from a distance, I stood confidently in front of him.

[How do I tell her I'm proud of her? Hm...] <--- Extremely logical (just tell her what you just thought..)

"You."

"yes, father?"

"I want you to join me next time I go to a meeting."

[He must be trying to tell me to learn faster. Fine, I really can't understand this man. Sigh I'll at least ask why.] I pondered bewildered by his request and nodded, "Father, I would agree but wouldn't you be too busy to babysit me?"

"If you do not wish to go just say so," he said while fumbling through papers and documents he didn't even look at me once, I sighed, "yes father, I will go with you to your next meeting," I stated, I curtsied and headed out. [I thought he was going to kill me for a second. that was extremely scary, I'm never doing that again! he really makes someone want to choke themselves in there it was so tense.]

Meanwhile with the duke ~

[Hm. Alisa never prepared me for anything like this. I might have to ask someone else how to raise children successfully. ] <--- Extremely Determined

"My lady, What would you like to wear?"

[this is the first time she's asked me what I want to wear...Okay! LET'S DO THIS!]

"I..." I looked around at all the dresses the maids brought and Adelaide watched carefully as she gulped nervously, I smirked and said, "Want you to choose for me cause I don't know."

The Maids' Faces became dull as if saying: Why didn't you say that before?!

I giggled a bit and Adelaide dressed me into a nice simple dress with not many jewels around it, or on it. I told her that I would let her choose but that jewels were not allowed. but all of them had jewels, [Geez. Louise, you've been such a haughty and greedy girl.] I scowled, Adelaide fixed my hair and prepared everything for father's meeting in the afternoon.

[I'm kind of nervous. This tiny body makes it quite difficult to actually even feel all confident. I wonder how Louise does it.] I trembled a bit and cleared my throat and held my breath until I entered my father's study.

"I'm ready, Father." I said, and he just stared at me without a word, he closed his eyes and sighed, "That's good enough, You look nice," He said, His expression didn't say the same. [seriously...If you're going to say someone is pretty you might as well say it instead of beating around the bush..]

I sulked a bit as I walked behind my father in the hall as we approached the mansion doors, as we went out there were 5 knights in total guarding the carriage. [uh what is going on?]

"I've decided that it would be safer if we traveled like this, also so no one gets in or out."

[Does he think I would be able to run away inside a carriage?! You strange man, you amaze me every day.] I sighed and smiled brightly, "I see! Thanks, father!"

[Please don't kill me! Please don't kill me! Please don't kill me! Let me live here peacefully!]

"Alright, Let's go." He stated indifferently, Louise looked at him baffled and angrily, she sighed not being able to decipher what that man in front of her, [She seems happy about this idea. I did so that she could feel safer around me.] <--- Definitely not it. Nope.

As we arrived, Father walked out first and stretched out his hand as if helping me get down, [I know I'm small but still, I'm older than they think...Mentally of course.]

"We'll be meeting up with the Count."

"Oh, do you mean the count we met at the meeting a few weeks ago?" (refer to chapter

He nodded and kept walking towards the luxurious palace gates, the color was nice and simple made of ceramic and stone, the gates of iron, and the towers had a nice color on the roofs, I stared in awe at the palace, it's been a long time since I've last been here.

"Your Excellency, His Majesty and the count are waiting for you," A knight in armor said, He looked down at me and smiled warmly waving at me, I smiled back and waved.

[I wonder if Louise will feel comfortable here..]

"Louise! How have you been?" The Emperor asked charismatically, he's still as handsome as ever I see, sigh. "Greetings to the Empire's Sun." I bow and lift the left side of my dress as a courtesy.

"Hey, Ezekiel, Why don't you let me have your daughter? She's so cute!~"

Father glared at the Emperor as he still smiled brightly at this child, Louise, I twitched and glanced over at father, [I think he's more likable and passable than you are, I might as well leave you now.] I thought as I looked at him, he scowled at the Emperor and he turned quickly only to find Father's irritated face.

[I don't want to be part of the Royal Family, that would be too much...] I pondered, I then waltzed over to a chair where it was just too high to reach, so I snapped my fingers and Adelaide carried me up to my seat diligently. I thankes her and I could now meet everyone eye to eye.

I clasped my fingers and started to take business, Father started to cover his mouth and hide his face, I tilted my face confused, while the Emperor gushed over how cute I was in this posture.

[What? Did I do something wrong?]

The count sat on the right side of the long table and couldn't hold in his laughter.

"Hm? What's wrong?"

"Lady Louise, Please refrain from making those gestures...I-It really gives off the wrong atmosphere..!" He kept laughing until tears came running down their cheeks because of the laughter. [So are we starting the meeting or not? I guess it would be kind of funny...If I picture a 5-year-old doing that with a serious face- oh. Hahahaha~]

"R-Right. Ahem, we still need to solve the issue with Ferissia, as I stated in the last meeting I'll go personally, I'll have to change my appearance, but I believe it'll work."

"What do you plan on changing in the plan then?"

"The Execution part will be quite tricky."

"I agree, I'll bring a few knights with me and 2-3 mages, if all of them leave at once it will arise suspicions within the Empire and kingdoms. We need to be stealthy and secretive about this." I said with a serious expression, Father coughed again and covered his face. [Is he okay?]

"Pft..!"

[Grr! What are you laughing at?!] I yelled, [I might just be THAT cute, is that it? Do I need to make myself uglier for them or something?]