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I have lost interest in everything. I didn't feel like doing anything for that day . If only I didn't run into him today or rather if I didn't sight him today, my day was going perfectly before he intruded just the way he invaded my heart the first time. It's not because I didn't like it :after all I willingly allowed him in. It was as if we were made for each other as we chat about nothing and every thing that day .

When I saw him today, he was looking more handsome than the first time I met him. I secretly admired how the white shirt he wore was fitted into his broaded chest. When he smiled at that lady, it was as if my entire world stopped. It was a bitter - sweet experience for me as I hid behind the shelves watching the two chat .It was bitter because I realized he may not even know that I existed. How I wish those smiles were for me? It was sweet because those smiles made him look so cute. I had to quietly sneak out of the mall. I didn't want him to notice me. Anyway what was the point? He might not have recognized me. Well I felt it was better he didn't see me to avoid further embarrassment. In moments like that, I could have acted like a tongue - tied fellow. I made my way out and quietly stroll down the street. I wanted to have a bit of time with myself about the scene that happened at the mall. I have lost interest in shopping so I decided to walk back home. I didn't want to take a taxi. I made my way down the road and interacted with almost every thing I saw along. The birds, the trees and buildings were a good company as I hove around my thoughts . I don't intend to bore you with my presence But hey, Perdon my manners for not introducing myself. My name is Osima, and I am an hopeless romantic. Haha, how ridiculous I sound. Okay, I know I tried to deny my feelings all this time but after seeing him today, I must admit that I have fallen helplessly in love with this guy.

It was a love at first sight. Seeing him today was different from the last time at the park. He looked real just as the first time. Sometimes I feel our meeting was my thoughts after all, his back view did not look so much like him.

He has been in my heart ever since I met him. I will say it was love at first sight. Yeahhh, I know I sound crazy right?? , I guess I am crazily in love: if there was anything like that, it would be my case . If only the feeling was mutual. I mean am here dreaming of a life with him while he was there enjoying his life with some other girls. The girl I saw him with today was different from the one I saw him at the park with . Who knows, he could be a play boy that knows how to sweep girls off their feet and I may just be one of his victims . The more I think about the situation, the more confused I became. Why can't I just move on? I feel so stupid taking the time I spent with him seriously: but what if I was wrong? What if he does care to want to meet me again? "Oh come on Osima, open your eyes. That guy doesn't care. If he does, he won't be having such a good time with that girl". Thinking about how the two were smiling and gazing at each other sends a strain signal to my heart.

"seriously, that smile seemed out of cousey could I have been wrong?" I thought of the possibility.

My stupid heart, if only I have waited a little more I could have verified the relationship between the two of them. Maybe if I did, my heart would not keep hoping to meet.

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Soon I could see my house in a short distance away. I never knew I have come that far. I have been with my thoughts and chatting with everything I saw on my way, that I didn't realize how far I walked. I should probably call Ela and tell her about running into him today at the mall.

My leg is acheing and I did not feel like doing anything else than taken a nap. After opening the door I lay down on the couch without going into the room but before I could rest my eyes, my phone rang.

"Ela," I picked up the call.

"hey, how are you doing?" Her voice sounded as lively as always. I was suddenly in no mood to mention my encounter that morning. I could not sound like a bitter old woman.

"I am doing great, can you help me get the dog feed when bringing Jojo? I asked her. I had wanted to buy it from the shop before the incident but I didn't dare to mention it to Ela.