466 Yamamura Miki's Monologue

I REALIZED THAT I was alone.

It wasn't that anyone particularly disliked me.

I just didn't catch anyone's eye.

I was inconspicuous, lacking presence.

Before anyone could like me, they couldn't even hate me.

That was why I was always alone.

It was the same in kindergarten, elementary school, and junior high.

I didn't have any friends, and I spent a lot of time by myself.

I couldn't develop the ability to talk to people, so I remained invisible.

Even after becoming a high school student, nothing changed.

But I thought that was okay.

I forced myself to believe that it was my strength… 

I thought it would be okay to live quietly alone even as an adult.

Even so, I am certainly here.

"...After all... I don't think losing suits Sakayanagi-san..."

"Why don't you try telling her? No one has the right to criticize your actions."

What is this sensation, this emotion that is seeping into my heart?

I didn't know.

I just didn't know.

—Until this day.

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