That Degrading Slur
Vira.
That degrading word.
That is the only word that I hear everyday when I come to this forsaken place. It always be whispered when I am near. When I am seen. At the gates. In the cafeteria. In the classroom. In the library. Everywhere, when I am here.
There is that irksome action also...
The disgusted stares... and the whispers.
As if, I am horrible to look at. A walking unclean, horrid, smelly monster that just come here everyday from a pile in a garbage dump that is disgusting than any area in it.
Am I really that ugly?
Am I really that troublesome?
I did nothing to you.
So why do you look at me like that?
That is always the question that rises in my heart when I enter this school every morning. Always. That is because once I come to the gates...the stares and cursing under breaths starts. Always.
Today is just another day for me. Always.
I walk calmly to my first period class, having an uncaring look on my face and walking falsely without a care yet a false confident air about myself. Again. Everytime. Everyday. Irksome degrading day.
"Is he that Vira?"
"Disgusting!"
"He acts like he own the place!"
"I wish he does not come to school."
"I hope he die at a ditch somewhere."
"Just disappear already, Stupid Virus."
The whispers and cursing countinues.
I walk in front of the classroom door, take a deep breath, and open it with an false uncaring attitude.
The talking stops and the students glare at me. I walk to my seat, pull out my chair and sat down.
The silence countinues.
The silence makes me unbearably. So, as always, I lower my head down on the desk and make a barrier. Pretending to sleep.
Three minutes past.
...
Talking resumes.
"When will the principal kick him out?"
"I don't think he will."
"Aaaww.."
"Why?"
"Because he didn't do anything.."
"Why wouldn't he?"
".... because he is a goody- two -shoes..."
"Naaah, he probably does things in the background, you know, in the slums."
"Nooo, in the Corrupted Lands?!"
"Where all the demons are...more Vira."
"That is another name for him.."
"What?"
"Demon."
*Scorning laughter*
*giggles*
"Cursed."
The laughter becomes louder as they come up with more names.
Great.
Keep laughing.
I might disappear.
Someday when I feel like it.
"Settle down, settle down, class starts, take your seats."
*Shifting of chairs*
"Not again..he's sleeping."
The teacher walk to me and hit me on the head with a book.
I pretend to wake up and yawn.
"If you have time to sleep last night, you wouldn't be tired! Stay up for class!"
He left with a fuming mumble and stand at the board, writing the agenda for today and tomorrow.
"Hears an idea."
"What?"
Oh stop. Just stop.
Two girls in the two seats up in the middle of the classroom is whispering.
What now? More crap to spill?
"Wonder why he always sleep in class?"
"No. Why?"
Then she leans forward and whispered to her friend.
Her friend covered her mouth and in shock.
"Are you sure? That is your idea right?"
"He is a Vira, isn't he? So he might have tendency's right? Never know unless somebody catch him in the act."
....
What? What does she mean?
....
No. Is she talking about something dirty?
The girl smiles wickedly.
The girl leans forward and whispers to her friend. Her friend eyes widen and giggles. She glance at me and quickly looks back to her friend.
"He is listening."
The girl scoffed and wave her hand like it's nothing.
"Let him hear! He can't do anything because he acts like a Sunny Student. I know it'll work."
....
What is she planning?
....
Is she doing something unnecessary? Something that will get me in trouble?
She knows my weakness.
....
I need to be prepared for it so I won't get expelled from school.
Or..
I end up disappointing my parents.
....
And my relationship with my little brother worsens.
....
"Hehehe...."
Right...
There is never a relationship to begin with.
Never had.
....
I don't think my little brother will look at me as a brother.
He'll always look at me as....
....
A Vira.