1 The Perfect Family

"Never let the evil around you overcome the good inside you". I remember my dad saying that repeatedly when I was growing up. I doubted to ever know what he meant by it. I always thought he was going crazy because my mother. My mother was always about drinking her whiskey, day in and day out. Oddly, when he said that to me, my mother would have this stern seriousness in her voice and she always cut him off by saying "Don't listen to that bullshit honey, we all die the same." My dad just rolled his eyes. I am still not able to shake that moment till this day. Growing up with her toxicity was hell for everyone. She was probably my worst influence. Nothing was ever good enough for her. I was never enough for her. She was the type of woman that guys crawled after, and she loved the attention. Her beautiful golden hair and crooked smile. she was captivating to most men. She definitely never cared about the fact she was married to my father for twelve years. I like to think they were happy at the most part. My dad stopped caring after the first two affairs with his two best friends. But he never understood why most of her affairs were with married men. Its like she tortured him for the fun. She never hid it. Never denied it. Its was a game to her. How was that suppose to be example of a healthy marriage? She was sadistic and manipulative. I hated her. I hate her. I hated her actions and her decisions. I hated my own mother for the pain she gladly inflicted on our family.