64 : Who’s to blame ? { TW : Self-harm, Trauma…}

Thomas was sitting at one of the dinner table of this private restaurant, while Grandpa Priest was sitting across him, head down and sighing.

" - I can't tell you…" Grandpa Priest repeated.

" - This is tiring," Thomas said. " I come here almost every day for the past two months. I have enough proof to put your family in jail. I know you're the one behind my parents' death ! Your son and your daughter in law were seen on the scene. Your phone number was the last call my own father made before he died ! You know something so please, tell me !"

" - Thomas… Son… some truths must be buried forever. It's not only to protect you but also to protect London. I didn't know you were their son… If I had knew, I would never let you married London and…"

" - I just want to know the truth… Do you know what it is to live without a family ? They were all I had, but you… the Priest took them away from me." Thomas said with a weak voice.

Grandpa couldn't answer cause his phone rang. He took the call when he saw his grandchild name, London's sister.

[ - Grandpa ! Can you tell Barney he need to come home now ?! I tried to join him but he didn't answer. ]

" - I told you I'm not home. I have an important meeting tonight.

[ - I know ! Barney told me you asked him to join you.]

Grandpa Priest went suddenly silent.

[ - And it's been almost twenty minutes since I tried to call him but it goes directly on the voicemail.]

Grandpa hung up hastily and looked at Thomas desperately.

" - Where is London ? Is he at your house ?"

" - I don't know. Why are you asking me that ?"

" - Tries to call him ! Hurry up !!!" Grandpa shouted.

Thomas stayed unfazed but nevertheless he obeyed.

To his surprised, London didn't take his call. Yet the man was always answering his calls even though they were not in a good relationship right now.

" - He's not answering ?!" Grandpa started to panic. " You have to go ! You have to find him !!! Right now !!!"

He was about to faint. Thomas worriedly rushed to his side and helped him sit down. Grandpa was breathing with difficulty and he was agitated.

" - Please calm down and tell me what is happening ? " Thomas asked, troubled.

" - Barney… is probably at your house right now. He's going to hurt London !" Grandpa explained with a trembling voice. " It's because of him that your parents died."

Thomas' eyes widened.

" - What… what do you mean ?" He asked, his mouth dry.

" - That night, Barney drugged London to assault him. But… my… my poor grandchild managed to run away from this monster. London was only eighteen at that time. He drove with the drug running inside his blood, he didn't see the car which your father was driving. They both collided. London was almost dying, but your mother, even though she was stuck on the car, asked her husband to save the child. "

Thomas sat on the floor, tears falling silently on his cheeks.

" - London was able to give my number and your father call me then 911. Unfortunately, London's mother replied to the phone. So my son and her went on the scene. They tried to bribe your father. But they fought instead and London's mother pushed him to hard and he had a bad fall. London tried to stop them but my son pressured him to shut his mouth. "

Thomas could see all the scene in front of his eyes as if he was there.

" - They put your father back in the car. Your mother was already unconscious because of the loss of blood. My son, his wife and London escaped before the ambulance arrived but your parents' car was leaking gasoline. The vehicle exploded and… you already know the rest of the story. "

" - What… what about London ?" Thomas asked in a trembling voice.

" - After the shock he lost his memory and no one talked about it. He doesn't remember being drug by Barney and he doesn't remember the accident. We never tried to help him to recover his memory because… London… he is so frail. He might do something stupid if he knew the truth." Grandpa explained.

" - Why didn't you throw this Barney in jail after knowing the truth !?"

" - I tried ! I tried ! But London's blood test disappeared from the hospital and the footage of the road also disappeared ! The only way for me to have Barney was to question London but… the child almost got rape and had an accident ! Will you be able to hurt him again ?!? "

Thomas didn't answer. Though he was cold with London, he never hate him. London was a caring and gentle man. He was weak too. Thomas knew it to well. London never put a fight against him and never threw a fit. London was just…

Thomas sighed heavily.

" - I know you are angry with us ! I promise to tell you more but please, help London ! Now !"

Thomas suddenly remembered what Grandpa just told him about Barney. He immediately left the room while calling a friend he knows in the police.

He gave his address and prayed that he was not late.

***

London opened his eyelids with difficulty. His eyes struggled but eventually adapted to the white light.

He could recognize the familiar odor of sanitizer and medical supplies. He was in the hospital. In the past, he would sometimes end up in the hospital after he drank too much or because he fought with some pervert in a bar.

London looked around a bit. He had an oxygen mask on his face and infusions on his arms.

" - You're already up !" exclaimed the nurse who was just next to him, surprising the poor man. " I'll call the doctor !"

London tried to sat down. For some reasons, he felt more empty than hurt. He succeeded to stand up and walked towards the table where his stuffs were gathered. Someone had been there. There were slices of apple on a plate, a cutter covered with apple juice, some magazines and a dark blazer on the single couch.

His ribs and his belly were hurting the hell out of him. He was about to reach the table when he felt something hot on his stomach.

He stopped and lifted his robe. They operated his stomach. He was bleeding a bit because he forced himself to move.

He decided to go back to his bed when the doctor entered the room with the shocked nurse.

" - What are you doing !?! " she whispered-yell.

She helped him get back on the bed.

" - Please be careful. The surgery is still fresh. Last night was rough for you. Your husband came this morning. He… "

" - My husband ?!!" London questioned, afraid that they were confusing Barney for his husband.

" - Yes. Mr Faith. Thomas Faith," the nurse said.

London didn't know how to react.

" - We briefed him about everything. You have three broken ribs, and one of your arm was dislocated in the shock. Your lung was pierce and you lost a huge amount of blood. The operation was a success. But you need to be really careful for the time being. Fortunately for you the driver of the car stopped as soon as he felt the impact. "

" - What… about my stomach ? I feel a bit weird…" London asked still feeling empty.

The Doctor and the nurse exchanged a look.

" - You… you probably didn't know but you were pregnant. "

London took a time before he understood. Finally he laughed as if the doctor said the most funny joke he had heard.

" - It's impossible ! I'm a male alpha ! " he said still laughing.

" - You… developed a womb from doing it… too much with a dominant alpha. Since the beginning you were a submissive alpha and a weak one. Weak submissive alpha tend to became beta with the time or in rare case for men, they can get pregnant if their partner is a dominant alpha or an extreme one. "

London swallowed hard his saliva. He started to tremble and put his hand on his belly.

" - But… it's been a while since I had…."

" - You were pregnant of eight month already."

London couldn't breath anymore. How could he not know about it ? Eight months ! But he didn't have a round tummy, he didn't have bad morning sickness like Gordon ! He could eat almost everything… There were no sign of him being pregnant.

" - It's a case of full pregnancy denial. The baby was pretty small for his age and he was… "

" - Where is he ?!" London asked as he stood up. " Where is my baby ???"

" - Please calm down a second." The doctor said as he approached London.

" - WHERE IS HE !!!!" London yelled.

The doctor closed his eyes and replied with a ache heart :

" - We tried to save him but he died fifteen minutes after we took him out. We are sincerely sorry."

London stood there without moving. His complexion was pale and he was crying silently.

" - He was already having a hard time because of the accident and your body condition. As I told you, he was too small for a eight months. Stress and anxiety can be the principal causes. You were also malnourished. We had noticed you had bad blood pressure and low calories. So we need to have further examinations…."

London couldn't hear anything anymore. He just learned he had been pregnant and that he lost it, and that because of his carelessness he killed his eight months baby.

His eyes immediately went on the cutter on the table next to the pieces of apples. He grabbed it rapidly, confusing everyone. He was about to pierce his neck but the doctor prevented it.

London struggled while screaming and crying. The nurse tried to take the cutter but London was holding it hard.

Thomas ran as soon as he heard the screams. He immediately snatched the sharp tool from his hand. He was about to bring London in his arms but the latter kicked him in his stomach and he fell against the table.

" - It's your fault !" London screamed as he grabbed the cutter on the floor. He rushed towards Thomas and aggressively climbed on top of him, trying to stab him but Thomas was stronger than him.

London was bleeding from his wounds. Thomas tried his best to not hurt him more. The blood was already staining London's hospital robe and Thomas' shirt.

" - You destroyed me ! You destroyed everything!!!" London was crying.

Security guards arrived and forced London to let go of the tool.

" - DON'T HURT HIM !!!" Thomas yelled when they tackled London on the floor.

The doctor didn't waste time and stung London on the neck with a sedative needle.

Soon London stopped moving. Thomas lifted him and put him back on the bed.

" - We need to stitch him back," The doctor said breathless.

Thomas nodded while wiping London wet cheeks.

He really did destroy London…