7 TAKING HER HOME (2)
Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity
Scared of my own ceiling, scared I'll die of uncertainty
Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety
Don't know what's inside of me
Don't forget about me
Don't forget about me
Even when I doubt you
I'm no good without you, no
Don't forget about me
Don't forget about me
Even when I doubt you
I'm no good without you, no, no, no, no
.........
BRAKKKKK!!!
Spontaneously, Wina slammed the table in front of her loudly and glared furiously at the old lady who seems so calm and relaxed like nothing happened. Even after she spat out all the harsh accusations and brutal judgments that she just said before. One by one, her rude words stabbed her heart like an arrow. Her false judgments hurt Wina's ego and pride who was raised by her father with the concept of diverse equality for all kinds of humans. Apart from their economic status, wealth, race, etc. So, her accusing words are totally unacceptable to her. From the first day she was born until today, Wina has always been told to be well-behaved and respectful towards others. But, this time, she can't stand it anymore.
This is an insult to her!!
"Ma'am, please mind your words…"
Wina warned her with gritted teeth. Holding her wrath deep inside.
"So, what do you mean is…"
"Am I a freaking gold digger??!!"
"The reason why I'm in a relationship with Johan is that he's a filthy rich boy and comes from a prominent family, right?" Wina snorted harshly in a sarcastic tone as she leaned closer to this unknown, arrogant old woman. Wina herself knows that she must behave well and maintain her attitude in front of senior people because that's what her father had taught her but the shameless words and vile slander from this old lady, has made her blood boil with anger!! What an asshole!!
If only she knew that Wina had never taken the slightest chance of taking any advantage during her relationship with Johan. Even for the meal in the canteen, the two of them always take a turn to pay the bills. As a male, Johan always insists on treating her, but Wina, with her stubbornness, insisted to keep paying for the meal with her pocket money. She knows well who Johan is but she never uses him for her advantage even though she knew that Johan could afford it. So, when this old lady threw the false accusations upon her, it made her furious!!
"For your information, I never use Johan's money to pay for our meals or buy things for my personal gain even though your son often offered me to use his belongings or lend me the money from his pocket…"
"I know that our family is not as rich as your family, but it doesn't mean you have the right to accuse and judge us as you pleased!!" Wina snapped at her fiercely with rage in her eyes. Hoping that she would get her point.
The bodyguards who stay in the same room on the left and right started to move forward and prepare to restrain the young girl but then, Mama Sharren raised her hand in the air and glared at them. Signed them to stop and hold them to move further.
"It's fine…"
"I understand…"
She smiled once again but, the smile didn't reach her eyes.
"So, if I ask you to end up your relationship with my son, it won't be a big deal, right?"
Wina remains quiet but her eyes told the opposite. The rage and her wrath still linger in there. During her relationship with the old lady's son, she never takes any benefits and advantage of Johan's status or wealth, but her feelings for him are sincerely genuine and honest. Johan is her boyfriend and at the same time, he is also her first love. Losing the love of her life in this way, she would never expect it. She's utterly annoyed with this old lady's misbehavior but she also got her point. The gap between her and Johan's family was way too big and far. Compare with Johan's family wealth and status, she was nothing. From a furious glare, the stare in her eyes turned into doubt in a short time.
"Why?"
"Can't you do it?"
The old lady asked her emphatically but inwardly, she knows that Wina has taken her bait. Now, it just a matter of time until she set all things properly and each piece would fall to its place.
"Let me tell you? As the sole heir to our family business, there are lots of big plans that we have prepared for him ahead. My job is to prepare him so that once his father retired, he would come forward and claim the throne. So, I won't let anything stand in his way, not even a stupid romance like this, can hinder all the preparations and aspirations that we have prepared for him. Do you understand?"
Wina remained silent and directly stared at the old lady bravely. Soon, the flash of sweet memories that she and Johan have been through rushed inside her head. Even though they both come from different backgrounds like earth and sky, they never find any troubles or difficulties when they were together. All that Wina could remember were…
The memorable stories and laughs that they treasured together.
Letting go of her love would be the same as burning her half soul.
And, she doesn't want it. Because her love for him is fucking real.
"What would happen if I still want to continue this relationship, Ma'am?" Wina asked the old lady back with determination in her eyes.
"Then I have to use another way to negotiate with you…"
"I'm sure paying you a sum of money will never work, so how about this?"
The woman took out an envelope from her bag and handed it over to Wina. The girl opened it and she gasped when she saw a photo of hers and her father laughing and having dinner together at a Korean restaurant. Wina's parents divorced a long time ago when she was a child before. Now, she lives alone with her father in their tiny house, and apparently, her father also works in Alvaro Corp. as a regular dayworker.
"Your father's name is Donny Andrea, isn't it? He currently works as a production manager in one of our retail branches. He's the main provider in your family, I know this for sure. With the mediocre salary that he has got from us, paying for your bills and, tuition fee also. Can you imagine how he would feel if he suddenly lost his job?"
"Because of his daughter's stubbornness to end up a relationship that she shouldn't ever start from the beginning?"
"Hmm…?"
It was Mama Sharren's turn to lean over with a wicked smile on her face. When she saw the old lady's smile, Wina felt as if a beheading knife had been placed under her chin. Ready to cut off her head at any moment.
Two clear tears escape from her eyes.
Johan…
She whispered his name sadly.
But she wasn't in a good position to win this one-sided unfair negotiation.
After a while, Vienna waved the white flag. She is giving up because she has to. For her father's sake. Seeing her father's sad face because of losing his job and all that because of her selfishness, was unbearable for Wina. She would do anything to make her dad happy after her mom left them both.
"Okay, Ma'am. If that's what you really want…"
A smug smile of triumph appeared on the old lady's face. She had sealed the deal.
Leisurely, she shuffled and stood up elegantly as her eyes keep watching the poor girl in front of her like a beast that watching its prey.
"I'm expecting good news from you as soon as possible..."
Then, she turned away and let her driver close the door.
Wina could hear the sliding door behind her closing slowly along with her sobs and tears running down her face. Her heart howled in pain without an antidote.
In the end, Mama Sharren managed to get what she wanted.
Johan and Wina finally ended their relationship as a couple.
..........
Now, fate has brought her back to meet her old enemy.
"Mom, I would like to introduce you with her. This is…"
"Maya Lareina…"
Mama Sharren turned her head and her old pair of eyes caught a figure of beautiful girl that Johan was holding now. A smile appeared on her lips.
"Finally…"
.......
Gnawing on the bishops, claw our way up their system
Repeating simple phrases, someone holy insisted
I want the markings made on my skin
To mean something to me again
Hope you haven't left without me
Hope you haven't left without me, please
Don't forget about me
Don't forget about me
Even when I doubt you
I'm no good without you, no
(Doubt – Twenty One Pilots)