Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Katie -

She laid below me, grinning.

'Why do I know it's a dream?'

Dani: 'It's a freak occurrence usually. Some people are more advanced than others. Could be any number of things.'

'But, you're so you....'

Dani: 'I am completely me. I likely won't even notice unless you press something I have subconscious walls up against, though. It's likely the blood is intensifying our bond.'

'So you're, sort of, actually, here?'

Dani: 'Well, it's a dream, but you've got a connection to me so yes. Usually it would just be your mind's creation of whoever you were dreaming about but I'm here as much as you are I guess. It's really rare, actually. I'm proud.'

She looked up, and cupped my cheek as I rubbed my face into her palm.

'So I get to be how I want? No getting locked up or yelled at?'

Dani: 'If you push about the wrong thing enough, I'll know.'

'I don't understand...'

Dani: 'Say I don't want to talk about something and I tell you that. You try to get me to talk about it anyways, and since we're in your dream there's a chance you could break me down, but I would realize it. I would become aware of what was happening, and probably do something rather traumatizing. You can tap my mind and not interrupt me, but when you had that first dream, I could smell you, I could feel you, and there was something else, I guess we now know what that was. Think of it like sneaking around without tripping a security system.'

'But I can, not have to be a certain way and still get to feel what it's like to be going through it all with you?'

Dani: 'That's right, it's your dream. So what would you like to do pretty girl?'

She pulled me down and connected our lips.

Her hands slid to my bare breasts and she began massaging them.

I grabbed her hands and pinned them beside her head.

Dani: 'Oh really now?'

So many things I wanted to do.

So many things I wanted her to do.

So many questions I wanted answered.

I couldn't help it.

I forced my lips against hers and tears started to fall.

She wiggled her head away from mine.

Dani: 'Tears? You get to do whatever you want, and you cry?'

'Why do you fucking hate me so much? What did I do? How can I fix it? Just tell me!'

I released her hands and fell on top of her, sobbing.

She wrapped her arms around me and rolled so we were both on our side.

Dani: 'No no no pretty girl! No tears! I could never hate you! What's wrong?'

Her fingers quickly brushed through my hair and I just squeezed her tighter.

Dani: 'If you don't calm down you're going to wake me up. I don't like you being upset, or sad, or hurt. Not unless I cause it.'

'Then why? Why do you insist on acting like me being around is such a burden? The second you act like you're doing any more than just tolerating me, you pull away and make me feel like shit again.'

I sobbed harder and louder.

She rolled slowly on top of me and started kissing me, causing a calm to wash over me.

Dani: 'If you don't calm down I'm going to wake up. I won't want to, but I'll be a real bitch.'

'Why would you even tell me that? Why wouldn't you wake up, and just put me somewhere?'

Dani: 'I am on your side when we're here, it's your dream. I'm actually vulnerable.'

'Then answer me! What the hell have I done? Why do you push me away the second we get closer to each other?'

She rolled back beside me and held my face, then gently rested her forehead on mine.

Dani: 'I can't really answer that. Sure I have my mood swings and I'm proud to admit I'm a boss ass bitch. There's more but I can only tell you that I don't like it. There's things I'm not OK with you knowing. I love when you push to be closer, because I can act like it's just for you. I would never let you cuddle with me if I didn't want it. Right now, I'm probably wrapped around you tight. Holding you so close, your heartbeat vibrates my body. With my face tucked securely into your neck, so I breath in your scent every time I inhale.'

She pressed her lips to mine.

'I don't understand.'

Dani: 'There's a lot I don't want you to know, but I like being near you, I like being close. There's something about you I can't quite explain and likely wouldn't if I could. There's some things I don't even understand yet. Whenever you call me out saying I like it when we're close, and things like that I have to speak up. I can't let myself show that I like it.'

'So if I keep doing what I want but don't make any comments, and don't point out that you let me, or make it so you can complain but not admit you like it....'

Dani: 'You're making us both happy.'

'Why does it have to be so complicated? Why can't you just explain things?'

Dani: 'Life isn't that simple when we're awake, but if you play it right, I don't have to be as mean. I still will, I have a temper.'

'I don't really understand.'

Dani: 'I know and I'm sorry but we have now, we can do the things we can't when we're awake.'

Her hands traveled to my ass and she squeezed as she started to kiss me.

'You kiss me when we're awake.'

Dani: 'Not the way I want to, and there's a lot more than kissing...'

She leaned in again but I stopped her.

'No. Kissing is OK, but I don't want to just tease myself. Not with that, anyways.'

I laid my head on her chest, and she started lightly scratching my back as we rocked back and forth.

Some time later I realized I was waking.

Dani: 'I hope you remember what I said, pretty girl.'

I felt her slowly lift my face and press her lips to mine.

We were warm, as close as I could imagine.

One arm wrapped around me and a hand tucked into my shorts by my hip that I was laying on.

Our legs were tangled with each other, and I felt my hair move just a bit, with every breath she took.

I just laid still, playing the dream over in my head.

Hoping to savor the moment as reality.

She sighed quietly, and I could swear I felt a small smile form against my neck.