Gains

I can't resist or accept

My food chuckles in my head

Pushing heels and palms to grab the want

I know I will regret

But then the regret of present ties harder than future

I can't resist or accept

A situation as the jinx

Falls down to a mix

I won't I said but did

I shouldn't I pleased but flied

I hate I said but craved

The overloaded pizza

The creamy milkshake

Burning cokes

Calm cakes

And the almost melted icecreams

NO NO NO

-There happens a snap of dreams

Converging as reality

I gulped all of it

And again "just a bit"

My stand feels a jiggle on my thighs

My walk feels a shiver in the arms

My reflection feels a grown cheek

My touch feels a softer body

My belly feels like a bursting balloon

My brain squeezes to a regret

My heart broke with the pain

I sat down the road "I am living in my nightmares"

I will be the one I never wanted to

I hate myself for it

I sniffled, I cried, louder and louder

I am a failure I pointed

Huh? For intaking your happiness?

Huh? For fulfilling your desires?

No more motivation..

No more inspiration..

Time struck but my mind didn't

I am still the same soul crying for the same old